Dark Secrets

I cursed at myself as Louis stood over the door way, “Where do you think you’re going?”

Well aren’t you dumb for asking such a stupid question to ask when you could just read my mind to figure out where I’m fucking going! I thought but responded to his question in a sassy way.

“You should be able to figure that damn question out since you can read my thoughts.”

I shoved passed Louis into the hall, down the stairs into the living room heading for the door until he sped past me with his vampire speed blocking the door way.

“Renee it’s too dangerous to go outside.”

“Why can’t I go outside, Louis?”

“Because of your gifts, I don’t want you to get hurt and you don’t know how to control them yet.”

“First of all Lou, I can control it and second it’s not a ‘gift’, it’s a fucking curse you should know that by now. But please do tell me again of why I can’t god damn leave the house since you know everything about what’s going to happen in my fucking life from now on,” I crossed my arms over my chest waiting for Louis to give me a good explanation.

Louis walked closer to me, “This thing you have is not a ‘curse’ it’s a gift because you were born with it. Not just that you were born with it but it chose you for a reason. Now if you want to say that you’re cursed, look at me. I never wanted to be this damned thing nor did I ever imagine being one but ever since I got fucking attacked, I can’t always control the thing inside me until now. Renee, you were chosen for a reason, a reason to have those gifts.”

How could he not understand that I didn’t want this kind of life to live? My voice got bolder, anger filled my face, “Louis all I ever wanted was a normal teenage life not a supernatural one with powers or gifts whatever it’s damn called. My life was great until Harry found me and brought me here. Once I got here, my life has been shit and I just want it all to disappear, go back to the beginning being normal.”

“Your life was not that great stop telling yourself that bullshit. Both of your parents were alcoholics, never cared about what you do even though you were always the good girl every fucking parent wanted but they pushed you away as if you were nothing but a piece of shit,” Louis said. I know that my life wasn’t great it never has but he was crossing the line about my life. I took a breath to say something back but Louis continued, “And as for Harry, you would either be dead or dead if he didn’t save your ass.”

“Louis, I know my life was shit okay? I don’t need anyone to remind me of how it was,” I yell back holding my hand in a fist.

“Your life was shit but so was mine don’t forget so does that mean that I want to remind everyone about it, no. I would love to fucking complain it but then I remember someone else’s life could be shitter than my own so I keep it to myself,” Louis takes a deep breath then let it out with a sigh as he looks at me. “Sorry but I can’t let you go out in public putting people in danger but until you could control it I will let you go, that’s final.”

Louis walks past me, my jaw dropped to the ground as my eyes follow him around the corner. I ran my fingers through my hair as I blew out steam, He’s not my fucking parent so why am I treated like a child? I’m 18 Jesus!

I turned around at the sound of the front door opening and there was Niall. I was glad to see Niall so I ran up to him with a smile and tried to give him a hug but Niall’s face went pale and backs away from me in fear. I stopped in my tracks, “Niall, what’s wrong?” Niall looked at the ground and stuttered, “Nothing.”

“Niall come with me please,” I said as we both walked into Harry’s room, I was going to figure out what’s wrong.

I shut the door then looked at Niall who was looking at the window. I slowly walked over to him, placed my right hand on his shoulder but he jumped away.

“Niall, what’s wrong? Every time I try to touch you or come near you, you either jump away or get scared. Please tell me what’s wrong, I want to help you as a friend,” I asked in a soft voice, but Niall looked away from me.

“I-I do-don’t want to be n-near you o-or ever, ever talk to you again,” Niall whimpered. “I’m moving away so don’t, don’t try to find me please Renee.”

Niall looked into my eyes, his eyes were red and filled with hurt and pain as a tear fell down his cheek. This wasn’t the funny, cute Nialler I knew but I slowly turned him around as I embraced him with a comforting hug.

“I promise I won’t, even though I will be losing my best friend but if this is what you want then okay,” I hugged Niall tighter. I let him sob letting everything out of his system, I never seen him this hurt before so this is what I was showing him. Love, I wanted him to know that even though he said those things, he would always know that I’m there for him.

