Your Song
Chapter 11
The door clicks close silently as I try not to alert Liam that I have come home. I’m hoping he has gone to sleep as it is very late still but I can hear movement and the TV coming from the living room. I’m unsure what my next move is going to be, I could make it to the bedroom without him hearing me but a small part of me wants to confront him. The alcohol still in me wants a fight. I decide to go with the second option and I walk into the living room.
I stand in the doorway and our eyes immediately meet. His are red and bloodshot like he has been crying. Liam stands from the sofa and closes the gap between us. He studies my face to see if I flinch or object when he lifts my arms up and for the third time tonight my wrists are inspected.
After Liam inspects the damage he lets my arms fall back down to my sides. ‘I’m so sorry I did this to you darling, I was angry and I was scared because I didn’t know where you were.’ I place my fingertips over Liam’s mouth to stop him rambling.
‘I know baby. I’m sorry for what I did tonight. I shouldn’t have just gone out without letting you know.’ I remove my fingers and Liam smiles down at me.
‘Let’s just go to bed and forget about it.’ Liam says planting a small kiss onto my forehead.
I smile back at him and let him lead me down the hall to our bedroom but I won’t forget about this. I won’t forget about the night that Liam hurt me and the night I started to question my love for Liam.
The next morning when I woke up Liam wasn’t in bed with me and the sound of his voice was coming through the open door along with the voices of company. The anger that overcomes me surprises me but why do they always have to come to my house? I’m in the mood to confront them but I better not as I have already pissed everyone off.
I get showered and dressed before marching straight into the living room where the 5 boys are all sat chatting. They stop straight away when I enter and all look at me. I put my hands on my hips and narrow my eyes at each of them.
‘Don’t you have your own homes to go to?’ I spit at them.
No one dares to answer me as they have all learnt through past experience not to piss me and Grace off.
I stare at them for a few more moments before moving further into the room to retrieve my keys and handbag that are sat on the table in the middle of them. I grab them and start to walk back out of the room.
‘Samii.’ Liam starts but I interrupt him.
‘I’m going shopping.’
‘I’m coming too.’ Louis calls after me.
‘Whatever.’ The boys have obviously decided I need to be babysat after my antics of last night. I couldn’t give a shit really as I have spent the last 3 years with at least one of them with me most of the time. They are too protective.
I wait impatiently in my car tapping my fingers against the steering wheel for Louis to join me. When we finally does I pull into the road and speed off.
‘Jesus Christ Samii slow down.’ Louis says while strapping himself in. ‘What are we going shopping for?’
‘Tampons and underwear.’ I sarcastically say at him.
Louis lets out a small laugh. ‘Shut up Samii.’
I can’t help but feel calm around Louis. Nobody talks about the whole thing with Grace and Bella or that we slept together. In our books that never happened and we are good friends.
I pull into the supermarket car park and find a parking spot. ‘I need to do some food shopping. You don’t mind do you?’ I look at Louis for the first time since we left.
‘Not at all doll. I’m just here to keep you happy.’ Louis smiles at me.
Shopping with Louis was a lot easier then shopping with Liam. Liam would complain at every opportunity about the food I was putting in the trolley or how long I was taking. Louis on the other hand was quiet apart from the few comments on the food he liked that I picked up.
‘Can I ask you something?’ Louis said but I was more interested in the bottle of shampoo I was looking at so I just hummed at him.
Louis had paused and was thinking about how to word his question. ‘How are you? You seem a bit lost at the moment.’
I almost dropped the bottle when he asked me. No one had asked me how I was in a while, everyone just assumed I was ok. I looked at Louis and shrugged my shoulders. I didn’t know how else to answer him. I carried on walking and Louis followed me. When we stopped Louis spoke again.
‘I know it must be hard for you with Harry back again. You two were in love but don’t give up on Liam just yet babe.’
I let out a long sigh. ‘Do you know what Liam done to me Louis?’
‘Yes.’
‘Well you can guess how I’m feeling towards him at the moment.’ I pick you Liam’s usual toiletries and drop them into the trolley stopping to look at Louis.
‘When are you next fighting?’ I ask wanting to change the subject away from my troubled love life.
‘Tonight actually.’ Louis stands up straight.
‘Good.’ I turn on the spot and carried on walking. ‘I’m the mood to see you get beaten up Tomlinson.’
