harry: i cant believe this is happening. let me tell you my story. niall told me about two months ago that he thinks he loves michelle. he introduced the lads and i to michelle about two years ago. i loved her ever since. i loved her for two years but i never told her because i was sure that she loved niall. then niall told me that he thinks he loves her. i told myself i knew it was coming. i calmed myself down and at the airport i almost died when niall said that michelle was his because it killed me to know that he was correct. when louis realized that it was michelle's car on the side of the road i suggested we stop to investegate. when i saw that kiss i wanted to die. it took me every ounce of stregth not to cry. i waited until we got home. whenever i said something to tease them it hurt me even more. i had to cover up. the boys didn't realize that when they said "call not for sleeping in michell's room i didn't. when i said for michelle and niall to " not be naughty," i wanted to tell them not to do anything that would tear my heart out. i just wish she knew. all that time, even when i dated taylor swift, i was in love with her. in fact, the only reason i dated her was because louis asked me if i loved michelle. i had to do something because knowing louis he would've told niall right away. i love her so much. it hurts whenever i see them steal glances at eachother. every time she blushes when he looks at her. everytime niall beams when she giggles. everybit of it is like a stab to my heart. how do i live with this. i don't think i have ever felt thiz way about anyone before. i wish that somehow i don't love her anymore but i can't. beauty Radiates off of her. why do i love her so much? with these thoughts still in my head i get up to shower and since my bathroom is seperated from micbelle's bathroom by a wall, i her lsughing coming from it. they showered together. i want to cry. i love her. i don't want to, but i do. i hurry and take a shower. i change into anything and walk to the kitchen. everyone is sitting on the table laughing. niall and michell's back is faced to me so they don't know i came in and i see that they are holdind hand under the table and niall i running his tumb over her finger. i frown. i sit down and sigh. everyone looks at me. "sorry guys i slept late... i was up talking to amber" i say with a plan forming in my head. "amber?" niall asks. "yeh, she's really upset about your breakup with her and she keeps on lieing to me that she's pregnant." i say and smile from the inside.

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