It's not Easy letting you go
Blake: Only a matter of time
“Charlotte Elaine Gregory”. I stood up and shouted at the top of my lungs as I watched my little sister walk across the stage to receive her diploma. “Whoo, Charlie we love you!” Kennedy called out one hand on her belly.
Everyone was here for Charlie. Noah came down; grandma and grandpa were here… everyone! Even Elliot’s parents came down for her.
It had been a week since Kennedy and I had that loud discussion. Since then we hadn’t said more than a few sentences to each other.
After Charlie’s name was called it felt like forever for everyone to get called out. It finally ended, we took pictures, mingled a bit wit our town, and soon everyone began to separate.
Tonight was the big graduation party for the graduates at the school, along with the concert from some boy band they had won a competition for.
“I’m going to take a detour. There are a couple things I need to do.” My siblings looked at me questioningly but let it be, something they learned to do a long time ago. “Be careful please.” Kennedy’s eyes were pleading and even though we weren’t on the best terms at the moment every word was sincere.
I nodded my head and walked in the opposite direction of my family.
My body was cold and numb despite the Texas heat beating at my skin. I sat in luscious green grass facing two head stones with my unbarring 2 –inch heels lying beside me.
“Well… that’s the last of us. All your babies are graduated and moving on with their lives.” I let out a sigh and pulled my knees to my chest. “That is… except for me.”
I sat there quietly not saying a word and taking in the silence and stillness of the cemetery. “Charlie was accepted to UCLA. Noah is still in the marines stationed in California… but I think he’s being moved to Japan.
Eric is still running the ranch and Kennedy… well Kennedy and Elliot are having a baby of their own… And I am going to be the annoying fly that had always been in the way.”
By now tears rimmed my eyes and soon streaked down my face. “Mom… dad I don’t understand. What am I suppose to do? I feel like I am constantly running in circles here.
I was given the chance to leave but I ruined it. Please, if you’re listening tell the big guy he needs to give me a break… please?”
I stared and the perfectly engraved stone as I sat there letting my tears stain my face, wiped them away, to only have my face stained once again. I said my goodbyes, kissed my hand and placed it on each stone…
Walking away with my heels in my hands I turned around once more with a final plead… “Please.”
Everyone was here for Charlie. Noah came down; grandma and grandpa were here… everyone! Even Elliot’s parents came down for her.
It had been a week since Kennedy and I had that loud discussion. Since then we hadn’t said more than a few sentences to each other.
After Charlie’s name was called it felt like forever for everyone to get called out. It finally ended, we took pictures, mingled a bit wit our town, and soon everyone began to separate.
Tonight was the big graduation party for the graduates at the school, along with the concert from some boy band they had won a competition for.
“I’m going to take a detour. There are a couple things I need to do.” My siblings looked at me questioningly but let it be, something they learned to do a long time ago. “Be careful please.” Kennedy’s eyes were pleading and even though we weren’t on the best terms at the moment every word was sincere.
I nodded my head and walked in the opposite direction of my family.
My body was cold and numb despite the Texas heat beating at my skin. I sat in luscious green grass facing two head stones with my unbarring 2 –inch heels lying beside me.
“Well… that’s the last of us. All your babies are graduated and moving on with their lives.” I let out a sigh and pulled my knees to my chest. “That is… except for me.”
I sat there quietly not saying a word and taking in the silence and stillness of the cemetery. “Charlie was accepted to UCLA. Noah is still in the marines stationed in California… but I think he’s being moved to Japan.
Eric is still running the ranch and Kennedy… well Kennedy and Elliot are having a baby of their own… And I am going to be the annoying fly that had always been in the way.”
By now tears rimmed my eyes and soon streaked down my face. “Mom… dad I don’t understand. What am I suppose to do? I feel like I am constantly running in circles here.
I was given the chance to leave but I ruined it. Please, if you’re listening tell the big guy he needs to give me a break… please?”
I stared and the perfectly engraved stone as I sat there letting my tears stain my face, wiped them away, to only have my face stained once again. I said my goodbyes, kissed my hand and placed it on each stone…
Walking away with my heels in my hands I turned around once more with a final plead… “Please.”
3/23/13