Does he know?

I knocked on the door which may seem to be ridicilous but I felt like I was annoying Zayn and I didn't wish to upset him more than he already was.

"Come on in" he yelled from inside.

I walked slowly inside and asked if he wanted to talk to me as I closed the door.

"Sure I think we need to talk this out" he said not sounding mad at all. - " Come sit next to me "

He looked at me with puppy eyes and I immideately hugged him. “ I love you so much” I said as I kissed him on the forehead. He looked at me with the cutest look ever “ I love you too don’t ever doubt on that”.

“I’m sorry I’m such an idiot. I didn’t want to hurt you that’s the only reason why I lied. I’ll never do it again I promise.. I feel so bad this shitty situation. It's all my fault I know. I'm the worst person on earth!" I admitted.

"Can you forgive me, I mean are you mad at me? Zayn i'm really really sorry, I love you to death and I understand if you don't want to talk to me anymore. I'm so frustrated and sad and I just want to cry at the same time, I mean i'm a wreck and I don't really know how to explain myself 'cause when I get nervous I just talk and talk without knowing how to stop and..."It then hit me that I totally looked like an idiot standing there and just talking bullshit like a confused clown...

"You're so cute when you're nervous." he laughed.

My god, how could he take this with a smile?

"Zaaaaaaaayn don't tease me. I'm actually serious about everything" I said and sat next to him.


“Shh” he said and placed a finger on my lips. He laied me down on his bed starting kissing my lips and neck

“Ww..What are yo..ou dd.doing Zzayn?” I stuttered. His kisses gave me a strange feeling I had never felt before. What was this?

“I want to show you what we Bradford badboys are all about” he said still kissing my neck, slowly kissing lower and lower.

I got lost in the situation even though I should be with the others in the city. I shouldn't be doing this. What was wrong with us?

Even if it was wrong..

.. I don’t know why.

But I didn't stop him from doing it...

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