Behind The Masks

What's gonna happen now? Will me and Jake ever go back to the way we were? Do I love him? Will he get over me?

I needed someone to talk to. I ran to my laptop, and emailed Paulina. She replied quickly, saying she didn't have time to talk. I sighed, and needed to get my mind off of stuff, so I emailed Harry, asking him to come over. He replied immediately saying he can. I lied down on my bed, and sobbed into my pillow. Then, I started thinking about the boy who saved my life.

Jake has always been there for me. He was there when I got hurt by Micah. He helped me out when I was depressed. He caught me before I committed suicide.

I put the gun to my head. I found it in my dad's bedside drawer. I was crying, but I wasn't scared. I have been depressed since Micah cheated on me. I trusted him with my heart, and he broke it. I closed my eyes and put my finger over the trigger. The door slammed open and Jake ran in.

"Stop. I will pull the trigger. Don't walk closer," I threatened.

"Willow, listen to me. Please."

"I'm listening."

He sat next to me, on my bed.

"Can you please put the gun down?" Jake asked. It was almost like he was chuckling about it.

"No." He looked disappointed but didn't say anything about it.

"Why? Why are you doing this, Willow?"

"Because I want to. Because I thought Micah was the one," I replied.

"Willow, listen to me. Micah is a piece of shit. And Paris? She's a bitch. Who cares about them? Willow, you are only 15. People will love you all your life. I love you. Your mum and dad love you. Your two brothers love you. Think about them. Think about me. Please. Willow, I love you so much. If you leave, I'm coming with you."

By this time I was sobbing. I wasn't really thinking too much about Jake saying he loves me, because we were the types of friends to say we love each other.

I threw the gun and ran into Jake's arms. I sat on his lap and snuggled into his chest. I was crying hard.

"Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I love you so much, Jake." When I looked up he was crying too. He hugged me harder.

"I love you, Willow. I love you so, so, so much."

I didn't realize I was I was crying until I snapped out of my flashback. I thought about it. What if I didn't listen? What if I let the bullet rip through my brain right in front of Jake? What would Jake do? What would his life become?

Then I thought, what if that was Jake? What if Jake was the one who killed himself?

I don't think I could live in a world without my best friend. He provided me love and protection. And I love him so much.

And thinking about how much I love him, made me finally realize. I love Jacob Perez.

"I love Jacob Perez." Saying it out loud finally made it official. "I love Jake."

Notes

Yes, yes. It sucked. I'm sorry. I was kinda hurrying around the ending. I'm still working on including the winners by the way! Annie and Marissa are gonna be in the next one. Nicaela (still DON'T know if that's spelled correctly. Sorry) will probably also be in the next one. And keepcalmandlove one direction STILL HASN'T SAID ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!! So yeah.... Ummmmm. BYE MY TURTLES!!!