Something You Want to Forget About
Forever and Always
(Author’s Note: Flashback scenes are written in italic.)
Ameina’s POV
I was asleep the whole time last night, thinking, crying, praying that Niall’s okay. Hoping that there is still a tiny drop of hope left.
Today I can see Niall – finally. I don’t want to just walk away from this hospital without seeing him in his hospital bed, talking to me. I need to see him and hear what he has to say to me. I don’t care if he doesn’t forgive me. I want to see him. I have to.
I looked at the sofa bed, to find Anesha still curled up into a ball, sleeping. I glanced at the digital clock on the bedside table next to me. 10.30 P.M., it read. I can see Niall in about two or three hours.
For me, that was still a pretty long time to wait. I can’t sleep again anyway, nor can I get out of my bed without permission. I’m bored out of my mind.
So I decided to spend that time I have to think.
Why would Niall save me? I thought he doesn’t care that much anymore – I never saw him ever again since that day he came up to my doorstep begging for forgiveness.
Begging.
And now I realize how pain I have put him through. I am so selfish and inconsiderate. Why haven’t I ever thought of other people besides me? I know I don’t deserve this, but Niall doesn’t either.
I am the one that has to apologize. Niall has done no wrong. This is all my fault. It’s my fault he’s begging for my forgiveness. It’s my fault he’s feeling bad about himself. It’s my fault he got hit by a car.
My fault… My fault… My fault…
Niall’s POV
I wake up, yawning. I feel some kind of bandage on my head and my right arm hurts whenever I try to move it. What happened to me? No, what happened exactly? How did I end up in here?
Soon, the door opens. I couldn’t see clearly who came inside, since my vision was unclear. Did I just faint or something?
“Mister Horan?” the person called. My vision slowly became clearer, but not that clear to see everything completely clear. But I did see that the person in front of my bed was a man in a white coat.
I tried to speak.
“Where… am I?” I croaked.
“The hospital.” The man replied.
“What happened?”
“Um… you got hit by a car.”
I tried to jerk my head up, but I can’t as pain lashed on my neck. So I laid my head back on my pillow.
Then I remember.
I decided to take a walk outside and clear my mind. I put on my shoes and walked outside. I decided to make this a long walk, so I’d have a lot of time to think. Maybe I could stop by at Claire’s house, too. She lives two blocks away from me. That’s not so far away.
But as I’m about to cross the road to her house, I saw a brunette crossing the road, but then she stopped in the middle as a car drove closer. It was driving pretty fast.
But then I realize that the girl is Ameina.
I sprinted as fast as I could. I pushed her away, letting the car hit me. I fall, and everything turned black.
I felt weak, and my chest collapses on itself. I can barely feel my body and my breathing almost stops. The doctor rushes over to me and tells me something, but… I couldn’t hear. I start gasping and panting, trying to control my breathing. But it won’t work, and then soon I can’t see anything.
Ameina’s POV
A doctor rushed in my room.
“Ameina,” he sighs, “I am Niall’s doctor, Doctor Morris. Are you feeling alright?”
I nod. “Is Niall okay?” I ask. He looks down and glanced back at me.
“Come with me.” He finally says. I nod again and got out of my bed, putting on some white slippers.
He leads me to a room, which I guess is Niall’s. I really hope he’s feeling okay.
He opens the curtain and I see Niall on a bed, his eyes closed and barely breathing, less than he was after I found him under that car in the car crash. He had a cast on his arm and a big bandage on his forehead. This is terrible.
“Oh my god!” I exclaimed, my heart pounding twice as fast.
“His heart rate is pretty low,” Doctor Morris muttered, “I’m not sure if he can make it through.”
“But… but he has to survive!” I shouted, beginning to cry.
“I’m sorry, I really am. I tried everything I could.”
“You have to make sure he lives!”
“I’m sorry, Miss Forrestwood, but there’s nothing else I can do.”
I continue to cry, salty wet tears flowing down my cheeks.
“I will leave you alone with him.” Doctor Morris declared, leaving the room.
“Niall…” I mumbled, “please live. Please… do it for me. Do it for Claire. Do it for everyone who loves you. You can’t die, Niall. Please don’t die.”
I cry again for a moment, and then I stop and stay silent. My cheeks were wet and I’m sure my nose was red after all the crying.
I held his hand, which was on top of his chest. It felt cold.
