The Girl with the Red Lipstick
When Past Becomes Present
For the first time in a long time I could not sleep. I spent the night tossing and turning and staring at the ceiling. The events and emotions from today just keep jumbling up inside my head and when you're really thinking about something it's fucking impossible to go to sleep. After our event in McDonald's Harry walked me home and kissed me goodbye on the cheek, with no talk about meeting up again. Times like this I really miss my mom, but considering its 2 in the morning I couldn't exactly call her. So I settled for the next best thing.
I hugged my pillow to my body and walked through the hall, knocking on Sean's door quietly. I opened the door slowly and in the darkness I heard Sean's groggy voice say "Can't sleep again Em?" I closed the door quietly and walked over to the bed, Sean holding up the covers for me to slip into. Once I had Sean's arms around me in a protective brotherly way I let a few tears escape before drifting into a dreamless sleep.
"Pump those arms! Make sure you're really reaching!"
I followed the instructions on the video, sweat dripping down my face as I moved faster and faster. Sean was sitting on the couch on his laptop while Nick and Craig sat in the kitchen eating leftover pizza. I don't understand college boys, it's like 10 in the morning.
"Now get down low, I wanna see the sweat drip down your body."
I did what the women was doing on the video, my muscles screaming in protest while in the kitchen Nick snorted.
"I wanna see the sweat drip down your body, now if that isn't the creepiest thing you've ever heard I'm worried for you Em." I laughed as I started to do high kicks. "Don't .... judge .... me....fatass" I panted out as the video finally ended.
I took a huge gulp of water as my muscles burned. All of a sudden I hear a gasp coming from the couch.
"Oh shit" Sean gasped as he stared at the screen. "What?" I walked over but he held up a hand to stop me. "Trust me Em, you don't want to read this." I breezed past him anyway.
"If its about me I have every right to fucking read it." I sat down next to him and pulled his laptop on my lap. What I read next completely sent me into silence.
Harry Styles caught spending the day with cute blonde
Yesterday in New York City Harry Styles (1/5 of the popular British boy band One Direction) was spotted going to a skydiving rink in Manhattan and later eating at McDonald's with a mysterious girl. Our spies can prove that this girl is regular girl Emma Gold, who is known for playing around at guys in clubs. Is this turning into a relationship? If it is we hope not, if these rumors about Emma are true then Harry can do much better. What do you think of this blooming relationship? Let me know in the comment section below!
I was quite, staring at the screen in horror. Above the article there was a picture of me and Harry catching fries into our mouths. I knew I heard the sound of a camera. Sean must have seen my face because he quickly shut the laptop closed.
"Listen Em, it's just stupid tabloid junk. No one listens to it anyway." I nodded, struggling to keeping a straight face. "I know, um I'm gonna take a shower. Get this sweat off me." I walked out of the room, concerned faces staring at me as I rounded the corner into my bedroom. I grabbed my towel and my laptop, slipping into the bathroom and locking the door behind me.
Sitting on the floor I opened up Google and searched Emma and Harry. I knew I shouldn't be doing this but I can't help myself. I was surprised that I came up with so much stuff and reading through it I felt tears in my eyes.
Who does this girl think she is? She's so ugly
Maddy333
She's such a whore. She doesn't deserve to have my man! Go die in a whole you bitch!
Smexxy98
THAT UGLY ASS BETTER NOT BE DOING THIS!!! I HOPE SHE DIES!!!
Harrysgirl
I'm surprised Harry picked her, she's like really ugly and fat
Gracy
All the words kept circling in my head, fat, ugly, whore. I let out a sob and my laptop fell onto the floor. I curled myself into a ball and cried my eyes out. This is everything I was trying to avoid when I left Rhode Island and in a day it all comes rushing back.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
All of a sudden there was hard pounding on the door. "Emma open up." I heard Sean's anxious voice. I continued to cry, turning on the shower so that it was on full hot and the steam filled up the bathroom. "Emma!" Sean yelled then to Craig or Nick "Call that son of a bitch! I need a word with him!"
Fat, Ugly, Whore
Steam filled the whole bathroom and made my hair stick to my skin. What's even the point of moving on when everything I fear just comes rushing back? I feel like death would be easier then to deal with this bullshit. I stood up slowly and opened the medicine cabinet, staring at all the pills. I took my hand and pushed them all down, letting the pills lay on the floor.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
I heard Sean gasp outside, he is the only person I told about my childhood and he must have had a feeling of what I was about to do. "NO EMMA!!! Please don't do this, think of everything you have to live for!" He screamed then rammed his body into the doorway.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"I have him on the phone." Craig yelled but Sean continued to slam is body against the door. "She's trying to overdoes, I can hear the pills!" He yelled as he frantically tried to open the door.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
I took one of the pills and swallowed them, going slowly as I swallowed each pill. I guess my urge to commit suicide never went away, this must be my breaking point.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"Son of a bitch!" Sean screamed from the other side of the door, his voice cracking and I heard his shallow breath. It hurt me to know that this was gonna hurt him but in the end it was for the better.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"Em please listen to me" he cried as more banging went on the door. "Please! You're my best friend, you can't do this." He sobbed.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"Harry's here and I called 911." Craig yelled and the next thing I knew I heard Sean screaming. I've never heard him scream like that, panic wrapped my heart and I took the last pill that was on the floor. My movements becoming more and more groggy.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"Emma please don't do this." Harry cried from outside. "You are the most beautiful girl I have ever meant. I should have told you yesterday but I am crazy about you. You're everything in a person I could possibly want. I should have fucking kissed you because even though I haven't known you long I know that I'm not gonna stop feeling this way. Please don't kill yourself."
