2 weeks later

It's been 2 weeks since I attempted suicide and I can honestly say it has been so stressful. Since the paparazzi saw me come out of the hospital they knew something happened, Harry thankfully hasn't told anyone. That doesn't stop them from coming out with article after article about what happened to me, from car crash to being attacked by a dog. None of them thankfully ever thought about attempting suicide.

My mother unfortunately found out about my predicament. She called me screaming about not telling her and demanding I come home immediately. That was exactly why I didn't tell my mom, she gets really worried about me. So instead of telling her that I wanted to kill myself I told her a bookcase fell on me and I knocked my head, the only thing I could come up with for being in the hospital for 3 days. She believed me and talked to Sean so she knew someone was looking over me.

Sean hasn't really been the same since the accident, he insists that I never be alone at all times, its getting very annoying. Lola and him watch me like I'm a bomb that's going to go off at any moment. I've finally been able to go back to work but what once made me content and happy just didn't work for me either.

The only really happy part of my day was when I saw Harry. His band left for London a week ago but he stayed for a few more days so he can spend more time with me. It's weird to use the word boyfriend, it's been so long that this whole thing is new to me again.

The day he is set to leave me and him are laying on the couch cuddled in each others arms. We haven't had sex since that one night and honestly that's fine with me. However the memory of his naked body will forever be burned in my memory. The way his abs looked and felt, the feeling of him in-between my legs.

Okay lets stop thinking about that now Emma

"I don't want to leave you." Harry breathed into my hair as he softly ran his fingers up my arm. I smiled at the sensation.

"I don't want you to leave either. You're the only thing right now that makes me forget everything. I'm scared that when your gone I'll just be miserable again."

"Then come with me"

"What?" I sat up and looked at him, is he crazy?

"Think about it Em. I know I've only known you for 3 weeks now, damn that's a short time if you think about it." He smiled and grinned into the distance.

I snapped my fingers "Hello?? Earth to Haz??"

He shook his head and his eyes found there way back to me. "Sorry love memories. I was saying how am I supposed to get to know you more if you're here in New York while I'm in London? I don't know if you've heard but long distance sucks, I've tried it and it never works. Not that we wont but it'll be hard. You can stay in my flat and that way you can get to know the boys better and meet Danielle and Eleanor."

I leaned on the other side of the couch silently, it did sound tempting.

I sighed

"Harry that sounds amazing but... I can't just pack up my life here and leave. I have Lola, Nick and Craig. I don't want to leave Sean either, we promised each other that we will always be there for each other. How can I be there for him if I'm across the ocean? And my mom will never allow it and how will I be able to pack in time.....?"

That's when Harry leaned forward and pressed his lips to mine, my words disappearing as I got wrapped up in the taste of his mouth.

"Please shut up for a moment. What ever happened to being spontaneous? Sean, Lola, Nick and Craig will understand. You will only be gone for a month, after that the band is back in New York and you can go back to your old life. I really think this will be good for you, for us."

I breathed out and started into his beautiful green eyes.

Oh shit, what am I about to do?


"YOUR GOING TO WHAT??" Sean yelled as I ran around my room, stuffing random clothes in my bag.

"I told you I'm going to London for a month with Harry." I said as I threw in high heels and then looked around for my passport.

"What the hell Em. What about your life here, your job? What about me?"

He said it so softly and sadly that I stopped what I was doing and stared at him. He was leaning against the wall, his face so crushed. I ran up to him and gave him a huge hug, feeling his weight press down on me.

"I'm not leaving you, I promise. This is something I have to do, but I'm gonna call you everyday and in a really short time I'll be back here in New York being your roommate again."

He shook his head. "How will I live without you?"

"You have Lola, look Sean I have to go but I love you. I'll call you when I land."

And with that I race out the door stopping to give Nick and Craig both hugs.

I was going to call Lola once I'm at the airport, I honestly feel if I told her now she would try to stop me. As I went down in the elevator a moment of panic seeped in, what if this was the wrong thing to do? What if I made a mistake?

But the moment I walked out and saw Harry waiting for me all my fears went away.

For the first time in a while I was focusing on something other then getting away from my old life.

I was focusing on Harry and my happiness, and boy it felt good.

He took my hand and helped me into the backseat of the van and with one last look the apartment disappeared into the background.

Notes

Just to let you know, I know Liam and Danielle broke up a while ago but for my story there together. Please comment and let me know what you think.