What The Papers Don't Say
Deal With It
I've been in bed all day long. I didn't even bother to get up and have breakfast. What's the point ? I just saw no purpose in anything anymore.And what's even worse ? The fact I have absolutely no idea how to deal with this. What do you when the person you love the most sleeps with another woman ? How do you deal with it ? I can't move on with my life like nothing happened.
" Bell !" Eleanor walked in loudly.
" No." I groaned tightening my grip on the bed sheets.
" I just heard, about everything. Why didn't you call me ?" The sudden addition of weight creaked the bed.
" Just leave me alone to die." I complained.
" Hell to the no ! Get up, get in the shower, and get dressed. "
" Why ? It won't change anything !"
" Yeah but it will change that attitude."
" Ugh." I exposed my face getting rid of the shielding sheets.
" You look like poo." Eleanor laughed.
" The light." I sighed covering my eyes.
" Oh boo hoo. Get up ! You have twenty five minutes."
" Is it hard for you to let a girl drown in a pool of her own emotions ?"
" Yes !" She yelled walking out.
" This is actually really good." I chewed through my pancakes.
" Food does make you feel better !" Eleanor laughed.
" Only for a short time though." I sighed.
" I can't believe he cheated. Talk to him, Bell. It'll help."
" I did, and it just made everything worse."
She continued looking at me as if implying ' go on'
" Two days ago." I dropped my fork on the table." He showed up at Zayn's and we stood there in the rain fighting and fighting like there's no tomorrow."
" Harry's really feeling bad about this. He was actually crying."
" So ? He doesn't get a cheating slip for throwing a fit."
" That's not what I meant. I just think if you guys talk, and talk not yell and go all mad at each other. Then maybe you'll forgive each other."
" I can't do that. I can't just talk to him and forgive him." I paused adding air quotes." Just because 'our love is stronger' ? Bullshit."
" I understand." She nodded." It did happen to me too, by the way."
" Boy that was fun !" I giggled at the memory of Hannah.
" Bell your bum looks bigger and sexier ! " Louis grabbed an apple.
" Lou !" I wrapped my arms around his neck.
" Someone's happy to see me." He chuckled against my hair.
I pulled back with a smile.
" So I talked to Harry and he sa-"
" Don't tell me. I really don't want to know." I interrupted his sentence.
" You have to know, at least in the end." He joined me on the table.
" Let's keep it that way, shall we ?" I gave him a weak smile.
" Whatever floats your goat, sistah !" Lou agreed.
" Babe, did Bell see it yet ?" He turned around.
" Oh yeah ! We reinnervated our room. Check it out ?" El smiled.
" Yes !"
"Come on !" He grabbed my hand full of excitement.
" Why are you so fast today ?" I laughed trying to keep up.
" Why not ?" He replied spontaneously opening the door.
" Oh wow." I looked around in amazement.
" You like ?" He pressed a button making the shoe rack shuffle in movement.
" And a TV on the roof so you don't have to sit up to watch !" I pointed at the flat screen.
" One of my finest ideas." He bowed proudly.
"Lou really ?" I giggled pointing at a large sized painting of a cat eating a corn dog.
" Keep it shut, Lewington." He gave me the hand.
"I said nothing." I couldn't contain my laughter.
" What ? I thought it's adorable !" He ran his hands through his hair.
" The more you stare, the funnier it gets." I squinted my eyes.
" Wanna see the closet ?" Lou asked.
" Damn, this keeps getting better and better." I walked closer.
" Please don't be blinded by my amazing sense of style." He warned with a cocky smirk.
" Good luck !" I found myself pushed into the closet as the door instantly glued shut.
" Lou what the hell ?" I yelled.
" Deal with it !" I could feel his sassy smirk behind the doors.
" Oh god. Bell !" I turned around only to find myself looking at the only person I wouldn't want to make any sort of contact with right now.
" Bell !" Eleanor walked in loudly.
" No." I groaned tightening my grip on the bed sheets.
" I just heard, about everything. Why didn't you call me ?" The sudden addition of weight creaked the bed.
" Just leave me alone to die." I complained.
" Hell to the no ! Get up, get in the shower, and get dressed. "
" Why ? It won't change anything !"
" Yeah but it will change that attitude."
" Ugh." I exposed my face getting rid of the shielding sheets.
" You look like poo." Eleanor laughed.
" The light." I sighed covering my eyes.
" Oh boo hoo. Get up ! You have twenty five minutes."
" Is it hard for you to let a girl drown in a pool of her own emotions ?"
" Yes !" She yelled walking out.
" This is actually really good." I chewed through my pancakes.
" Food does make you feel better !" Eleanor laughed.
" Only for a short time though." I sighed.
" I can't believe he cheated. Talk to him, Bell. It'll help."
" I did, and it just made everything worse."
She continued looking at me as if implying ' go on'
" Two days ago." I dropped my fork on the table." He showed up at Zayn's and we stood there in the rain fighting and fighting like there's no tomorrow."
" Harry's really feeling bad about this. He was actually crying."
" So ? He doesn't get a cheating slip for throwing a fit."
" That's not what I meant. I just think if you guys talk, and talk not yell and go all mad at each other. Then maybe you'll forgive each other."
" I can't do that. I can't just talk to him and forgive him." I paused adding air quotes." Just because 'our love is stronger' ? Bullshit."
" I understand." She nodded." It did happen to me too, by the way."
" Boy that was fun !" I giggled at the memory of Hannah.
" Bell your bum looks bigger and sexier ! " Louis grabbed an apple.
" Lou !" I wrapped my arms around his neck.
" Someone's happy to see me." He chuckled against my hair.
I pulled back with a smile.
" So I talked to Harry and he sa-"
" Don't tell me. I really don't want to know." I interrupted his sentence.
" You have to know, at least in the end." He joined me on the table.
" Let's keep it that way, shall we ?" I gave him a weak smile.
" Whatever floats your goat, sistah !" Lou agreed.
" Babe, did Bell see it yet ?" He turned around.
" Oh yeah ! We reinnervated our room. Check it out ?" El smiled.
" Yes !"
"Come on !" He grabbed my hand full of excitement.
" Why are you so fast today ?" I laughed trying to keep up.
" Why not ?" He replied spontaneously opening the door.
" Oh wow." I looked around in amazement.
" You like ?" He pressed a button making the shoe rack shuffle in movement.
" And a TV on the roof so you don't have to sit up to watch !" I pointed at the flat screen.
" One of my finest ideas." He bowed proudly.
"Lou really ?" I giggled pointing at a large sized painting of a cat eating a corn dog.
" Keep it shut, Lewington." He gave me the hand.
"I said nothing." I couldn't contain my laughter.
" What ? I thought it's adorable !" He ran his hands through his hair.
" The more you stare, the funnier it gets." I squinted my eyes.
" Wanna see the closet ?" Lou asked.
" Damn, this keeps getting better and better." I walked closer.
" Please don't be blinded by my amazing sense of style." He warned with a cocky smirk.
" Good luck !" I found myself pushed into the closet as the door instantly glued shut.
" Lou what the hell ?" I yelled.
" Deal with it !" I could feel his sassy smirk behind the doors.
" Oh god. Bell !" I turned around only to find myself looking at the only person I wouldn't want to make any sort of contact with right now.
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2/17/13