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I put my head down in shame. I knew that it was Louis who killed me, that’s the reason why I was terrified of him. The dark Louis grinned at me, he had blood all over his mouth, but he wanted more. I let go of Louis’s arm as I took a step closer towards the beast on the other side of the field. This beast wasn’t going to take control of my friends’ mind so I put out my hand in front of its face with a smile.

“Louis, please stop. This isn’t you, you need to stop right now before something happens,” I said to the beast. I was scared, I know in the past he calmed down after I talked to him but what if it wasn’t going to work? “I know he’s in there, please stop this, you’re scaring me. I love you Louis as if you were my own brother, so would you let this thing kill me? Please, stop!”

As I continued to look into the beast’s eyes, I saw something that made me drop to the ground. Louis was dead inside of his own mind. If he wasn’t in control of his mind then who was? But he wasn’t dead he was unconscious. I had to figure out a way to wake him before it gets too late.

The beast grabbed my throat and lifted me off the ground clicking his tongue.

“You know it rude to get inside of people’s head,” The dark Louis said. He brought me closer to him as he whispered in my ear. “Don’t try to save him, it will only kill you if you try Renee.”
I could see Louis trying to get through this side but he couldn’t no matter how hard he tried. My vision began to blur, I was blacking out, I needed air fast but how? My body began to go limp, I was going to die but then my body dropped to the ground. I saw the dark Louis lying on the ground crying in pain.

“Run Renee, Run!” Louis cried back as I got up from the ground weakly. I stumbled to the other side of the field to Louis holding on to my arms. “Go!” We continued to run then I told Louis to wake up.

We opened our eyes back to his room panting for air. I looked over at Louis, he was scared out of his mind.

“What the hell was that? That thing looked like me and that girl looked exactly like you! I want a fucking explanation of what that was!” Louis yelled. He paced back and forth around his room covering up his face in frustration.

“Do you remember when you asked me if I was scared of you and I told you that I wasn’t? I lied,” I took a deep breath. “After I saw this image and you tried to rape me I was scared. I thought maybe that was only a dream but it’s a dream that will soon come true. That was you, it’s the dark side of you that you keep hidden away in your mind but soon it will come out I don’t know when but it will. Also that girl was me, you killed me because maybe something that supposed to happen and your dark side tries to stop it I don’t know. The first time I entered your mind I calmed the beast inside you and turned him into the real you but this time it was different as you saw.”

“I saw that. You thought if you calmed the beast the first time you could do that again, correct? Renee, that’s fucking crazy!” Louis laughed.

“Louis, when that thing held me by my throat what did you try to do?” I ask.

“I tried to save you-“

“But why couldn’t you save me? It looked like you were frozen in fear still trying to save me. You wanted to save me but you were scared. What were you scared of?”

“I wasn’t scared I-“

“Don’t give me that bullshit I saw it! What were you scared of?”

“Of myself damn it! When I saw it pick you up, I was scared of me being that thing.”

“Louis I’m sorry, I was wonder-“

“I’m done just, just get out,” Louis said as he turned to look out his window.

I got up from the bed and walked over to Louis. I went to touch Louis’s back but he pushed me away. “I said get out!”

All I wanted to do was to help Louis by showing him the truth but I guess that didn’t help. Why is my life ending up in a mess? My parents never gave two cents, I get these gifts, Niall doesn’t want me around, and Louis is pissed off at me. Also Will is dead! Why is this happening to me? Wasn’t this pain inside me enough to deal with as someone watch as I slowly disappear? I don’t deserve to live if I’m only live by pain, I’m done. I reached out for you to save me, but you were frozen by your own fear.

I looked at Louis one last time for this was my last goodbye. I turned my head towards the door slowly, I’m going to regret my next choice I’m about to make but this has to end. They may think I did nothing wrong but I know what I am, I’m a murderer. I killed William Hunter. Niall was right and because of this accident he’s gone and now Louis’s pissed for trying to protect me even though I argued about it, maybe their lives would be better off if I never existed starting now.

