When I say that, it really irks Louis's nerves. He looks at Eleanor "We are going out with this thing that thinks she is the sass master..."

Me and Dani high 5. "I have to get to my own crib. I will meet you all at the spot. I guess?"

Zayn :Yeah that's not happening. We will come with you seeing as how Sophia probably gave Steven your home address too."

Me "I do not want to hear her name or his name. At all. Ever again. Nope."

I put my hands up and shake my head "Tonight is going to be killer and amazing and its not going to have anything to do with those 2 bitches. Okay? I just wanna have fun and tear up the dance floor."

Liam "I feel the exact same way. Please don't mention those 2 anymore. It totally kills the mood."

Everyone nods. Louis "I don't see why not. Lets get ready to go out. then we can take Mica to her flat. Do we need to go to Becca's too?"

I shake my head "Me and Becca share the flat and the bills. So no. She should be home in a few hours. I'm so ready to be out of this room. No offense Perrie or any of you."

Harry "I get to see you dance!"

We all look at him for a few seconds "You are hella weird."

Niall to me "Will you introduce me to your little sister?"

I smile at him "Of course I will. She has been dying to meet you for like ever. She will be really happy to meet you all."

I yawn and Zayn says "There is no way in hell you can be tired. You slept for half a day!"

I giggle "I'm not tired. I'm Bored. Which is weird because I"m not usually ever bored... Unless..."

Liam "Unless what?"

Me "I havent listened to music for a while. Music is literally my entire life."

Zayn "Why?"

I smile "Music is... Soothing and life altering. It has said the words I cant say and saved my life a time or two. It gives me an outlet when I am angry. And it keeps me sane. I mean it is always there. I always have it with me and there is more coming out with each passing day. Music saved me after my parents died... It kept me from taking my life and leaving Becca with no one. When things get hard and people leave me, music is the only thing that stays constant. It's always there. It can't get up and leave me... Like tons of people have... A.K.A Steven."

Harry "Is that why you started dancing?"

Me "Hell no. I started dancing because my mother was a dancer and its how I feel close to her. I sing because my father sang and when I sing he is always there. Now dance is my passion. It runs through my veins. I dance because dance expresses emotion and I'm terrible at it. So I put what I am trying to feel to music and I feel so much lighter. It took so long for Dani to learn anything about me because I didn't know how to say it. Now I tell her everything because she can interpret my dance. I'm telling you guys more in 3 hours than I told Dani in 3 months. I don't know what it is about you all, but right here., surrounded by all of you, I feel safe. For the first time in along time."

Louis "Why do you hide what your feeling?'"

Me "Because I have so much to be worried about and in the past no has cared. In the past people have told to grow up and stop being so stupid. So I just stopped talking. I stopped burdening people with my problems. I have come so close to ending it all. And then I think of Becca and how happy she is to see me everyday and how often she tells me she loves me. And how proud she is of me. That's all I want."

Zayn "What is, sweetie?"

Me as I wipe away a tear "I want someone to be proud of me. Of all the things I have accomplished. To love me for my scars and my imperfections. I know it might seem childish and petty but I want someone to be proud of me for being me. For still being alive when I wanted to take my life. For not giving up hope when it would have been so easy. I want someone to look me in the eye and say "Mica I'm so proud of you for all you done in your life. And I love you for that.' That's what I want. I don't want fame. Or glory. Or money. Those are things that if they went missing tomorrow I would not give a gorilla sized fuck. But making someone besides Becca proud? That is something that will stick with me and make me want to push harder for the rest of my life. I'm not perfect and I know that. But that would make me feel pretty damn close to it."

Harry "I'm proud of you."

Zayn "Me too."

Liam "We are all proud of you. You are my inspiration. Dani told me that you dance because it frees you. And you drop your worries even if its just for a few minutes. Or a few hours. You have struggled your entire life. And the fact that your so kind and so sweet and so..."

Louis "Beautiful. You are beautiful. In every way. I mean... I'm digging a hole, aren't I?"

Zayn "Lou shut up. You are beautiful. You are kind hearted and open minded. Louis is a dunderhead. But you are someone who is a great listener and you don't judge. You made that obvious with Sophia. I think you are the type of girl who will laugh uncontrollably for hours. I know deep in my heart that you are a strong girl who was put in our lives for a reason."

