Written in the Scars
-chapter2-
(continued from chap 1)
**Mari's pov**
As I walked to algebra I thought of what Harry and Chelsea called me.
"BITCH!" "SLUT".
I tried to forget but the words kept running through my fragile mind like a song stuck in my head.
I really hate this feeling, the feeling that it seems no one could help me.
I tried to pull myself together as I walked into algebra, thankfully I was on time. As I went to my seat I remembered who was in my class, Liam, Zayn, and Perrie.
I took a deep breath as I saw them walk in, surprisingly none of them payed notice to me.
Our teacher greeted us and we began writing five questions on a piece of paper. I finished mine quit fast, the teacher told us to ask write five miscellaneous questions.
I did exactly that, while everyone was finishing up. Then randomly I felt something lightly hit my shoulder. It was a crumpled piece of paper I picked it up and turned around to see who threw it...
It was Louis, I completely forgot he changed classes just to be in mine!
He had a half evil looking smirk on his face but innocent eyes.
he mouthed "Read it".
it said
5 questions,to the biggest freak ever...
1. Why do you even exist?
2. Why don't you kill yourself?
3. Why are you such a whore?
4. Why do you always wear long sleeved jumpers?
5. you're worthless.
I felt a tear roll down my cheek, I wiped it with my sweater and just as I was about to run out of class, the bell rang. As I got up to leave, Louis walked in front of me and stuck out his shoe and I tripped over it landing right on my face, it stung so bad,
he left with the others leaving me on the floor, a teary eyed girl.
I got up lightly brushing my fingers over my cheek, it felt hot and it was swelling fast.
I quickly got up and went to my locker, I don't give a shit anymore today, I grabbed my bag, slammed my locker, tears rushing down my face, I was almost to the door leading out of the school when I saw Chelsea with harry. she was straddling him
I looked down fast so they wouldn't notice me and interrupt their make-out session and I heard their sexual comments which made me cringe.
I'm not one to call names much but how could the school let her freaking wear that?!?
I was about to leave out the school doors when Harry called my name like a serial killer.
"Mariiii, where are you going Mariiii? I heard him taunt. I was out FAST!
**skip to walking home**
I know I missed a ton of classes but I wanted to go home and just cry.
You know in Monsters inc. how at the end they shredded Boo's door, and that sad music played, it makes me cry every time, that's the music playing in my head as I walk home. The tears were still running down my face as I walked home, I was on my way up the street when I saw Niall across the road by his house which is just down the road from mine sitting on his steps on the front porch.
"Keep you face down and don't look up" I mumbled quietly.
He usually skips school at this time everyday,
harry and chelsea are probably having sex like always at this time.
But Niall must have noticed me walking home early with the tear stains on my cheeks
because he called me over "Mari!" he shouted. I ignored and kept walking thinking it was just another joke to kick me in the leg and laugh at me while I wince and cry in tears. He's hurt me so badly before that it even hurts to think about how he beat me and let me bleed.
"MARI!" he shouted again, but all I did was snap my head to him and he must have seen how bad I looked with a giant bruise on my cheek and puffy eyes, because his whole expression on his face changed.
I shook my head 'no' at him and continued walking up to the front door of my house and slammed the door once I entered.
(*remember none of her foster parents are home till a few days so Mari's alone*)
I ran up stairs to my bathroom still crying of shame, I threw the bottles of hair stuff and towels out of my cupboard and dug for my box of blades I hid not to be discovered by anyone but me, I grabbed one and sat in my bathtub after locking the door,
why do you even exist? -CUT
why don't you kill yourself? -CUT-CUT
why are you such a whore?-CUT-CUT-CUT
why do you wear long sleeved jumpers? "BECAUSE OF YOU!"i screamed-CUT
I took the blade and slit it all the way down my arm...
I set down the blade on the side of the tub and turned on the bath watching blood drip
from my fragile fingers, "7 fucking weeks I was clean, I thought I could stop." I sobbed.
I closed my eyes and let the water clean the deep cuts as I winced.
**15 MINUTES LATER**
I got dressed in my favourite bunny pj's and laid in bed thinking about why everyone hates me.
I decided to go on my MacBook Pro and watch my favourite Youtubers, Kaleel and Anthony, Felix and Marzia, I love seeing them in real love because they are perfect and hilarious,I was finally forgetting about my pain by watching Syndicate and SeaNanners and Minx and CinnamonToastKen play Prop Hunt with pewdiepie. Soon enough the doorbell rang..."Coming!" I yelled as I hopped out of my bed and went down stairs to answer the door, and the next thing I know harry, louis, chelsea, threw a bucket of water mixed with red dye in it, then I was sprayed with a ton of fricken silly string. "Aww, are you gonna cry little bitch?" Harry mocked in a baby voice.
Then chelsea shoved me onto the ground and pulled up the sleeves of my ruined bunny sweater revealing the deep cuts with words ingraved in my arm as well, she and louis held me down while chelsea took a pic of each arm with an evil smirk across her face, I cried and winced for help quietly, when she was done with taking the pictures, she kicked me in the ribs and ran with louis out the door, I winced with tears down my face when I opened my eyes I saw Harry there shocked at what he was looking at, my cuts. one second later chelsea grabbed harry from his spot at the door frame and started kissing him in front of me but he pulled back. Then chelsea said out loud "Let the whore suffer and bleed, she deserves it!" With that she yanked harry away with a lot of force almost as if harry didn't want to leave but that's impossible he wants me dead like everyone else. with that they left slamming the door as I wept.
