Something You Want to Forget About
Not the Same Anymore
I stared at him, my mouth open in shock. How could he do this to me?
“You were kissing her in front of me?” I asked, not expecting an answer. After all the crap happening to me, Niall tried to make it worse? Is that the whole point he’s been “friends” with me anyway?
Was he trying to make me worried I hurt his feelings? Why is he even doing this to me? I don’t deserve any of this.
“I can expl-” Niall didn’t have time to finish his sentence, as I cut him off. Why do boys always say “I can explain!” or whatever when they do something wrong? I was pissed!
“I’m done, Niall.” I declared. He looked surprised. He told me before that just because you’re used to something doesn’t mean it’s supposed to be like that all the time. Is he expecting me to just forgive him so easily after all this? Hell no. I’m not all that weak and petty anymore.
He opened his mouth as if to say something, but I shook my head, meaning that I don’t want him to say anything else. And I mean it. I’m done.
I’m done with all this crap, with cutting, anorexia, bullies. I’m not letting him get me into this anymore. I’m not my old self anymore. I’m just… I’m done.
I gave him a you-ruined-your-chance-to-talk-to-me look and stomped to class. Why should I even be angry? It’s not like I care anymore.
Niall’s POV
“I’m done, Niall.” She said to me.
Done?
There was a short pause. She gave me an angry look and marched outside. Was I really that much of a jerk? What did I do? It wasn’t my fault! I didn’t kiss that girl, she did…
Now she really hates me.
God, oh dear god, I honestly don’t know how to get her back. Ameina’s that type of girl that’s fragile and not to be toyed with. I’ve just played with her emotions… And I regret it.
There’s no chance at all for me to talk to her now. She’s already got friends and people to talk to – she wouldn’t need me anymore.
But… but I love her.
I went home and slammed my car door in anger. Dammit. Why did this even need to happen?
I’m done.
Why do those words keep repeating in my head? Ameina probably doesn’t even understand how much pain I’m feeling.
…Or does she?
Does she even love me back? I hope.
What am I supposed to do without her? She’s so special to me. Her smile, her face, her personality… Ameina’s just so beautiful. I’m surprised she’s a bully target. There’s nothing to hate about her.
But she hates me.
There’s nothing I can do about it now. She’ll just scoff at me if I try to apologize again. She won’t talk to me… Ever.
Please wake me up from this nightmare…
“You were kissing her in front of me?” I asked, not expecting an answer. After all the crap happening to me, Niall tried to make it worse? Is that the whole point he’s been “friends” with me anyway?
Was he trying to make me worried I hurt his feelings? Why is he even doing this to me? I don’t deserve any of this.
“I can expl-” Niall didn’t have time to finish his sentence, as I cut him off. Why do boys always say “I can explain!” or whatever when they do something wrong? I was pissed!
“I’m done, Niall.” I declared. He looked surprised. He told me before that just because you’re used to something doesn’t mean it’s supposed to be like that all the time. Is he expecting me to just forgive him so easily after all this? Hell no. I’m not all that weak and petty anymore.
He opened his mouth as if to say something, but I shook my head, meaning that I don’t want him to say anything else. And I mean it. I’m done.
I’m done with all this crap, with cutting, anorexia, bullies. I’m not letting him get me into this anymore. I’m not my old self anymore. I’m just… I’m done.
I gave him a you-ruined-your-chance-to-talk-to-me look and stomped to class. Why should I even be angry? It’s not like I care anymore.
Niall’s POV
“I’m done, Niall.” She said to me.
Done?
There was a short pause. She gave me an angry look and marched outside. Was I really that much of a jerk? What did I do? It wasn’t my fault! I didn’t kiss that girl, she did…
Now she really hates me.
God, oh dear god, I honestly don’t know how to get her back. Ameina’s that type of girl that’s fragile and not to be toyed with. I’ve just played with her emotions… And I regret it.
There’s no chance at all for me to talk to her now. She’s already got friends and people to talk to – she wouldn’t need me anymore.
But… but I love her.
I went home and slammed my car door in anger. Dammit. Why did this even need to happen?
I’m done.
Why do those words keep repeating in my head? Ameina probably doesn’t even understand how much pain I’m feeling.
…Or does she?
Does she even love me back? I hope.
What am I supposed to do without her? She’s so special to me. Her smile, her face, her personality… Ameina’s just so beautiful. I’m surprised she’s a bully target. There’s nothing to hate about her.
But she hates me.
There’s nothing I can do about it now. She’ll just scoff at me if I try to apologize again. She won’t talk to me… Ever.
Please wake me up from this nightmare…
Notes
Sorry havent updated in a while. School's been bugging me and I kinda ran out of ideas on what's supposed to happen. AND WHATS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN AFTER THIS CHAPTER??!!! I dont even know haha. I just feel like this story is a bit too short, so... can anyone please give me a few ideas? thaaaanks. or else I'll(ﾉ⇀‸↼‶)ﾉ 彡┻━┻ TABLE FLIP
...yeah. xx
11/18/13