Does he know?

I decided to call Sarah, I needed advice and help from someone who knew me 100 %,

"Heeeeeey Ann, what's up? God I miss you" she said while waving her hand.

"I miss you too and I need you to come ASAP! I've fucked up this time I really have" I said quittingly.

"Tell me?" she said sounding like a psychologist.

"Well .. You know how often we have spoken about being faithful in a relationship and we both agree in that you don't cheat when you're in one? ". She looked worrying just as she knew what I was about to say.

"Yeah of course you don't cheat when you're in a relationship.. Why are you asking me this Annabelle what happened?"

"To be honest, I cheated on Harry yesterday." I held a break trying to control my emotions..
" With Zayn" I said and paused for a breath.

"Annabelle I hope you're not kidding with me because this is not fun at all. How come you've done something you've been against your whole life? How come you cheated with your bestfriend?" she sounded disenchanted.

"I don't know i've been thinking the same since yesterday. My mind is a completely mess and I don't know what to do. I finally had the best boyfriend in the world and now i'm screwing it all up. I finally god rid of the drama and now i'm causing it again ". The tears started flowing down my cheeks.

"Don't cry you can't always control what you feel but are you in love with Zayn or? I didn't know you like wanted to kiss him and stuff?"

"I have always been attracted to him but i've never imagined him as a boyfriend. I think it's because I fancied Harry from the very beginning but when me and Zayn kissed I felt something. A staggering feeling of love with a mix of pleasure and confidence and I just want more and more each time i'm around him". I was relieved that I finally had told someone how I felt deeply inside after the episode with Zayn. I straight away felt better. Sarah smiled at me as she tried to support me " I'm so glad that you've finally met someone who makes you feel like that.. So you don't feel like that when you're intimate with Harry?" she asked still smiling at me.

"I do feel great when we kiss and stuff but it's just different with Zayn and the weirdest thing is that it doesn't feel awkward. I mean I had never thought I would make out with him and stuff but when we did it felt so normal.. so lovely" I felt my cheeks getting red.
"Aw Annabelle I think you're in loveeee" she joked.

"NO! I'm not" I insisted. " You can't love two persons at the same time that is just impossible"

"Ann I think that you maybe want more because it's new for you being with another guy than Harry and you're not used to having so much attention from lads. Maybe you should take a break from Harry and see if you'll miss him and don't be physical active with Zayn okay?! I don't wanna hear any flirty comments from you or intime behavior. That shouldn't be that hard" she sounded serious but still happy for me feelings for Zayn.

"Yea I know what you mean. I'll try to 'avoid' Harry but what if I still feel guilty? Harry derserves the truth I can't stand anymore secrets"

"Keep it a secret untill you know what to say and how and untill you know how you feel about those two boys. Just try to control your emotions, kay? We'll talk tomorrow I have one thousands homework to do. Just text me if you need me"

"Thank you for your support and advice Sarah it means the world to me. Talk to you later love you" we waved to each other before logging of Skype. I decided to go for a walk and clear my thoughts.

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”If I was your man baby you’d never worry ’bout what I do. I’d be coming home back to you every night doing you right ..”

I was about to open the door when I heard Zayn singing from outside of our room.

You’re the type of woman derserves good things fist full of diamonds

I silently opened the door and tip toed into our room, closing the door slowly as I saw Zayn sitting in front of his laptop at the desk. He was in his own music world which I loved so much.

”Wow you’re really good Zayn!” I said happily. He turned his head looking all scared and confused at the same time. He fastly closed the laptop as he turned the chair towards where I stood.

”Wo…What are you doing here aren’t you supposted to be.. somewhere else!?” he asked confusingly even blushing a little.

”I was.. somewhere and then I came back .. And heard your lovely voice. Why did you turn it off I want to hear the whole song” I exclaimed. I sat next to him as he opened the laptop.

” Okay if you insist” he said and pressed play.

"Zaaaaaaaaaaayn sing along" I begged crossing my hands.

He giggled. ” Okay but it’s a very personal song so don’t laugh if I get to caught up in it”. I just nodded.

”Baby you’re a star I just wanna show you, you are you should let me love you, let me be the one to give you everything you want and need. Baby good love and procection let me be your selection , show you the way love’s supposed to be”.

As he sang I could see his veins on his neck which I found unbelievable attractive. He was fully concentrated even his eyes were closed while he sang ”You derserve better we should be together babyyyy”.

He looked so cute while he sang I felt butterflies in my stomach. I was so proud of him, his voice was fantastic I had never seen him be so soulful and serious while singing a love song.

He then looked at me, pointing at me as he sang ”with me and you it’s whatever, girl, so can we make this thing ours?”

I giggled. It was so cute he truly got caught up in the song but I didn't mind at all. He finished the song and I gave him a big hug.

" ”Zayn im really impressed. That was so fanastic. You’re going to be famous some day I swear” I said. I was so thrilled after his singing.

”Aw stop it you make me blush” he giggled. I loved his smile. He knew he could get any girl just by smiling at her.

”Is it your favourite song or? Since you get so caught up and stuff?

"Well you know how much I love singing and when no one’s around I love practing my singing and I listen to songs that fits my mood yeah, you know how I am when it comes to music."
We made eye contact and both said at the same time "Music saves lives" . We started laughing we were obiviously both surprised that we had the same thought. The quote had been our 'motto' since we started in college.

”So can we make this thing ours?” he smirked.

”Zaaaaaay stop teasing me.”

”You still feel guilty don’t you?”

”Yeah a little actually”

" I’m sorry I never wanted to let you feel bad or otherwise. ” He said as he sat at his bed. He looked sad which made my smile fade too.

”You don’t have to be sorry. We're both guilty” I said and sat next to him laughing by my own comment.

”So we both agree that we're guilty.." he whispered. " Y..Yeah?" I had no idea of what he meant.

"Will you feel guilty if I kiss you again?"

”Hmm" I mumbled as he came closer. He looked at my eyes, closing his a little yet not enough that I couldnt see his dark eyes. He tickled my nose with his. I loved the way he teased me. I couldnt stop myself from giggling. He placed his hand on my cheek ” You are so irresistible” he whispered.

He had totally control of me, his soft voice had become my weakness. I had never felt this way for him. Maybe I truly had always felt something for him without even knowing because I had friendzoned him in the beginning.
However his eyes got darker and filled with lust. We laid at his bed starting kissing softly . Slowly but trusworthy the kiss got softer, more romantic. I suddenly felt his tounge asking for entrance. Our tounges played a game, fitting perfectly together. His kisses made me so warm, I felt so comfortable with his arms around me.

He suddenly stopped kissing me. My eyes were wide open looking into his mysterious eyes.

”What’s the matter?” I asked kind of shyly.

”I don’t want to do this if it makes you feel guilty..”

”It’s okay Zayn I enjoyed it but thanks for ruining the moment” I joked.

He held me tightly under his blanket. ”Sorryyyy I enjoyed it too. You’re amazing Annabelle, Harry is a lucky man..”

I looked at the ceeling while I enjoyed the moment with Zayn as someone knocked on the door.

I didn't even get the chance to round to my bed before the person stepped into our room

”What the hell are you two doing”?!

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