Songs for chapter:
Burning Desire (Lana Del Rey)
Navigate Me (Cute is What We Aim For)


HANNAH’S P.O.V.

My nerves are starting to get the best of me. I’ve been so anxious to have sex with Niall that I haven’t thought about the inevitable nerves. The second he looked at me, self-consciousness and doubt took over and now I’m starting to rethink my tactics.

He’s just standing there, mouth gaping. I take a step toward him and cover myself insecurely. I feel the need to break the uneasy silence.

“Niall? I-“

The next thing I know, his lips are everywhere, hands pressed against my lower back, pulling me closer to him.

“You look so beautiful.”

His mouth moves slowly against my neck and I can feel my pulse lose control. My breathing becomes erratic as his hands trail down to my ass, gripping tightly and kissing me full on the lips. I whimper and finally gather my sanity, allowing my arms to rest comfortably over his shoulders.
Once my body takes over, it seems to all fall into place; our movements are fluid and suddenly I’m so glad that we didn’t do this when I first wanted to. This moment, right now, couldn’t be any more perfect. After making out in the archway for a few minutes, Niall pulls away reluctantly, pushing me back softly toward the rest of the penthouse. I reach over and flick a nearby light on, illuminating the pitch black living room. Niall examines the room for only a moment before returning his attention to me.

“We’re not about to make love in one of your dad’s penthouses, are we?”

I giggle and swoon internally at his having called it “making love”, not fucking, or just having sex.

“No, this isn’t one of my dad’s,” I consider explaining where we are, but then it hits me, “How did
you know that he owned penthouses in the city?”

I start to unbutton Niall’s shirt, deciding that I don’t even know if I care to know the answer. However, he answers me while gently brushing his hands up and down my arms.

“He, uh,” Niall takes a deep breath, obviously wanting to avoid the topic, “He wanted me to live in one of them.”

My fingers stop at the middle of his shirt and our eyes meet.

“What?” I don’t mean to sound upset; it’s a good thing really. I’m just a bit shocked.

“Yeah, but I politely turned down his offer, don’t worry.”

I should have seen that coming, but I can’t say that I agree with his decision. I honestly wish I had thought about asking Dad to help sooner. Niall starts school really soon and he doesn’t have anywhere to stay. Louis wants him to stay there still, but it’s highly impractical and honestly a little awkward, even if Niall doesn’t know that it is.

“Are you sure you couldn’t, you know, change your mind?”

I resume my work of removing his shirt, slowly guiding him back to the bedroom.

“Hannah, I can’t- I can’t accept that from him.”

I undo the last button and allow his shirt to fall open, revealing his solid, flat stomach. I lean forward and press a slow, faint kiss to his collarbone as I push the sleeves off of his shoulders. His shirt falls to the ground and we’re only steps from the bedroom.

“Niall, it wouldn’t be a bad idea. You’ll have to be in the city again soon and if you had your own
place, we could...”

I allow my lips to still in front of his as my hands trailed down his chest, my fingers hooking under the waistband of his pants, insinuating the conclusion of that sentence.

“Can we talk about this later? I’m harder than I’ve been in my entire fucking life and you’re just
teasing me now!”

If I didn’t know any better, I’d actually think that Niall was mad. I grin and nod my head in
agreement. Before I can take control of the situation again, though, he wraps his arms around my waist and presses our bodies together tightly. I gently pull him closer to the bedroom door until he catches on to my subtle directions.

My back hits the door roughly and I gasp in surprise, quickly regaining my thoughts and reaching for the small metal knob.

If Niall weren’t holding me as close to his body as physically possible, I would have fallen through the door, but instead, and strategically backs me up until the backs of my thighs make contact with the mattress and we topple over laughing.

Once we have scooted up to the pillows, Niall wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me close to his body. The mood changes from hot and steamy to sweet and comfortable.

“You know, Hannah. I’m glad it’s happening this way.”

He kisses my forehead and then my lips again. I gently stroke my fingers through his messy
blonde hair and lay on his shoulder.

“I am too. You were right about everything. I was too rushed about it all; I was just trying to be the
opposite of everything my life encompassed before. I guess I didn’t realize that it doesn’t have to
be that way. Like, just being with you and having a real relationship means a lot more than be spontaneous and crazy.”

He smiles at my realization, almost proudly, before rolling over and positioning his body over mine.
He grinds his hips down once and grins at the way my eyes flutter shut.

“Don’t ever force yourself to be someone you’re not,” he kisses along my jaw, “because you’re
the most interesting girl I’ve ever met.”