I walked out of the room into Harry’s room grabbing my phone and speakers as I hung my head low towards his bathroom. I plugged my phone into the speakers so no one could hear the pain I was in so they could think that I was okay, even though I’m broken inside. I stood in the exact spot where Will’s body once laid when I saw him a couple months ago. I could still see the puddle of blood on the white tiles of the floor, blood smeared across the walls, the smell of fresh blood filled the air, and the memories came to my mind as I fell on the ground. I couldn’t holding it much longer.

“Why did you have to go, why? Will I need you, I feel broken inside even though I wear a smile on my face. I can’t holding this pain any longer, I need you. You were the only one who I trusted when I felt like it was me against the world,” I looked over at Harry’s white sink and lying there was a razor. I gradually grabbed the razor, what am I doing then I remembered, I’m done.

Renee, please don’t do this. You have a bright future ahead and you don’t need to throw it away.

Ignoring the voice, I pulled out a blade, heat filled my face and tears calmly fell to the ground.

Listen to me okay, I know your life was shit but this isn’t how you should solve those problems. Just put the blade down please!

The blade was placed in my left hand, Renee please don’t do it! There are people here that love you and care about you! Rethink about this, you will have those scars for the rest of your life and people would judge. Please Renee think about Harry and Louis, how would they feel about losing you?

“There is no one who loves me, no one! Stop telling me that there is! I’m tired of living with bullshit lies every day that it’s going to be okay, everything is normal but it’s not! If Harry or Louis cared then why aren’t they here to stop me? I want to be in a better place than this hell hole, I want to be with you Will because you were the only one who cared about me and actually loved me not because of these gifts. I’m sorry but I’m done,” I said as I put the cold metal on to my wrist.

I yelled out the pain but kept some of the screams to myself as I made a red lines on my skin.

"One."

"Two."

"Three."

"Four."

"Five."

"S-six."

"S-seven."

"Eight."

I began to loose my vision, everything became a blur. I dropped the blade as I leaned my body against the tub looking around the room as I gave a soft smile. "I'm breaking, I can't do this on my own. Can you hear me screaming out, am I all alone?"

I closed my eyes as I let my mind fall into darkness. Few minutes passed, I tried to open my eyes but my body was far to weak. I could see the bathroom lights as a blur, my heart beat slowed down it's steady pace, I could faintly hear someone banging on the door trying to get in calling out my name but they were too late. I was going to die and there's no way of saving me. I heard the door fall to the ground as someone barged in. I looked over to see Harry looking down at my right arm then at me, crying asking why. He lifted up my arm as he put some kind of cloth around the wound to stop the blood flow. Harry called out for help, asking for the ambulance. I reach out to touch Harry's face, "H-Harry." My voice with rough and hard to speak. Louis comes into the room, he asks what happened as he looks at my right arm.

"Louis we need to take her to the doctors, the wound is deep a-and-"

"We can't take her there. They would ask question about this but I do have something that would help her," Louis said as he rushes out of the room.

Harry picked up my limp body and gently placed me on the bed. I began to fade in and out, I struggled my breathing. Louis runs back into the room with a panic look on his face. Sweat rolled down my face, my body was going cold then it started to shake.

"Harry we need to hurry!"

I closed my eyes as I felt someone put a IV in my hand and a breathing tube in my nose. My vision came to as I turned my head towards the window, I saw Will looking at me. A tear fell down my face. He walked towards me with his hands in his pocket, "Why Renee, why?"

I wanted to tell him everything of why I did this but I knew that he would argue about my choice so I kept my mouth shut. Will sat down in bed next to me brushing the hair out of my face.

"Renee, I know your life wasn't great but trust me when I say that it will soon get better in the future. You need to stay here with Louis and Harry. They need you more than anyone else," Will kissed my forehead. I gave a smile. "I miss you like crazy Renee I really do but I need you here. Don't let your struggles become your identity. Be brave little hero."



""I looked over at Louis and Harry standing by the door way probably talking about me and how to protect me. All I could say is this week is going to be one hell of a week

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