The Wanted Girl

After the event, we all decided to go back to Lou and Harry's place so we could hangout and drink. Brielle was singing what makes you beautiful with Zayn and they were both dying of laughter. I rested my head on Louis' shoulder and smiled. It was nice seeing Zayn happy and laughing again.

Zayn was probably 6 pints in and he grinned, "Did I tell you guys I finished my song!"

"No ya didn't mate! That's awesome!" Niall said, trying to be encouraging.

Liam and Louis had told me Zayn wasn't the greatest song writer and they'd had to nix some of his ideas in the past. I was kind of hoping he didn't want to sing it for us.

"Can we hear it?" Harry asked.

"If you want to! Niall get your guitar I have the music written down!" He called.

Niall got up and grabbed his guitar, sitting in front of Serena on the floor. Zayn pulled out his iPhone and showed him the cords. Niall nodded, "I think I got it."

He sat down next to me and Niall began to strum the guitar.

"It's called 'Half a Heart'! It's the first song I've written all the way through so be brutally honest.."

Like I could tell him if I didn't like it?

He smiled and nudged me before starting to sing,
"So your friends been telling me, you've been sleeping with my sweater.
and that you can't stop missing me.
Bet my friends been telling you,
I'm not doing much better
Because I'm missing half of me.

and being here without you,
it's like I'm waking up to

only half a blue sky,
candid there but not quite.
I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you

I'm half a man, at best.
with half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you.

forget all we said that night,
no it doesn't even matter
cause we both got split in two
if you could spare and hour or so
we'll go for lunch down by the river
we could really talk it through

and being here without you
it's like I'm waking up to

only half a blue sky,
candid there but not quite
I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you

I'm half a man at best,
with half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you

Half a heart without you
I'm half a heart without you

Though I try to get you out of my head,
The truth is I got lost without you
And since then I've been waking up to
Only half a blue sky,
candid there but not quite
I'm walking round with just one shoe,
I'm half a heart without you

I'm half a man at best,
with half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you

without you, without you
half a heart without you
without you, without you
I'm half a heart without you."

All of the boys eyes lit up, "It's amazing man! We need to add that to the new album before it gets released!"

Zayn smiled eagerly, "You like it?!"

I clapped, "It was amazing Zayn. Seriously."

I pushed back the tears in my eyes and squeezed Louis' hand. He rubbed his thumb over my fingers and moved the hair over my ear before kissing my cheek. I felt a familiar feeling in the air. Looking around the room, I knew I'd never been here before. Never seen Zayn sing his own song, never seen Harry with Brielle on his lap, never seen Serena with Niall, everything was foreign. But something felt so close to my heart. Before I could even process my thoughts, I said it out loud.

"She's here with us. I can feel her." I whispered, allowing a tear to finally fall from my eyes.

Zayn hurried next to me and pulled me off of Louis and into his chest, "I.. I'm sorry Sophie. I didn't mean to make you upset."

"No no no! It was beautiful. She's here Zayn. I can feel her. I don't know how that's even possible but I.. I just know it. That song was so perfect." I smiled, the tears weren't as much sadness as it was relief.

Perrie wasn't gone. She was here with us. But rather than feeling her through her own music, we felt her through Zayns. And that was so special.

Notes

Sorry for the super short update :( but I'm currently writing a ten page paper on biorhythms and my dumbass chose the cute boy to be my partner. long story short he facebooked me two pages and wasted half the references leaving 8 pages for me to write. ALWAYS GO WITH THE NERDY BOY LADIES, BECAUSE THE CUTE BOYS ARE ALMOST ALWAYS FUCKING DUMB.

anywho, I love you all <3