Louis laughs loudly behind me and starts to follow me. ‘Watch it Payne.’
I hesitate for a moment before I remember that Payne is now my last name not Wood. I shun myself for not wanting it to be Payne.
I stand in the doorway and our eyes immediately meet. His are red and bloodshot like he has been crying. Liam stands from the sofa and closes the gap between us. He studies my face to see if I flinch or object when he lifts my arms up and for the third time tonight my wrists are inspected.
After Liam inspects the damage he lets my arms fall back down to my sides. ‘I’m so sorry I did this to you darling, I was angry and I was scared because I didn’t know where you were.’ I place my fingertips over Liam’s mouth to stop him rambling.
‘I know baby. I’m sorry for what I did tonight. I shouldn’t have just gone out without letting you know.’ I remove my fingers and Liam smiles down at me.
‘Let’s just go to bed and forget about it.’ Liam says planting a small kiss onto my forehead.
I smile back at him and let him lead me down the hall to our bedroom but I won’t forget about this. I won’t forget about the night that Liam hurt me and the night I started to question my love for Liam.
The next morning when I woke up Liam wasn’t in bed with me and the sound of his voice was coming through the open door along with the voices of company. The anger that overcomes me surprises me but why do they always have to come to my house? I’m in the mood to confront them but I better not as I have already pissed everyone off.
I get showered and dressed before marching straight into the living room where the 5 boys are all sat chatting. They stop straight away when I enter and all look at me. I put my hands on my hips and narrow my eyes at each of them.
‘Don’t you have your own homes to go to?’ I spit at them.
No one dares to answer me as they have all learnt through past experience not to piss me and Grace off.
I stare at them for a few more moments before moving further into the room to retrieve my keys and handbag that are sat on the table in the middle of them. I grab them and start to walk back out of the room.
‘Samii.’ Liam starts but I interrupt him.
‘I’m going shopping.’
‘I’m coming too.’ Louis calls after me.
‘Whatever.’ The boys have obviously decided I need to be babysat after my antics of last night. I couldn’t give a shit really as I have spent the last 3 years with at least one of them with me most of the time. They are too protective.
I wait impatiently in my car tapping my fingers against the steering wheel for Louis to join me. When we finally does I pull into the road and speed off.
‘Jesus Christ Samii slow down.’ Louis says while strapping himself in. ‘What are we going shopping for?’
‘Tampons and underwear.’ I sarcastically say at him.
Louis lets out a small laugh. ‘Shut up Samii.’
I can’t help but feel calm around Louis. Nobody talks about the whole thing with Grace and Bella or that we slept together. In our books that never happened and we are good friends.
I pull into the supermarket car park and find a parking spot. ‘I need to do some food shopping. You don’t mind do you?’ I look at Louis for the first time since we left.
‘Not at all doll. I’m just here to keep you happy.’ Louis smiles at me.
Shopping with Louis was a lot easier then shopping with Liam. Liam would complain at every opportunity about the food I was putting in the trolley or how long I was taking. Louis on the other hand was quiet apart from the few comments on the food he liked that I picked up.
‘Can I ask you something?’ Louis said but I was more interested in the bottle of shampoo I was looking at so I just hummed at him.
Louis had paused and was thinking about how to word his question. ‘How are you? You seem a bit lost at the moment.’
I almost dropped the bottle when he asked me. No one had asked me how I was in a while, everyone just assumed I was ok. I looked at Louis and shrugged my shoulders. I didn’t know how else to answer him. I carried on walking and Louis followed me. When we stopped Louis spoke again.
‘I know it must be hard for you with Harry back again. You two were in love but don’t give up on Liam just yet babe.’
I let out a long sigh. ‘Do you know what Liam done to me Louis?’
‘Yes.’
‘Well you can guess how I’m feeling towards him at the moment.’ I pick you Liam’s usual toiletries and drop them into the trolley stopping to look at Louis.
‘When are you next fighting?’ I ask wanting to change the subject away from my troubled love life.
‘Tonight actually.’ Louis stands up straight.
‘Good.’ I turn on the spot and carried on walking. ‘I’m the mood to see you get beaten up Tomlinson.’
Louis laughs loudly behind me and starts to follow me. ‘Watch it Payne.’
I hesitate for a moment before I remember that Payne is now my last name not Wood. I shun myself for not wanting it to be Payne.
Notes
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