Sophia's POV-
I woke up to a pounding headache and a fuzzy recollection of the night before, but the person I woke up next to helped put all of the fucked up pieces back together.

"Nathan!" I screamed quietly.

"Mmmmmm whaaaaat" He replied.

"Please tell me the steamy hook up I'm remembering was in my dreams and did not actually happen last night."

He giggled and held the pillow over his head in attempts to stay away from the right hook he knew he was going to endure. "I wish it was a dream… actually no, I'm glad it wasn't a dream."

I groaned and fell back onto the bed, "You have got to be kidding me. You have a girlfriend Nathan!" I scolded.

"Yes Sophie, and you have a boyfriend if I remember correctly." I got up and began pacing the room.

"This cannot be real life. We did not really do 'it' last night. Nathan that is beyond unacceptable!"

He sat up and smiled, "Bet you I do it better then that Lewis kid, don't I?"

I grabbed the pillow off of the bed and chucked it at his face. "I AM GOING TO KILL YOU!!!"

I screamed. Jay must've heard the commotion because moments later he busted into the door and began laughing hysterically at the aftermath. "You two did NOT really do that. Holy shit I can't decide if Max is going to kill you or kiss you!"

He ran out of the room calling the other boys and I groaned. "This cannot be real, Louis is going to freak out."

Nathan shot me a shocked look, "You're not going to tell him? Are you?"

"Are you crazy of course I'm going to tell him! I have to tell him!"

Max and Siva walked in next and I swear you would have thought he won a grammy. "YES YES YES THANK THE LORD!!!!"

I rolled my eyes as I put my heels on and grabbed my purse, "You DO understand that you're cheering at your bandmate taking advantage of your little sister right?!" I spat.

He looked at the ground and tried to hide his smile. I pushed past the two of them, "You're all fucking pigs."

In unison I heard all of them scream, "LOVE YOU SOPHIE."

"I hate my life"


I opened my phone to see four text messages:

From: Louis Tomlinson
we need to talk

From: Perrie Edwards
text me when you wake up love. hope your headache isn't too bad ;) xx

From: Niall Horan
wanna get breakfast? I'm starving and in desperate need of some Nophia time!


I would love to spend 10 minutes attempting to decipher the subliminal messages of a my confusing boyfriend but I'm a little too tired and a little too hungover. So I decide to start with Niall.

"Hey Ni, does that offer still stand for breakfast?"
"Of course, meet me at the diner in 30?"
"Perfect, see you there"

I hung up and ran to my room to jump in the shower. I made sure the water was burning hot, in hopes it would wash away the grim I felt all over my body. I couldn't believe it. I actually slept with Nathan and now my boyfriend is apologizing for our showdown at a DIVE BAR last night. Everyone is going to kill me. I want to kill me.

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"Hey Sophia, you look like hell?"

I scoffed at the irish boys snide remark, " Small price to pay for feeling like heaven."

We sat down at the coffee table and I sighed, "we need to talk"

He laughed and took a sip of his tea, "Uh oh Sophia, are you breaking up with me?"

I laughed and attempted to keep the word vomit from escaping my mouth. But of course, it didn't help. "icheatedonlouislastnightandlostmyvirginitytonathan."

I covered my mouth and watched his light and airy expression changed almost immediately.

"Sophia..... pleaseeeeee tell me you have tourettes and that was just a nervous twitch. I shook my head and fiddled with my thumbs.

"When are you going to tell him?" He asked, looking almost guilty himself.

I gulped and looked up, feeling the tears form in my eyes but quickly holding them back. "after I leave here"

He nodded his head and grabbed my hand from across the table, "It's going to be rough, you know that right?"

I nodded and pushed out a smile, "I made my bed, now I have to lie in it."

He stood up and kissed my head, "You'll be alright. Call me later if you want." Then he left me alone with my tea and my thoughts, both growing colder by the minute.

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I walked up to Louis and Harry's flat, hesitating on whether or not to go inside.

"Sophie?" I turned to see Harry standing there, smiling and perky.

"How are you feeling this morning?" He was still Harry, but something seemed off. He seemed almost distant.

"Did Niall tell you?" I asked, cutting straight to the point.

He stared at his boots and swayed his hips, "Tell me what?"

"Oh shut up I know he did. I'm going to talk to him now okay?"

He grabbed my hand on the doorknob and looked me in the eyes, "He feels really really terrible Sophia. He's been a mess all morning."

I groaned and stopped, "wait how did he know all morning? I just told Niall twenty minutes ago..."

He looked just as confused as I did. "I'm sorry.. I'm lost. What are you talking about?"

I pushed him up against the walls and gritted through my teeth, "no.. what are YOU talking about."

He looked around frantically for an escape before looking back into my anger filled eyes, "about the.. um... I.... TALK TO LOUIS"

He broke out of my death grip and ran down the complex to Liam's flat. I burst through the door and saw Louis sitting on the couch with his head in his hands.

"Louis..... why does harry seem so guilty." He looked up at me and I could tell he had had just as rough of a morning as I had.

"I'm so so so sorry...." He began.

I felt the tears welling up in my eyes, "who is she.." I tried to remember that I had done just as bad if not worse then whatever he was about to say, holding onto my last string of composure.

"Leah's friend.. Eleanor.. I kissed her.. or she kissed me? I don't know. I don't even remember it. Harry told me this morning. I'm so sorry.."

He stood up to try and hug me but I pushed him back.

"Sophia please..."

I felt a hot tear fall down my cheek, "Louis.. that's not why I can't touch you right now. I have something I need to tell you too.."

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