Talk Dirty To Me
thirty one
-KYLIES POV-
"I'm sorry this is happening to you." Niall said in a sorrowful voice wrapping his arms around me and allowing me to cry in his arms.
I let a few tears fall down my cheeks before taking a deep breath in to compose myself before finding Harry.
I slowly pushed Niall off of me but have him a reassuring smile that I appreciate his gesture. I whipped the tears from my cheeks with my fingers
" where's Harry Niall?" I asked in a whisper. I wanted to sound tougher but it was no use. I couldn't steady my voice.
"I'm here.." Harry said walking our from the bedroom. I could tell he had been crying. He looked exhausted.
" we need to talk Harry.." I said playing with my fingers not making eye contact with him. I was doing okay so far.. No tears. I knew that would change the minute I told him we needed to take a break.
" I know.." He said making me look up at him. He was rubbing his neck and I slowly walked towards him still not making eye contact. I stopped before walking into the bedroom and sighed. Harry walked in right after me and shut the door behind us.
" Harry--I"
" no Kylie please listen!" He said cutting me off " I am so so so sorry baby I am such an idiot for kissing Monica I-- I am just an idiot. I don't deserve you.." He said dropping his head.
I was glad to hear how sorry he way, but it still doesn't make up for the fact he kissed Monica. But more importantly than that how he handled the whole situation..
" Harry... I'm not going to say it's okay that you kissed another girl. You cheated on me. And now I feel like-- I-- damn it harry you broke my trust!! I'm so in love with you and I trusted you with my life! And to top it off you asked---" shit. Here come the tears. " you asked me to leave instead of her." Yup I cracked. I fell onto the bed and let my face slam down into my hands tears flowing out of my eyes.
I felt the bed dip down and heard Harry sigh.
" Kylie I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am. I understand if you need time... Or-- I heard him make a noise as if he was trying to hold back tears " if you want to break up.. I-- I understand. But I need you to understand that I am so sorry and i will be for the rest of my life. I love you so much and no matter what you decide I will always love you.."
I was letting the tears fall freely from my eyes thinking about what I was going to do. I knew the minute I came back that I needed a break.. I didn't want to lose harry but I couldn't do it anymore.
I needed to get away.. Not run away. But just take a break from all this craziness. Leaving Harry makes me want to throw up, but I know it's best for both of us.
" Harry.. I love you." I breathed out and heard him breath out a sigh of relief which made what I was about to do so much harder. I looked at him finally for the first time during our talk and grabbed his hands.
" Harry I love you.. And I forgive you. But I-- I just I need a break from this Harry. It's too much. Just a few moths ago I was sending in college applications. Now I'm missing a mother, dealing with killers... I wouldn't change what happened between us for the world. But I just need time. "
By the time I finished my speech Harry and I were both in tears. I knew at that moment that this isn't goodbye for us. This is just a break because I am 100% head over heels in love with this cheating ass hole with a crazy ass past sitting next to me.
" I understand." Harry said with a shaky voice tears streaming down his face. Never in a million years whole I have ever thought I would be crying with Harry. But here I am being so attached to him I feel my heart being ripped out and stomped on times 10. " but know this isn't goodbye Kylie. I understand you need time but I promise you no matter how much you hate me for it I will never stop trying to prove to you how sorry I am. And prove to you how much you can trust me. And how much I love you."
I pressed my lips onto his and he instantly responded buy pulling me onto his lap and shoving his tongue in my mouth. The kiss was slow and loving and I could feel the wetness from his cheeks on mine.
He broke the kiss and pressed his lips onto my forehead.
" I love you Harry this isn't goodbye I promise. I wish you the best finding your sister baby and I'll see you soon." I mumbled as his lips lingered on my forehead before pulling away to look into my eyes.
He nodded and kissed me one time.
" I love you." He pulled away and got up off my bed walking out of my bedroom. And my life..
For now.
"I'm sorry this is happening to you." Niall said in a sorrowful voice wrapping his arms around me and allowing me to cry in his arms.
I let a few tears fall down my cheeks before taking a deep breath in to compose myself before finding Harry.
I slowly pushed Niall off of me but have him a reassuring smile that I appreciate his gesture. I whipped the tears from my cheeks with my fingers
" where's Harry Niall?" I asked in a whisper. I wanted to sound tougher but it was no use. I couldn't steady my voice.
"I'm here.." Harry said walking our from the bedroom. I could tell he had been crying. He looked exhausted.
" we need to talk Harry.." I said playing with my fingers not making eye contact with him. I was doing okay so far.. No tears. I knew that would change the minute I told him we needed to take a break.
" I know.." He said making me look up at him. He was rubbing his neck and I slowly walked towards him still not making eye contact. I stopped before walking into the bedroom and sighed. Harry walked in right after me and shut the door behind us.
" Harry--I"
" no Kylie please listen!" He said cutting me off " I am so so so sorry baby I am such an idiot for kissing Monica I-- I am just an idiot. I don't deserve you.." He said dropping his head.
I was glad to hear how sorry he way, but it still doesn't make up for the fact he kissed Monica. But more importantly than that how he handled the whole situation..
" Harry... I'm not going to say it's okay that you kissed another girl. You cheated on me. And now I feel like-- I-- damn it harry you broke my trust!! I'm so in love with you and I trusted you with my life! And to top it off you asked---" shit. Here come the tears. " you asked me to leave instead of her." Yup I cracked. I fell onto the bed and let my face slam down into my hands tears flowing out of my eyes.
I felt the bed dip down and heard Harry sigh.
" Kylie I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am. I understand if you need time... Or-- I heard him make a noise as if he was trying to hold back tears " if you want to break up.. I-- I understand. But I need you to understand that I am so sorry and i will be for the rest of my life. I love you so much and no matter what you decide I will always love you.."
I was letting the tears fall freely from my eyes thinking about what I was going to do. I knew the minute I came back that I needed a break.. I didn't want to lose harry but I couldn't do it anymore.
I needed to get away.. Not run away. But just take a break from all this craziness. Leaving Harry makes me want to throw up, but I know it's best for both of us.
" Harry.. I love you." I breathed out and heard him breath out a sigh of relief which made what I was about to do so much harder. I looked at him finally for the first time during our talk and grabbed his hands.
" Harry I love you.. And I forgive you. But I-- I just I need a break from this Harry. It's too much. Just a few moths ago I was sending in college applications. Now I'm missing a mother, dealing with killers... I wouldn't change what happened between us for the world. But I just need time. "
By the time I finished my speech Harry and I were both in tears. I knew at that moment that this isn't goodbye for us. This is just a break because I am 100% head over heels in love with this cheating ass hole with a crazy ass past sitting next to me.
" I understand." Harry said with a shaky voice tears streaming down his face. Never in a million years whole I have ever thought I would be crying with Harry. But here I am being so attached to him I feel my heart being ripped out and stomped on times 10. " but know this isn't goodbye Kylie. I understand you need time but I promise you no matter how much you hate me for it I will never stop trying to prove to you how sorry I am. And prove to you how much you can trust me. And how much I love you."
I pressed my lips onto his and he instantly responded buy pulling me onto his lap and shoving his tongue in my mouth. The kiss was slow and loving and I could feel the wetness from his cheeks on mine.
He broke the kiss and pressed his lips onto my forehead.
" I love you Harry this isn't goodbye I promise. I wish you the best finding your sister baby and I'll see you soon." I mumbled as his lips lingered on my forehead before pulling away to look into my eyes.
He nodded and kissed me one time.
" I love you." He pulled away and got up off my bed walking out of my bedroom. And my life..
For now.
Notes
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