Perrie "I feel that too. You were put here to support us. Make us stronger. As couples, as people, as family and as bands. You are very very very strong, given all you have been through and all you have over come. You are worth life. And happiness and love. I am very proud of you and I love you."

Eleanor "You and your sister are the one thing this group needed. People we can shower with love because that is who we are. You don't have to worry so much anymore. We will always have your back. And Beccas. You are family now. You are no longer alone in any struggle."

Louis "Granted, we might fight. And bicker and get on each others nerves. But that being said, you have a family now. I personally think you need to let go. Of some of your doubts and your worries. I will personally try my damnedest to protect Becca. In any way that I can. So you can worry less and focus on your dreams. Becca doesn't know this yet, but she just got 5 older brothers and 3 older sisters that will kill someone before we let her hurt."

Niall, the one that has been quietly assessing me this whole time, says "I understand that you have been hurt and you find it hard to trust, but we would never do to you what has happened to you in the past. I feel like you having been searching for a life line. To catch you, because you feel like you were sinking. Well you found it. In the oddest way possible, you found it. Ohana."

Danielle "Niall really? What does that even mean!?!?!?!"

Me as I look at Niall with tears brimming over, as he starts to explain himself. I say "Ohana means Family. It means no one gets left behind."

They all look at Niall. Zayn "How did you know that?"

Niall "Um... I saw it in a movie a while ago, so I googled it to see if it was a real word and it is. It fits her. It fits us. We are a family and we never leave anyone behind. And I felt like after I googled it, I would need to know it for some reason. Now I know why. This, right here, minus a female, is our ohana."

Me "Lilo and Stitch."

Niall nods at me and smiles. Zayn "The Disney movie?"

I nod to him "Ohana came from that. It is a native Hawaiian word. My mom had my dad write it above our beds when we were kids."

I put head in my hands "Its cool that someone else knows what it means."

Niall wraps me in a hug "Now you and Becca have an ohana. So, you need to relax and have some fun."

I nod. "Sorry. I didn't mean to get all emotionally on you guys. I'm just stressed out to the max."

Harry, as he pushes my hair back "Why are you stressed?"

Me :Steven. Scares the hell out of me. Still. All this time I'm putting into work has me exhausted. And I'm so tired my work is suffering so that has me more stressed out. I'm stressed because I haven't had the time to hit the studio and dance, so I'm cranky as fuck. I fucking snapped at Becca and almost made her cry so I felt like a ass. I'm fucking starving but all this running I'm doing preparing for this huge ass showcase, gives me like no time to eat properly. I know I really shouldnt be complaining to the some of the busiest people in this world, but I fell like I need some time off. So I can relax and unwind and have some fun. But I have 2 new jobs to do and the showcase is in less than a month and I have to be there for Becca. I am a very busy 19 year old."

Zayn "What you just described makes my life look like a cake walk."

Louis "I was literally just thinking the same thing."

I laugh. Harry "What don't you take a week off. Go on vacation. Hang out with Becca. Do anything but work. Basicly."

Me "These 2 jobs are so important and they could make or break me. I think. And this showcase is everything I have ever dreamed of. And everything I have worked for. But after this, you best believe I am going on a vacation. Somewhere warm were I can wear my bikini and play in the surf. And not have to worry about the paps breathing down my neck, and asking me who it is I'm fucking. Seriously though? Back the fuck up, you egotistical twat bags from hell."

Louis "It is official. I have lost the crown of sass master title... She just called the paps egotistical twat bags from hell... I have met my sass match."

Liam "Oh my god. she just said what every celebrity thinks. At one time or another. I give you props Mica."

I laugh "Tweet worthy."

Zayn "Just tweeted that shit. Be prepared. I tagged you in it!"

Me "I hate when people do that! Not the tagging me thing. The subtweeting. Like don't fucking subtweet me you peasant! Call me out, call me up. Do something. But don't be a petty twat that subtweets. Uncool and about shitty as fuck. Grow a pair and man the hell up. I will call your ass out if you subtweet me and I know for a fact your tweet is about me. Like the fuck? Put on your grown up pants and tweet correctly. Peasants! People are peasants. I swear to god!"