“Niall… before you leave… I-I know you won’t hear me, but… please let me say a few things.” I said again, not expecting him to answer. Now was when I got a feeling in my chest that he is going to die soon.
“If I could change anything that I did in the past, then… I would. I am so thankful that you saved me, Niall. Three times. But the third time…”
I continue to cry, but I still tried to say what I want to say before he leaves me.
“I’m sorry, Niall. I am so, so sorry. All those times we had together… I wouldn’t want to miss any second of it. I wouldn’t change it or take any of it away. But then I was so stupid. I didn’t realize how much you’ve done for me. I hope you can forgive me. Please don't ever think that I would leave, no one catches my attention like you. How your voice cuts my attention, or how I get lost in your eyes each time I gaze into them. No one will ever hold my heart the way you do, it cracks a little each time you think I would ever leave. You're the best thing in my life. Niall, I love you. So much. I don’t love you because I need you, Niall… I need you because I love you.”
I cry even more and rest my head beside his on my pillow. These are those times when I wish we can just start all over again from the moment we met.
But it’s too late now. He can’t hear me say I love him back, he can’t see my face anymore. I won’t see his eyes open anymore either. Heck, this is probably the last time I see him alone with me.
Everything is silent for a while, until I hear a voice whisper in my ear.
“I love you too.”
My head immediately jolted up, widening my eyes.
And there he was, smiling at me, his eyes open. His breathing was okay. I hugged him, my eyes teary. But these tears in my eyes weren’t tears of sorrow or pain. They were tears of joy.
I can’t believe it. Niall was almost going to die here and now. For once, I felt truly happy. I’ve never had such an amazing feeling before.
He’s still smiling at me. I smile back. His eyes were a beautiful glistening blue and they shone like the stars in a night sky.
“I’d never leave you, ‘Meina,” Niall told me, “Never.”
“Did you hear me?”
“Yes.”
“How much did you hear?”
“Just about everything.”
I giggled. I was so glad to talk to him again.
His smile faded slowly, and so did mine. We were both lost in each other’s eyes, like we were when we first met.
Without thinking, I kissed him softly on the lips. His eyes widened and we continued to stare at each other.
“Just know that I’ll always be here, ‘Mei. Always.”
Ameina’s POV
I was asleep the whole time last night, thinking, crying, praying that Niall’s okay. Hoping that there is still a tiny drop of hope left.
Today I can see Niall – finally. I don’t want to just walk away from this hospital without seeing him in his hospital bed, talking to me. I need to see him and hear what he has to say to me. I don’t care if he doesn’t forgive me. I want to see him. I have to.
I looked at the sofa bed, to find Anesha still curled up into a ball, sleeping. I glanced at the digital clock on the bedside table next to me. 10.30 P.M., it read. I can see Niall in about two or three hours.
For me, that was still a pretty long time to wait. I can’t sleep again anyway, nor can I get out of my bed without permission. I’m bored out of my mind.
So I decided to spend that time I have to think.
Why would Niall save me? I thought he doesn’t care that much anymore – I never saw him ever again since that day he came up to my doorstep begging for forgiveness.
Begging.
And now I realize how pain I have put him through. I am so selfish and inconsiderate. Why haven’t I ever thought of other people besides me? I know I don’t deserve this, but Niall doesn’t either.
I am the one that has to apologize. Niall has done no wrong. This is all my fault. It’s my fault he’s begging for my forgiveness. It’s my fault he’s feeling bad about himself. It’s my fault he got hit by a car.
My fault… My fault… My fault…
Niall’s POV
I wake up, yawning. I feel some kind of bandage on my head and my right arm hurts whenever I try to move it. What happened to me? No, what happened exactly? How did I end up in here?
Soon, the door opens. I couldn’t see clearly who came inside, since my vision was unclear. Did I just faint or something?
“Mister Horan?” the person called. My vision slowly became clearer, but not that clear to see everything completely clear. But I did see that the person in front of my bed was a man in a white coat.
I tried to speak.
“Where… am I?” I croaked.
“The hospital.” The man replied.
“What happened?”
“Um… you got hit by a car.”
I tried to jerk my head up, but I can’t as pain lashed on my neck. So I laid my head back on my pillow.
Then I remember.
I decided to take a walk outside and clear my mind. I put on my shoes and walked outside. I decided to make this a long walk, so I’d have a lot of time to think. Maybe I could stop by at Claire’s house, too. She lives two blocks away from me. That’s not so far away.
