Sisters, forever and always
Dear Kat..
Dear Kat,
i cant believe it's been a year already. Not a day goes by where I don't l think about you.
It's been a painful year, some days are better than others.
Its still hard to come to grips with it, that I won't see you when I wake up. Or when I come home from a bad day and just want to watch films..that you won't be there to watch them with me.
I'm still getting nightmares. There always about you.
Well not always about you..but your always in them.
You didn't have a will, but everything you owned is in my possession. And that's how it will stay. All your things are little memories for me to cherish.
There are some of your things I can't look at. Because it's to painful. To be honest remembering you is painful.
When we went to clear out you flat, I remember feeling very overwhelmed and I needed to be alone. So I slipped away, unnoticed. I found your room, (it was nice I reckon we could have lived there nicely..)
And I just sat on your bed surrounded by your things. It still smelt of your perfume.
I remember throwing my head forwards onto the pillow to cry and it smelt of you. I pulled your duvet over my head and it was like my own..personal cocoon of sadness.
I dont know how long I laid there for, motionless. Must have been an hour. I heard a faint buzzing noise which made me push back the blanket and look to where the noise was coming from. A cabinet beside your bed, and on top was your phone. It was a call from someone irrelevant. As I was putting It back down I noticed your background.
It was a selfie we took just after we'd both dyed our hair. We were both pulling funny faces. I'm cross eyed with my tounge out and you've puffed out your cheeks and stuck out your lip.
And we look happy, we're laughing having a good time.
ive kept your phone and I keep it charged only for one reason and that's to look at that photo..
i don't think I'll ever really be happy again, because there's always going to be a piece missing.
Maybe your wondering where I am? Well I'm not back at that awful childerns home! Even though they have a new head and not that horrid witch. No I'm living here with the boys, you might know that though. See they adopted me. And Louis mother has Adopted Jess. She emails me loads and is loving her new life and I'm really happy for her.
(i don't speak to Josh or Ella or auntie. They've phoned but I don't want to talk to them. I know you'll understand. I don't need more pity from them. I have my new family now..)
it was weird at first but now it's better Harry Liam Louis and Zayn are like my big brothers. It's brilliant because there's never a dull moment. And they keep me busy on my toes with games and stuff. I find If I think about the past too much the pain will be never ending.
Niall..well I don't really see much of him. In the beginning he blamed himself. Nothig we said would change that but a year on he's better. He still feels responsible. I can see it in his eyes. There pained whenever her looks at me. And I know why. It's because he' sees you in me. it's tough..
Are you with daddy? I hope so. One day I'll come and meet you. But not yet. Not for a while I don't think.
Kitty I want to live to be 100. I want to do all the things we used to say we would do when we were younger.
After all that's done and I have new memories I will come and find you and daddy and I'll tell you everything.
Sometimes I wish I could just see you again. Just for a day. Just to say a proper goodbye. Just to hug you one more time.
everyday I visit your grave, not once have I ever not. It's something I will always do.
It was your birthday two weeks ago. That was probably the worst day. Even though I spent it here with you. I felt a ripping sensation in my chest all day.
Sometimes I wish I would just look towards a doorway and you'd be there smiling. But I know it won't happen. I hope your happy up there with daddy and you dance along the clouds with all the other beautiful angels.
Just rember that I'll love you forever. You'll always be my big sister.
I love you up to the moon and back,
Meggy x
i placed the envelope against her headstone and took Liam's hand and walked away.
what wasnt noticed was the gold beam of glittering Light appearing through the slightly pink clouds. Going directly onto the grave with the words Kat Scott written on it. And slowly the envelope floated into the up into the clouds..unnoticed.
i cant believe it's been a year already. Not a day goes by where I don't l think about you.
It's been a painful year, some days are better than others.
Its still hard to come to grips with it, that I won't see you when I wake up. Or when I come home from a bad day and just want to watch films..that you won't be there to watch them with me.
I'm still getting nightmares. There always about you.
Well not always about you..but your always in them.
You didn't have a will, but everything you owned is in my possession. And that's how it will stay. All your things are little memories for me to cherish.
There are some of your things I can't look at. Because it's to painful. To be honest remembering you is painful.
When we went to clear out you flat, I remember feeling very overwhelmed and I needed to be alone. So I slipped away, unnoticed. I found your room, (it was nice I reckon we could have lived there nicely..)
And I just sat on your bed surrounded by your things. It still smelt of your perfume.
I remember throwing my head forwards onto the pillow to cry and it smelt of you. I pulled your duvet over my head and it was like my own..personal cocoon of sadness.
I dont know how long I laid there for, motionless. Must have been an hour. I heard a faint buzzing noise which made me push back the blanket and look to where the noise was coming from. A cabinet beside your bed, and on top was your phone. It was a call from someone irrelevant. As I was putting It back down I noticed your background.
It was a selfie we took just after we'd both dyed our hair. We were both pulling funny faces. I'm cross eyed with my tounge out and you've puffed out your cheeks and stuck out your lip.
And we look happy, we're laughing having a good time.
ive kept your phone and I keep it charged only for one reason and that's to look at that photo..
i don't think I'll ever really be happy again, because there's always going to be a piece missing.
Maybe your wondering where I am? Well I'm not back at that awful childerns home! Even though they have a new head and not that horrid witch. No I'm living here with the boys, you might know that though. See they adopted me. And Louis mother has Adopted Jess. She emails me loads and is loving her new life and I'm really happy for her.
(i don't speak to Josh or Ella or auntie. They've phoned but I don't want to talk to them. I know you'll understand. I don't need more pity from them. I have my new family now..)
it was weird at first but now it's better Harry Liam Louis and Zayn are like my big brothers. It's brilliant because there's never a dull moment. And they keep me busy on my toes with games and stuff. I find If I think about the past too much the pain will be never ending.
Niall..well I don't really see much of him. In the beginning he blamed himself. Nothig we said would change that but a year on he's better. He still feels responsible. I can see it in his eyes. There pained whenever her looks at me. And I know why. It's because he' sees you in me. it's tough..
Are you with daddy? I hope so. One day I'll come and meet you. But not yet. Not for a while I don't think.
Kitty I want to live to be 100. I want to do all the things we used to say we would do when we were younger.
After all that's done and I have new memories I will come and find you and daddy and I'll tell you everything.
Sometimes I wish I could just see you again. Just for a day. Just to say a proper goodbye. Just to hug you one more time.
everyday I visit your grave, not once have I ever not. It's something I will always do.
It was your birthday two weeks ago. That was probably the worst day. Even though I spent it here with you. I felt a ripping sensation in my chest all day.
Sometimes I wish I would just look towards a doorway and you'd be there smiling. But I know it won't happen. I hope your happy up there with daddy and you dance along the clouds with all the other beautiful angels.
Just rember that I'll love you forever. You'll always be my big sister.
I love you up to the moon and back,
Meggy x
i placed the envelope against her headstone and took Liam's hand and walked away.
what wasnt noticed was the gold beam of glittering Light appearing through the slightly pink clouds. Going directly onto the grave with the words Kat Scott written on it. And slowly the envelope floated into the up into the clouds..unnoticed.
Notes
The end :)
you should do a story about how louis,zayn or liam(cause you have one about harry and this one was niall ) find this girl that has been raped after a party then to repay the one who found her she goes on a date with him ....ect.
this story is so awesome i read the dancer and that one is wondeful
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