Something You Want to Forget About
Miserable
I walked to the table Claire was sitting, sighing. There sat Maria, a good friend of mine. I feel a bit down. Probably because of the whole “I love you” thing.
Niall sat on a table across mine, with Harry, Louis, Liam and Zayn. He would usually invite me and Claire to sit with him, but I guess not today.
Claire continued to eat her spaghetti and looked up at me.
“He didn’t sit with us today,” she told me, “weird, huh?”
I just nodded. I’m not going to tell Claire about what happened last night.
After listening to Claire blab about… well, whatever she was talking about – I wasn’t really listening. I was busy staring at Niall. He only gave me one look – it was desperate. Like he wanted to talk to me.
I looked away. I made up an excuse to Claire and Maria that I needed to go the bathroom.
Niall’s POV
I glanced at Ameina. She was wearing a sky blue cardigan with a white shirt underneath, black leggings and black converse.
She looked so… cute. But she would probably hate me after last night.
No, what am I saying? She wouldn’t hate me. She can’t, after everything I’ve done for her. But what if she does hate me? Will she ever talk to me again? My mind is so messed up. Why did I ever think of admitting my feelings to her after such a short time we’ve been friends? She’s probably just intimidated. I hope I didn’t intimidate her too much…
She could’ve at least said something. To reassure me that she doesn’t hate me, or doesn’t like me that way. Now she probably won’t talk to me again.
But I have to try.
I guess they’re not coming to my place today. Maybe I can invite Liam over to cheer me up.
I walked up to him. “Hey, bro, come to my house today?” I asked him, trying to relax. He looked up from his phone.
“Sure.” He responded, picking up his backpack from the bench under a tree. “Let’s go.”
We got into my car and I drove off home. This feels a bit different – it’s usually Ameina sitting next to me and Claire sitting in the backseat.
As soon as we arrived at my house, we went up to the kitchen to get a snack, and watched TV.
This still felt weird. An image of Ameina sitting on my bean-bag chair across me, talking to me, appeared in my head. But then I realized Liam was calling my name.
“Nialler!” He yelled, “what’s up with you?”
My head jolted up. “I-I’m fine.” I told him. He shook his head. What the hell am I supposed to say?
“You’ve been looking so miserable since this morning, so tell me what’s up.” Liam demanded. Oh god. I’m stuck. I guess I’ll have to tell him.
“I-I told Ameina I l-love her last night,” I stuttered nervously. Liam’s eyes widened when I said the word “love”. “But then,” I continued, “she just ran away without saying anything.”
Liam stood silent for a while, but then he finally opened his mouth to say something. “She’s probably just scared,” Liam reassured, “I mean, come on. You’ve only known her for a month.”
Gosh, I hope that was true.
“But she didn’t talk to me for the whole day!” I complained. Liam raised his eyebrows. I guess that meant he doesn’t know what to answer.
I’ve got to talk to Ameina somehow. I just have to.
Niall sat on a table across mine, with Harry, Louis, Liam and Zayn. He would usually invite me and Claire to sit with him, but I guess not today.
Claire continued to eat her spaghetti and looked up at me.
“He didn’t sit with us today,” she told me, “weird, huh?”
I just nodded. I’m not going to tell Claire about what happened last night.
After listening to Claire blab about… well, whatever she was talking about – I wasn’t really listening. I was busy staring at Niall. He only gave me one look – it was desperate. Like he wanted to talk to me.
I looked away. I made up an excuse to Claire and Maria that I needed to go the bathroom.
Niall’s POV
I glanced at Ameina. She was wearing a sky blue cardigan with a white shirt underneath, black leggings and black converse.
She looked so… cute. But she would probably hate me after last night.
No, what am I saying? She wouldn’t hate me. She can’t, after everything I’ve done for her. But what if she does hate me? Will she ever talk to me again? My mind is so messed up. Why did I ever think of admitting my feelings to her after such a short time we’ve been friends? She’s probably just intimidated. I hope I didn’t intimidate her too much…
She could’ve at least said something. To reassure me that she doesn’t hate me, or doesn’t like me that way. Now she probably won’t talk to me again.
But I have to try.
I guess they’re not coming to my place today. Maybe I can invite Liam over to cheer me up.
I walked up to him. “Hey, bro, come to my house today?” I asked him, trying to relax. He looked up from his phone.
“Sure.” He responded, picking up his backpack from the bench under a tree. “Let’s go.”
We got into my car and I drove off home. This feels a bit different – it’s usually Ameina sitting next to me and Claire sitting in the backseat.
As soon as we arrived at my house, we went up to the kitchen to get a snack, and watched TV.
This still felt weird. An image of Ameina sitting on my bean-bag chair across me, talking to me, appeared in my head. But then I realized Liam was calling my name.
“Nialler!” He yelled, “what’s up with you?”
My head jolted up. “I-I’m fine.” I told him. He shook his head. What the hell am I supposed to say?
“You’ve been looking so miserable since this morning, so tell me what’s up.” Liam demanded. Oh god. I’m stuck. I guess I’ll have to tell him.
“I-I told Ameina I l-love her last night,” I stuttered nervously. Liam’s eyes widened when I said the word “love”. “But then,” I continued, “she just ran away without saying anything.”
Liam stood silent for a while, but then he finally opened his mouth to say something. “She’s probably just scared,” Liam reassured, “I mean, come on. You’ve only known her for a month.”
Gosh, I hope that was true.
“But she didn’t talk to me for the whole day!” I complained. Liam raised his eyebrows. I guess that meant he doesn’t know what to answer.
I’ve got to talk to Ameina somehow. I just have to.
Notes
Apparently Ameina had gotten too excited for this chapter...ANYWAY
I'm working on the next chapter! :3 look forward to it. xx
11/18/13