The new start
Chapter seven, "Everything is going be all right"
I felt uncomfortable when I stood there and hugged Chloe. I mean I didn´t know her. Home in Reading people never needed to cry or I guess they did. But they never went to me. I was just the popular girl everyone wanted to be seen with but no one wanted to be friends with. So the truth was that I didn´t have any real friends. Until Summer came. She had dark hair and beautiful grey eyes. She was different from everything and everyone. She showed me the world like no one every had before. But there was also something weird about her. She always took out the bad side in me. She made me do things I didn´t want to do and regretted the day after. She was also mean to me, but I stuck around. I don´t know why maybe because I wanted to feel loved or something. But that was wrong and it made me kill someone. I still can´t believe that I did it. Oh, shit! Am I crying? Damn it, what story should I tell Chloe? I can´t tell her that I´m a murderer.
"I just can´t do this anymore." Chloe´s voice interrupted my thoughts. So I tried to smile and nodded that we should sit down on her beautiful bed. She sat down and I did the same thing. What was I suppose to say to make her feel better?
"What is it? What can´t you do anymore?" I said and tried to not show her that I had cried too. But it was hard because it felt like I had mascara all over my face. But she didn´t seem to notice. It was like she was sitting there and talking to herself. What was I suppose to do seriously? I just sat there and held her hand. I wanted to tell her that it all was going to be fine. But what if it wasn´t? If I didn´t believe it why would she?
"Everyting." Her voice actually sounded normal now and the tears had stopped.
"Tell me." I said and squeezed her hand harder.
"It´s a long story, I mean it was like everyting was perfect and now everyting is falling apart." I looked at her. I really understood what she was saying.
"I have time. Believe me I know what you mean." I said and that was so true. I really did. I knew how it all was perfect one minute and in the next I needed to move. It sucked.
"Okey, First we have my parents, or they´re not my real parents, I´m adopted." She started and I just nodded. Like a sign for her to go on. So she started telling me.
"They told me for three days ago that I was adopted and it was like I had known it my whole life. Of course I got mad. Then I asked who my real parents was. I mean my fake parents they have never loved me. They tried but I can feel it, they just love my younger brother Steve. It´s like I´ve never fitted in here and when I found out about that it was like I could see everyting better and understand why it was like that. Because I always thought it was my fault they didn´t love me. But then dad got mad. He said that I didn´t need to know who my real parents was. That I only needed them. Then he hit me." She was shaking when she showed me a bruise on her arm. I was in shock. I couldn´t say or do anything. Chloe just kept going.
"That´s not the only thing. Yesterday, my boyfriend Louis broke up with me. I don´t know why. But I think he cheated on me. Seriously it was like I could see it in his eyes. You probobly think I´m stupid or something. But that´s not the worst thing. Without Louis I have no one, I´m all alone. I don´t have anything or anyone. I don´t even have a real family." She started to cry again. Big tears ran down from her cheeks and I just felt nothing, it was like someone had opened my stomach and taken out everything. Like it was just emptiness left in it.
What was I suppose to say now? After someone had opened up like this. My first reaction was to run away. This girl didn´t need more drama in her life and I for sure was a lot of drama. But I just couldn´t, seeing her there, she needed someone. So I hugged her hard. I didn´t say anything for minutes. We just sat there. Two girls in the big cruel world. Who was scared to death what was going to happend next. Then I broke the silence.
"It´s okey, you got me. We´ll deal with it together. Everything is going to be all right. Life just have it´s ups and downs." I didn´t know if I said that for her sake or mine. Maybe for both. But in the first time in a long time I actually felt like it might be all right.
"I just can´t do this anymore." Chloe´s voice interrupted my thoughts. So I tried to smile and nodded that we should sit down on her beautiful bed. She sat down and I did the same thing. What was I suppose to say to make her feel better?
"What is it? What can´t you do anymore?" I said and tried to not show her that I had cried too. But it was hard because it felt like I had mascara all over my face. But she didn´t seem to notice. It was like she was sitting there and talking to herself. What was I suppose to do seriously? I just sat there and held her hand. I wanted to tell her that it all was going to be fine. But what if it wasn´t? If I didn´t believe it why would she?
"Everyting." Her voice actually sounded normal now and the tears had stopped.
"Tell me." I said and squeezed her hand harder.
"It´s a long story, I mean it was like everyting was perfect and now everyting is falling apart." I looked at her. I really understood what she was saying.
"I have time. Believe me I know what you mean." I said and that was so true. I really did. I knew how it all was perfect one minute and in the next I needed to move. It sucked.
"Okey, First we have my parents, or they´re not my real parents, I´m adopted." She started and I just nodded. Like a sign for her to go on. So she started telling me.
"They told me for three days ago that I was adopted and it was like I had known it my whole life. Of course I got mad. Then I asked who my real parents was. I mean my fake parents they have never loved me. They tried but I can feel it, they just love my younger brother Steve. It´s like I´ve never fitted in here and when I found out about that it was like I could see everyting better and understand why it was like that. Because I always thought it was my fault they didn´t love me. But then dad got mad. He said that I didn´t need to know who my real parents was. That I only needed them. Then he hit me." She was shaking when she showed me a bruise on her arm. I was in shock. I couldn´t say or do anything. Chloe just kept going.
"That´s not the only thing. Yesterday, my boyfriend Louis broke up with me. I don´t know why. But I think he cheated on me. Seriously it was like I could see it in his eyes. You probobly think I´m stupid or something. But that´s not the worst thing. Without Louis I have no one, I´m all alone. I don´t have anything or anyone. I don´t even have a real family." She started to cry again. Big tears ran down from her cheeks and I just felt nothing, it was like someone had opened my stomach and taken out everything. Like it was just emptiness left in it.
What was I suppose to say now? After someone had opened up like this. My first reaction was to run away. This girl didn´t need more drama in her life and I for sure was a lot of drama. But I just couldn´t, seeing her there, she needed someone. So I hugged her hard. I didn´t say anything for minutes. We just sat there. Two girls in the big cruel world. Who was scared to death what was going to happend next. Then I broke the silence.
"It´s okey, you got me. We´ll deal with it together. Everything is going to be all right. Life just have it´s ups and downs." I didn´t know if I said that for her sake or mine. Maybe for both. But in the first time in a long time I actually felt like it might be all right.
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Did you die because of your beauty or something? :0
4/27/14