I let him go, I wiped the tears off his cheek with a smile then he walked out of the room but before he shut the door I saw a small smile with a thank you as he left the room. At least I knew what was going on but still I was puzzled. Niall wouldn’t be so broken about not wanting to talk to me, he would be angry yelling in my face, giving me reasons of why but he looked hurt as if someone was forcing him to do this.

As I was figuring out Niall’s problems, Louis barges into the room, grabs my arm and pulled me into his room slamming the door.

“Why the hell was Niall crying and you better give me a good damn reason,” Louis yelled in my face. Louis was really ticking me off with his crap. Maybe he was on his vampire period.

“All I did was ask him what was fucking wrong because he tried to avoid any damn contact with me and wouldn’t give me any damn answers. So I took him to my room and he told me why. Is that a fucking problem because you seem like everything I do pisses you off,” I strictly tell him, clasping my hands together as if I was talking to a child.

“All I asked was for you to give me a good damn reason of why he was crying, not the whole fucking story,” Louis rubbed his temples. I tried to speak back but then he told me the stupidest thing anyone could say, “Renee you need to calm down before something bad happens.”

My jaw dropped. I threw my hands in the air as I walked in a circle rethinking what Louis said. I had the right to be mad. All morning I’ve been told what I can and cannot do plus on the side my friend was leaving me. I know I needed to calm down but this was ridiculous, how could I calm down when all of this was thrown in my face. I place my hands on my hips, cocking my head to the side, this has to end.

“Louis I have one question for you, if one of your closest friends told you that he was leaving and the reason why was because he couldn’t talk, or see you again, wouldn’t you question why?” I asked.

Louis crosses his arms, “There doesn’t have to be rea-“

“There is Louis! There’s always a fucking reason for everything! There’s a r damn reason why you’re a vampire, there’s a damn reason why I’m this thing. A god damn reason why Will died!”

“Then tell me, why am I this damn beast? I hunt for blood, I kill for blood that’s all I do with my life so if there’s a damn reason why I became this fucking thing please tell me!”

“Louis I-I can’t-“

“Tell me!”

“To kill me!”

Louis’s face softened as he took a couple steps away from me.

“God damn it. Louis I’m sorry but the truth is your reason was for you to kill me. Since the first time I saw you when you tried to rape me is wasn’t because the vampire side was horny, it was because you use lust to kill,” I stepped closer to Louis. I reached out my hands to touch his face as I entered into his thoughts.

I opened my eyes and saw the white place I came the first day I arrived. I looked to my right and there was Louis confused and afraid.

“H-how did you do that?” Louis asked. I shrugged my shoulders as I took him to the dark place in his mind.

“Louis I want to show you something that I should have shown you the first day I was here,” I said as we watch the nightmare play again in his head. I knew what to do, I had to be brave to show that I’m not afraid but once I looked at Louis, fear covered his face.

I took him to the place where I heard the screaming, he ran after it but I walk after him until we were both stopped by the invisible force field. Louis was crying out to the girl, he wanted to help her but he couldn’t, just like me. I grabbed his arm to pull him away from the field but he fought back for a couple minutes until I calmed him down with a warning.

“Louis, I just want to say that even though this thing coming up isn’t the real Louis I know,” I said as I grabbed his hand walking him back to the invisible force field. Louis pulled me closer to his chest as he placed a kiss on the top of my head, “I’m ready.”

I nodded my head then pointed at the same black figure walking towards us. I felt Louis tighten up but I rubbed his knuckles telling him that I’m here. The figure got closer with each step, we saw the blood dripping of the body it was carrying. Long brown hair flowed to the ground, light tanned skin and that’s when I closed my eyes. Even though I already seen this, I couldn’t look at that black figure without being scared of the possibilities it could happen but I opened eyes anyways. The figured was close, I held tighter to Louis as the figure looks up at us, Louis dropped his hands.

“Re-Renee, th-that can’t b-be?” Louis stuttered as he looked into the eyes of the dark side of himself holding my lifeless body in his bloody arms. “I killed you, Renee. I killed you.”

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