I smile and reach up to place my hands on either side of his face, pulling him down for a kiss: a
kiss that doesn’t break for what seems like five hours, but not a moment too long. Our clothes have been steadily stripped until we’re both only in our underwear, panting and beginning to sweat.

“I know you want this to be romantic and perfect, Ni,” he kisses my raw lips once more and lifts his head up to look at me, “but I can’t take much more foreplay. I want you so bad.”

He chuckles in exasperation, kissing me with more fervor before sitting up on his knees and pulling down my panties slowly. I feel shivers throughout my body as my hands trail down his sides, stopping only once I reach his boxers. His eyes shift over my body and meet with mine in a moment of intense passion.

“Are you sure about this, Hannah?”

I roll my eyes, but can’t miss the seriousness in his tone. I maintain eye contact as I drag his
briefs down.

“I am absolutely certain, Niall. I swear.”

Within a few seconds, he’s kicked off his shorts and is leaning over me to reach the condom that I personally placed on the bedside table.


NIALL’S P.O.V.


As I slip on the condom, I feel jittery and more excited than anything; but, I can’t help but to feel like I’m taking away Hannah’s innocence. I suppose I am and there isn’t anything wrong with that when she wants me to.

I consider asking her again if she’s ready, but then I’d just be redundant and annoying and I don’t want to kill the mood. So, instead, I seal our lips together and gently start to push my length into her. She gasps and I continue to kiss her gaping mouth. I try to go as slow as possible to the point where it feels like I’m not moving at all. She’s wet, though- god, she’s so fucking wet. After a few agonizing minutes of pressing in and pulling back, I can’t go any further. I hold myself there and kiss Hannah’s forehead, her cheeks, her nose.

“Are you alright?”

She nods shakily and presses her lips to mine. A tear spills over the corner of her eye and I wipe
it away with my thumb.

“Yeah, I’m fine.”

I grin and force myself to stay in the same position.

“Are you sure; because, people don’t usually cry when they’re alright.”

She smiles widely and takes a deep breath, adjusting her hips a bit underneath me.

“I’m just really happy.”

Her newfound ease and unforgettable smile encourage me to slowly begin to move my hips back. This time I push back into her in one go, earning a soft moan from her lips. I don’t stop from there on out. I keep a very slow pace and eventually roll over so that I’m fucking into her; but, the pace remains deliberate. We kiss most of the time, but she pulls away every now and then to tell me how good it feels or how happy she is. She makes me pretty god-damn happy too.

“Hannah, I’m- I’m really close, love. I know you aren’t,” we both chuckle and she whimpers into my shoulder, “but, I’ll take care of you; I promise.”

My orgasm is intense and drags on much longer than I’ve ever experienced, but it’s so fucking good because it’s her. I thrust into her a few times to chase the ecstasy, but before I can even regain any thought process, I’m under the covers and between her legs. I put two fingers where my cock was moments before and attach my lips to her clit, sucking and licking greedily until she comes undone. Her legs shake for nearly five minutes after she climaxes and I lick over her and suck any remaining liquid off of my fingers when I’m lying next to her again. She groans sleepily and scoots over so that her head is on my chest.

The next few minutes are spent in blissful silence; only the sound of tired kisses and a fan fill the room. I wrap my arms around her and nearly feel like crying myself; from happiness, of course. I’ve just never felt connected to someone on the level that I do with Hannah and having been with her in this way, I’m only more confident that we’re perfect for each other.

Hannah falls asleep in that position after whispering, “That was perfect.” I keep her in my arms and try to make myself comfortable enough to sleep. Only, I feel guilty.

My happiness is undeserved. My dad’s in an asylum thousands of miles away. I really need to write to him... tomorrow. Greg, my own damn brother, is in an apartment on the other side of town, probably trying to forget that I exist. Allison- god, she means so much to me- and she’s scared shitless in Ireland, hopefully not pregnant with my kid. Hell, I’m scared shitless and losing sleep over it, even though the most perfect girl is naked in bed with me right now.

I carefully pull my arm out from under Hannah, making sure that she shifts into a comfortable position. I roll over and slide out of the sheets to look for my clothes. I pull on my boxers and eventually find my pants flung over the couch. My phone is in the back pocket and when I unlock it, I realize that I have four missed calls.

All from Allie.

Notes

Alright, I decided to actually update. Sorry for the wait! I think I've got this story all figured out, though so stay tuned ;) Also, school is out and I have a lot more free time than before! xx Please comment, vote, subscribe!!!