But as I’m about to cross the road to her house, I saw a brunette crossing the road, but then she stopped in the middle as a car drove closer. It was driving pretty fast.
But then I realize that the girl is Ameina.
I sprinted as fast as I could. I pushed her away, letting the car hit me. I fall, and everything turned black.
I felt weak, and my chest collapses on itself. I can barely feel my body and my breathing almost stops. The doctor rushes over to me and tells me something, but… I couldn’t hear. I start gasping and panting, trying to control my breathing. But it won’t work, and then soon I can’t see anything.
Ameina’s POV
A doctor rushed in my room.
“Ameina,” he sighs, “I am Niall’s doctor, Doctor Morris. Are you feeling alright?”
I nod. “Is Niall okay?” I ask. He looks down and glanced back at me.
“Come with me.” He finally says. I nod again and got out of my bed, putting on some white slippers.
He leads me to a room, which I guess is Niall’s. I really hope he’s feeling okay.
He opens the curtain and I see Niall on a bed, his eyes closed and barely breathing, less than he was after I found him under that car in the car crash. He had a cast on his arm and a big bandage on his forehead. This is terrible.
“Oh my god!” I exclaimed, my heart pounding twice as fast.
“His heart rate is pretty low,” Doctor Morris muttered, “I’m not sure if he can make it through.”
“But… but he has to survive!” I shouted, beginning to cry.
“I’m sorry, I really am. I tried everything I could.”
“You have to make sure he lives!”
“I’m sorry, Miss Forrestwood, but there’s nothing else I can do.”
I continue to cry, salty wet tears flowing down my cheeks.
“I will leave you alone with him.” Doctor Morris declared, leaving the room.
“Niall…” I mumbled, “please live. Please… do it for me. Do it for Claire. Do it for everyone who loves you. You can’t die, Niall. Please don’t die.”
I cry again for a moment, and then I stop and stay silent. My cheeks were wet and I’m sure my nose was red after all the crying.
I held his hand, which was on top of his chest. It felt cold.
“Niall… before you leave… I-I know you won’t hear me, but… please let me say a few things.” I said again, not expecting him to answer. Now was when I got a feeling in my chest that he is going to die soon.
“If I could change anything that I did in the past, then… I would. I am so thankful that you saved me, Niall. Three times. But the third time…”
I continue to cry, but I still tried to say what I want to say before he leaves me.
“I’m sorry, Niall. I am so, so sorry. All those times we had together… I wouldn’t want to miss any second of it. I wouldn’t change it or take any of it away. But then I was so stupid. I didn’t realize how much you’ve done for me. I hope you can forgive me. Please don't ever think that I would leave, no one catches my attention like you. How your voice cuts my attention, or how I get lost in your eyes each time I gaze into them. No one will ever hold my heart the way you do, it cracks a little each time you think I would ever leave. You're the best thing in my life. Niall, I love you. So much. I don’t love you because I need you, Niall… I need you because I love you.”
I cry even more and rest my head beside his on my pillow. These are those times when I wish we can just start all over again from the moment we met.
But it’s too late now. He can’t hear me say I love him back, he can’t see my face anymore. I won’t see his eyes open anymore either. Heck, this is probably the last time I see him alone with me.
Everything is silent for a while, until I hear a voice whisper in my ear.
“I love you too.”
My head immediately jolted up, widening my eyes.
And there he was, smiling at me, his eyes open. His breathing was okay. I hugged him, my eyes teary. But these tears in my eyes weren’t tears of sorrow or pain. They were tears of joy.
I can’t believe it. Niall was almost going to die here and now. For once, I felt truly happy. I’ve never had such an amazing feeling before.
He’s still smiling at me. I smile back. His eyes were a beautiful glistening blue and they shone like the stars in a night sky.
“I’d never leave you, ‘Meina,” Niall told me, “Never.”
“Did you hear me?”
“Yes.”
“How much did you hear?”
“Just about everything.”
I giggled. I was so glad to talk to him again.
His smile faded slowly, and so did mine. We were both lost in each other’s eyes, like we were when we first met.
Without thinking, I kissed him softly on the lips. His eyes widened and we continued to stare at each other.
“Just know that I’ll always be here, ‘Mei. Always.”
Notes
this isn't the last chapter!Heyy, i did you guys a favor. I didn't let him die! :D Haha. hope you enjoyed. xx
11/18/13