"Why me?!?!?!" I cried.
**Mari's pov**
As I walked to algebra I thought of what Harry and Chelsea called me.
"BITCH!" "SLUT".
I tried to forget but the words kept running through my fragile mind like a song stuck in my head.
I really hate this feeling, the feeling that it seems no one could help me.
I tried to pull myself together as I walked into algebra, thankfully I was on time. As I went to my seat I remembered who was in my class, Liam, Zayn, and Perrie.
I took a deep breath as I saw them walk in, surprisingly none of them payed notice to me.
Our teacher greeted us and we began writing five questions on a piece of paper. I finished mine quit fast, the teacher told us to ask write five miscellaneous questions.
I did exactly that, while everyone was finishing up. Then randomly I felt something lightly hit my shoulder. It was a crumpled piece of paper I picked it up and turned around to see who threw it...
It was Louis, I completely forgot he changed classes just to be in mine!
He had a half evil looking smirk on his face but innocent eyes.
he mouthed "Read it".
it said
5 questions,to the biggest freak ever...
1. Why do you even exist?
2. Why don't you kill yourself?
3. Why are you such a whore?
4. Why do you always wear long sleeved jumpers?
5. you're worthless.
I felt a tear roll down my cheek, I wiped it with my sweater and just as I was about to run out of class, the bell rang. As I got up to leave, Louis walked in front of me and stuck out his shoe and I tripped over it landing right on my face, it stung so bad,
he left with the others leaving me on the floor, a teary eyed girl.
I got up lightly brushing my fingers over my cheek, it felt hot and it was swelling fast.
I quickly got up and went to my locker, I don't give a shit anymore today, I grabbed my bag, slammed my locker, tears rushing down my face, I was almost to the door leading out of the school when I saw Chelsea with harry. she was straddling him
I looked down fast so they wouldn't notice me and interrupt their make-out session and I heard their sexual comments which made me cringe.
I'm not one to call names much but how could the school let her freaking wear that?!?
I was about to leave out the school doors when Harry called my name like a serial killer.
"Mariiii, where are you going Mariiii? I heard him taunt. I was out FAST!
**skip to walking home**
I know I missed a ton of classes but I wanted to go home and just cry.
You know in Monsters inc. how at the end they shredded Boo's door, and that sad music played, it makes me cry every time, that's the music playing in my head as I walk home. The tears were still running down my face as I walked home, I was on my way up the street when I saw Niall across the road by his house which is just down the road from mine sitting on his steps on the front porch.
"Keep you face down and don't look up" I mumbled quietly.
He usually skips school at this time everyday,
harry and chelsea are probably having sex like always at this time.
But Niall must have noticed me walking home early with the tear stains on my cheeks
because he called me over "Mari!" he shouted. I ignored and kept walking thinking it was just another joke to kick me in the leg and laugh at me while I wince and cry in tears. He's hurt me so badly before that it even hurts to think about how he beat me and let me bleed.
"MARI!" he shouted again, but all I did was snap my head to him and he must have seen how bad I looked with a giant bruise on my cheek and puffy eyes, because his whole expression on his face changed.
I shook my head 'no' at him and continued walking up to the front door of my house and slammed the door once I entered.
(*remember none of her foster parents are home till a few days so Mari's alone*)
I ran up stairs to my bathroom still crying of shame, I threw the bottles of hair stuff and towels out of my cupboard and dug for my box of blades I hid not to be discovered by anyone but me, I grabbed one and sat in my bathtub after locking the door,
why do you even exist? -CUT
why don't you kill yourself? -CUT-CUT
why are you such a whore?-CUT-CUT-CUT
why do you wear long sleeved jumpers? "BECAUSE OF YOU!"i screamed-CUT
I took the blade and slit it all the way down my arm...
I set down the blade on the side of the tub and turned on the bath watching blood drip
from my fragile fingers, "7 fucking weeks I was clean, I thought I could stop." I sobbed.
I closed my eyes and let the water clean the deep cuts as I winced.
**15 MINUTES LATER**
I got dressed in my favourite bunny pj's and laid in bed thinking about why everyone hates me.
I decided to go on my MacBook Pro and watch my favourite Youtubers, Kaleel and Anthony, Felix and Marzia, I love seeing them in real love because they are perfect and hilarious,I was finally forgetting about my pain by watching Syndicate and SeaNanners and Minx and CinnamonToastKen play Prop Hunt with pewdiepie. Soon enough the doorbell rang..."Coming!" I yelled as I hopped out of my bed and went down stairs to answer the door, and the next thing I know harry, louis, chelsea, threw a bucket of water mixed with red dye in it, then I was sprayed with a ton of fricken silly string. "Aww, are you gonna cry little bitch?" Harry mocked in a baby voice.
Then chelsea shoved me onto the ground and pulled up the sleeves of my ruined bunny sweater revealing the deep cuts with words ingraved in my arm as well, she and louis held me down while chelsea took a pic of each arm with an evil smirk across her face, I cried and winced for help quietly, when she was done with taking the pictures, she kicked me in the ribs and ran with louis out the door, I winced with tears down my face when I opened my eyes I saw Harry there shocked at what he was looking at, my cuts. one second later chelsea grabbed harry from his spot at the door frame and started kissing him in front of me but he pulled back. Then chelsea said out loud "Let the whore suffer and bleed, she deserves it!" With that she yanked harry away with a lot of force almost as if harry didn't want to leave but that's impossible he wants me dead like everyone else. with that they left slamming the door as I wept.
"Why me?!?!?!" I cried.
Notes
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