"And then he rubbed his eyes, feeling around for his eyebrows and screamed! Like a complete and total girl! It was easily Siva and Tom's best moment so far." Everyone was dying of laughter at my story of Max getting wasted and getting his eyebrows shaved off in his sleep.

Louis nudged Niall and pointed to Zayn, then rubbing over his eyebrows.

"I will beat the living shit out of you Tommo! Don't test me!" Zayn made a fist and pointed at Louis.

Everyone was getting along so well and laughing, it was amazing.

"So can we meet The Wanted boys?!" Harry asked hopefully.

"Um, do you want to? I mean you've met before? and it obviously hasn't ended well either time."

"Well I've hungout with Nathan twice now and he seems nice!" Niall said.

"And Max and I had a normal conversation that one time." Louis added.

"I mean I can ask them, I'm not sure if they'll agree. But I can ask."

"I bet they're still a tad jealous that you're going on tour with us!" Liam grinned.

"Oh um.. about that..." I mumbled.

Louis looked at me, stunned, "Wait, you ARE going on tour with us right babe?"

"Yeah Soph come on we can't do it without ya." Zayn said, pouting.

I knew what he meant was 'Louis and I can't do it without you' and that broke my heart.

"I don't know yet. It's a huge decision. I've spent the last three years with those boys. One of them is my brother for God's sake. I mean what if Lou started dating someone from Union J and decided she wanted to go on tour with them instead?" I tried to reason.

"Lou would never do that." Harry said, matter-of-factly.

"Exactly. So the fact that I'm even considering 1D is a huge deal to everyone. You guys have to be patient with me here. I'm not sure if I could leave either of you for that long.."

I thought back to Perrie. Max and Nathan had come over almost every other day to check on me. Tom, Siva, and Jay had stopped by too. I couldn't have gotten through the last couple of weeks without them. But without Louis and the other boys? I don't have any idea what I would have done.. It's scary to think that the people you love the most have to be so similar yet so different, and you have to chose between the two.

"Well I think you deserve at least a little bit of time to decide! We'll give you a week!" Niall winked and I began to laugh feverishly.

"Okay fine. One week, I'll decide."

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The next day was another big step, they had an interview and Zayn was going. It was the first work related thing he had to do. I think I was more nervous than he was. I was fixing everyones clothes and hair, cleaning the house, doing anything I possibly could to keep busy and not worry about it.

Once again, the interview was going to be live on television. After what happened last time, I can't say I wasn't freaking out inside. What made it worse: Perrie wouldn't be here with me to watch. I turned on the TV and watched the opening credits. That poor interviewer, the same woman from last time. I'm sure they had to pay her a lot of money considering the shit show she endured last time around.

"We have back with us the worlds biggest boyband! Everyone please give a warm welcome to Niall, Harry, Zayn, Liam, and Louis!"

The crowd cheered and the boys all walked out, smiling and happy. Even Zayn.

"Thank you boys for coming to speak with us today. Zayn, how are you?" She asked sympathetically.

I felt my entire body tense up. Watching someone who didn't know Perrie talk about her made me furious. How can you pretend to be sympathetic when you have no idea how incredible she was?

"I'm feeling a little more alright everyday. I'll never stop missing her, but I needed to get back to work and I'm happy to be here." He was so poised. When he looked into the camera, it was almost as if he was looking at me.

"Well we all miss her dearly, we're very happy you've joined us today as well. So Harry and Louis, you two are sitting next to eachother today! I'm guessing you've worked out your problems?"

Louis grinned, "Yeah, we did."

I knew the grin was completely fake, but if you didn't know him then you'd have no idea.

Harry put his arm around Louis and I snorted, he was trying to get a rise out of him and it looked like it was working.

"Lou and I will always be bestfriends, no matter how much we bicker." Harry grinned.

Louis forced a smile, "Yeeeah."

"Well we love your bromance very much and we're happy to hear you're getting along. So Sophia George is rumored to be going on tour with you all next year, true or false?" The interviewer asked. Why am I a constant topic on this fucking show.

"We don't know who will be our stylist next year. As of right now, Lou Teasdale is our stylist and that's that." Louis said, trying to end the conversation.

"So this rumor is false?" She asked.

"The rumor isn't either, I don't want to say she isn't because I guess anythings possible. But as of right now, she's signed on with The Wanted and we wouldn't try and take her away from them unless she felt it was best for HER." Louis was in super-boyfriend mode. Sending me subliminal messages through interviews.

"Okay then! So we're going to play a game! Name the One Direction song that best describes your current girlfriend/love interest/crush."

I could feel my body fuming, could they NOT leave out love questions for Zayn's sake? Really?

The boys all nodded in agreement.

"Okay, Niall?"

Niall doesn't have a crush on anyone.

"I don't really have a crush on anyone.."

See.

"Okay.. favorite to sing then." She pushed.

"Little things, cause I get ta play the guitar." He grinned.

Niall loves his guitar more than girls, yup yup.

"Okay, Harry."

This should be interesting.

"One Thing, because there's always something special about each girl."

Good answer Miss America.

"Liam."

"Over Again." He mumbled.

What?

"Well that's a very sad song, are you and Sophia Smith still together?"

"No, we're not."

The shock on Zayn's face mirrored mine. When did THAT happen?

"I see, I'm sorry." The interviewer said, clearly hoping she wouldn't be having another boyband meltdown on stage.

"It's okay. It just wasn't meant to be."

Poor babe.

"Well that's a very good mindset to have. Louis, what would your song for Sophia be?" She asked.

He smiled and folded his arms, "Either Truly, Madly, Deeply or Last First Kiss."

"Awe! Well we love you two together!" She cupped her hands around her mouth and the corwd awe'd.

"Louis also knows Sophie's watching this and he doesn't want to get in trouble when he gets home." Niall adds.

Very true.

"Yes but that's still my answer." He ran his fingers through his hair and grinned into the camera.

"Whipped." Zayn mumbled, smiling at Louis.

"There's a difference between whipped and smart!" Louis winked and the crowd awe'd again.

"Okay well what about you Zayn." As the words left the interviewers mouth, she realized how bad of a question this was for today.

"I used to always say Little Things, because that was her favorite song of ours. But now I think They Don't Know About Us. Every time I sing that from now on it'll be for her. She is and always will be my soulmate. She's my guardian angel and I'm so lucky to have had the opportunity to love someone as special as her."

Zayn just smiled, Perrie was on his mind and in his heart and her love was still consuming him. There wasn't a dry eye in the house. Including my own. His grieving had gone from feeling sorry for himself to feeling blessed to have had the chance to know someone as incredible as her. It was an eye opener to everyone. Perrie may be gone, but she will NEVER be forgotten. She'll never stop being loved. Never stop being admired. Her legacy is not only in her song, but in the hearts she's touched. The rest of the interview wasn't even important enough to remember. Zayn had answered with the end all be all. Perrie wasn't gone, she was living through the hearts of those who knew and loved her. It was special, a special moment that no one would ever forget.

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