The dark hallway will never end will it? I feel like it has been going on forever. I raced down it, looking for some sort of entrance. After what felt like years I made it toward the light and with relief I spread my hand out towards it.

"She's just so still" Someone mumbled, a heavy accent filling the air. It was hard to hear, it felt like I was struggling to hear a conversation while being underwater. I had to push my mind through the haze and the effort made my head hurt, though I can hear what is going on in the room more easier. I wonder if anyone can notice my struggle. I tried to move a finger, anything but it felt like some force was making me sit still. What the hell?

"Why are we here?" Another accent asked, was that Irish? I don't recall knowing any Irish people.

"It's for Harry, he's crazy about her. She is beautiful." Someone said sadly from another corner. How many fucking people were in my room? Where is Harry, Lola, Sean, Craig or Nick. It would really be nice to hear some familiar voices. It's scary not having control of my body. I wish I was still in the dark.

"You know I've never heard him talk about anyone like he talks about her, I feel like this could turn into something. If she ever fucking wakes up." Another deep voice said from beside my bed. I will wake up! I wanted to scream but my lips still stayed shut.

Someone else sighed "I'm gonna go get some coffee and see where Harry and Sean went." Then the door opened and closed. Wait Harry and Sean are somewhere around here? Someone go fucking get them! This is so fucking frustrating.

It was another 20 minutes of silence, the strangers in my room probably went to sleep cause I heard soft breathing after a while. I wanted to cry, it was so silent and lonely. I want more people to talk.

The door opened and closed and I listened more closely. Before I knew it someone took my hand and pressed there lips against them. They were so soft and gentle, pressing them against my hand like feathers.

"I know I haven't known you long but" his voice was so choked up and shaky. I knew it was Harry. "I really want us to have a chance and that's not gonna happen unless you open those pretty eyes of yours. I want to take you out on more dates and kiss those gorgeous red lips of yours. Its funny, I still haven't seen you without red lipstick. Lola has been in here everyday before any of us and applied it for you. Said you didn't look the same without it."

My heart swelled, that's my girl.

"I really like you Emma. Just please wake up, if not for anyone then for me. If you feel like you have nothing to live for that's not true. I know you have suffered, Sean has told me everything. thought I might need some explanation. I know the reason why you tried to commit suicide, it wasn't just from what people said on the internet. You need to realize I would never do anything like that guy did to you. I would never make you feel that way ever again. Please just wake up."

His voice gave away as he cried, trying to compose himself. What the hell is wrong with me? I selfishly thought my death would be easier on everyone else but know I realize what it's actually doing.

Lola, my beautiful best friend, my sister. We have shared so many memories and moments together that I feel she will be there for me no matter what. She helped a small town girl get used to the city life and she can make any of my days bad turn around. My death would absolutely destroy her.

Nick, my wonderful drinking body and video game player. He makes me laugh at the remarks he says and even though he is an absolute pig sty he is always super protective of me when it comes to anything and I love him for that. My death would destroy him.

Craig, my wonderful loud and playful friend. I have always hated every girlfriend he has ever had because he can always do better, he is such a good person and he doesn't realize. He always tries to help me with anything and I love him. My death would destroy him.

Sean, my amazing, beautiful snow flake. Without Sean I'm pretty sure I would have left New York awhile ago. It's pretty hard to describe how much he means to me. We clicked instantly when I first moved in and I trusted him with all my deepest dark secrets. We would have sleepovers and whenever I was at my lowest point he would be there with his stash of chocolate kisses and Reese's cups. He always had them stashed for when "we" would be on our periods. He means the world to me and I feel like my death would actually cause him to commit suicide. Sean's parents never supportive of him for liking who he likes and kicked him out of there house. Together we helped each other, if one of us is hurt so is the other. My death would destroy him.

My mother, my gorgeous mom. It hurts me to know I had to leave her and she will always be a part of my heart. She saw me when I was at my lowest and will always support me. I love her so much and some nights I cry myself to sleep missing her. My death would destroy her.

Harry. The thought of us together scared me but somehow I don't mind anymore. The thought almost killed me, but know I realize just how crazy I am about him. I don't care about his fame or the money or any of it. We were meant to make it work, even with my crazy self. Sleeping with all those guys made me have even worse self esteem, I realize that know. Harry just makes it go away, when I'm with him I feel happy. I don't want this to be it because I want to go on more dates with him, and kiss those beautiful lips.

I have something to life for, I live for these people. And with that in mind, I slowly opened my eyes.

Notes

Thank you to everyone who has been reading my story and commenting your thoughts. It means so much to me, I love you all. Look forward to the next chapter soon.