Louis "I love that word! Peasants!"

Me "Right! Like Harry? Your ex girlfriend is a peasant for being shitty. But she was only a peasant for a short while."

Harry "I love this side of you. This I give no fucks side."

Dani "You should see Becca! She is just like that but you really have to piss her off for it to show. She is more like Niall. Quite and sensitive but real as fuck!"

Niall "Will you tell me more about her?"

I smile as I turn to him "She is beautiful and Kind and strong and she loves to laugh. And she is strong willed. And smart as hell. And she loves to read. I love to read so she gets it honestly. She is... Everything you have ever said you wanted and then some. She is... My entire life would be so meaningless if I didn't have her by my side. She thinks you are absolutely adorable. And she loves your smile. She thinks you are the kindest person on this earth besides myself. She has never met you, but she feels like she knows you. She can be a raging bull if you try to take what she has earned. What is rightfully hers. She can also be soft and sweet and nice. But don't fuck with her. She was raised to be strong and she is. I love her to death."

Niall "Does she like food?"

I laugh "Yes. We both do. Food is amazing and people need to know about it! We both know how to cook and bake. Her favorite treat is cookies and vanilla ice cream. She would eat all the time if she could."

Zayn "What's yours?"

Me as I blush "Cupcakes. I love cupcakes."

Harry fist pumps the air "Cupcakes are amazing and everyone should love them like me and Mica do!"

I giggle as Louis goes "Just what Harry didn't need. Another thing to inflate his huge ass ego!"

I laugh as Harry hits Louis with a pillow. "ARSE!"

I pat his hand "It's okay, love. His lose!"

Zayn "Hahaha I like you."

Me "I like you too!"

Perrie "Okay none of that flirting..."

Me "I would never ever ever try and break that up. You 2 are the cutest things EVER! When I heard you got engaged I was like 'They will be married forever!' My sister thought I was high."

Liam "She totally ships you."

Me "I shipped them before they shipped them. I'm a dedicated but not creepy stalker like Zerrie fan. I am not and never was a Haylor fan! FUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK NO!"

Louis just busts out laughing. I look at Harry and he is smiling. Eleanor "Why didn't you like her?"

Dani "Oh my god. I already know!"

Me "Shut up women. I am about to educate these unknowing people. 1. She is so fake. I mean really? You gonna sit there and say you forgive all your exs for breaking your heart then write a song about them? Some of them mean as hell. Fake. 2. She treats her boyfriends like shit. I don't mean you Harry. Taylor Lautner? She broke up with him because he was too sensitive. Like what the fuck? 3. She is a goody that flips shit on anyone that isn't a sweet little perfect thing that makes billions for breathing into a napkin correctly. 4. She is too fucking tall. Like I can't. 5. She dated Harry and then proseded to call him a man whore and then lied to my face about it. Like bitch I heard you with my own ears. Don't fucking lie to me. 6 She sub tweeted me. P-E-A-S-A-N-T!"

By now they are all rolling. Louis has fallen off the bed. Eleanor is crying from laughing. Perrie is fanning her face and Zayn is pointing at Louis and laughing even harder. Liam is shaking and Danielle has her face in a pillow. Harry is crying and Niall is holding his sides.

Zayn "Louis fell off the bed!"

That sends us on a rip of laughter. It is so funny. I'm dying. I fan my face. Harry "I didn't know you hated her."

Me "I don't hate her. I don't hate anyone. I strongly dislike her. But if you start dating her again, like those twat bags are saying you want to... Ahahahahahahaha... I will never talk to you again! Like ever."

Louis "I hurt myself!"

I look at him and laugh. He throws a pillow at me and I laugh even harder. I fall side ways into Harry. He wraps his arms around me as I try to catch my breath. I look at Dani and she is smiling hugely. I smile back at her "What is that look for!"

Dani "I havent seen you this happy or this bubbly in years!"

I laugh. "Well I feel like I will be happy alot now. But that being said, if we don't get ready and I can't go to the club tonight, I will be so pissed.!"

They all disperse.