perrie forced me to go to the bar with them and i just couldn't say no to my best friend so i went along.

even though i had to watch Louis and Eleanor snog. eww. i know the only reason i didn't like it was because deep down inside i kinda felt something for lou. i know he has a girlfriend but he was just so hot.

and he is only 2 years older than me. "here try this" perrie handed me some drink that looked really good. i tasted it and it was fruity and tangy. the last thing i wanted to do was get drunk tonight so i only took a few sips even though my mind was screaming at me to get drunk to forget about louis. forget what they do to each other. forget all there kisses-

ugh. i feel sick. i told perrie i would be right back and walked to the bathroom.

i had to hold on the wall and look for the door because it was semi-dark through the hallway that led to the bathroom and exit. "you finally showed uppp" i heard someone slur. it sounded familiar but i couldn't quite pinpoint the voice.

the person grabbed my arm and i tried to scream but they covered my mouth. "shh its just me Louis!' he grabbed my hands and released my mouth.

"Louis your drunk" i pointed out and he laughed.

"well obviouslyyyy" he pushed me against a corner.

"you don't know what your doing" i told him.

"yes i do i'm kissing my girlfriend" he slammed his lips onto mine. i shoved him roughly on his chest and he laughed. "you like it rough" he muttered on my lips.

this is so wrong. he thought i was Eleanor but i wasn't. its because he is drunk. i shoved him again but he still didnt stop. we heard laughing and now i was really shoving him.
what if it was eleanor.
what if she saw ME kissing louis.

these were the thoughts flooding my mind along with panic and fright. i was enjoying his lips on mine but i couldnt worry about that now. "louis! oh my god.. MEGAN! what are you doing! you said you werent drinking!"

"megan?" louis finally pulled away. perries phone light shone over me and louis had a wide eyed expression.

"megan how could you kiss him when you know he has a girlfriend. that makes you seem like a total slut. howe much have you drank??" she asked me.

through my tears i answered "o-only a f-few sips of that drink y-you gave me"

"so your not even drunk and your messing around with another girls boyfriend!! im so dissapointed in you" and with that perrie walked away with louis and i ran into the bathroom and cried my eyes out.

i have never felt so horrible in my life and i didnt even kiss him first.

Notes

this made me want to cry. god i_am_fabulouis that was tear jerking.

-ziallsgyrl2013-