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"It's to late." My voice cracked and I heard more pounding at the door, Sean crying hysterically and Harry screaming but it all started to become a blur of noise. I crawled into the shower and laid down in the tub, the scorching hot water hitting my sensitive skin. I let my eyes closed gently feeling myself slowly drift, if this is what dying feels like then it's not so bad.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
The last thing I remember was hearing the door fly across the room, and frantic hands hitting my face trying to wake me up.
But it was to late I thought with one last smile. They were all to late.
I hugged my pillow to my body and walked through the hall, knocking on Sean's door quietly. I opened the door slowly and in the darkness I heard Sean's groggy voice say "Can't sleep again Em?" I closed the door quietly and walked over to the bed, Sean holding up the covers for me to slip into. Once I had Sean's arms around me in a protective brotherly way I let a few tears escape before drifting into a dreamless sleep.
"Pump those arms! Make sure you're really reaching!"
I followed the instructions on the video, sweat dripping down my face as I moved faster and faster. Sean was sitting on the couch on his laptop while Nick and Craig sat in the kitchen eating leftover pizza. I don't understand college boys, it's like 10 in the morning.
"Now get down low, I wanna see the sweat drip down your body."
I did what the women was doing on the video, my muscles screaming in protest while in the kitchen Nick snorted.
"I wanna see the sweat drip down your body, now if that isn't the creepiest thing you've ever heard I'm worried for you Em." I laughed as I started to do high kicks. "Don't .... judge .... me....fatass" I panted out as the video finally ended.
I took a huge gulp of water as my muscles burned. All of a sudden I hear a gasp coming from the couch.
"Oh shit" Sean gasped as he stared at the screen. "What?" I walked over but he held up a hand to stop me. "Trust me Em, you don't want to read this." I breezed past him anyway.
"If its about me I have every right to fucking read it." I sat down next to him and pulled his laptop on my lap. What I read next completely sent me into silence.
Harry Styles caught spending the day with cute blonde
Yesterday in New York City Harry Styles (1/5 of the popular British boy band One Direction) was spotted going to a skydiving rink in Manhattan and later eating at McDonald's with a mysterious girl. Our spies can prove that this girl is regular girl Emma Gold, who is known for playing around at guys in clubs. Is this turning into a relationship? If it is we hope not, if these rumors about Emma are true then Harry can do much better. What do you think of this blooming relationship? Let me know in the comment section below!
I was quite, staring at the screen in horror. Above the article there was a picture of me and Harry catching fries into our mouths. I knew I heard the sound of a camera. Sean must have seen my face because he quickly shut the laptop closed.
"Listen Em, it's just stupid tabloid junk. No one listens to it anyway." I nodded, struggling to keeping a straight face. "I know, um I'm gonna take a shower. Get this sweat off me." I walked out of the room, concerned faces staring at me as I rounded the corner into my bedroom. I grabbed my towel and my laptop, slipping into the bathroom and locking the door behind me.
Sitting on the floor I opened up Google and searched Emma and Harry. I knew I shouldn't be doing this but I can't help myself. I was surprised that I came up with so much stuff and reading through it I felt tears in my eyes.
Who does this girl think she is? She's so ugly
Maddy333
She's such a whore. She doesn't deserve to have my man! Go die in a whole you bitch!
Smexxy98
THAT UGLY ASS BETTER NOT BE DOING THIS!!! I HOPE SHE DIES!!!
Harrysgirl
I'm surprised Harry picked her, she's like really ugly and fat
Gracy
All the words kept circling in my head, fat, ugly, whore. I let out a sob and my laptop fell onto the floor. I curled myself into a ball and cried my eyes out. This is everything I was trying to avoid when I left Rhode Island and in a day it all comes rushing back.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
All of a sudden there was hard pounding on the door. "Emma open up." I heard Sean's anxious voice. I continued to cry, turning on the shower so that it was on full hot and the steam filled up the bathroom. "Emma!" Sean yelled then to Craig or Nick "Call that son of a bitch! I need a word with him!"
Fat, Ugly, Whore
Steam filled the whole bathroom and made my hair stick to my skin. What's even the point of moving on when everything I fear just comes rushing back? I feel like death would be easier then to deal with this bullshit. I stood up slowly and opened the medicine cabinet, staring at all the pills. I took my hand and pushed them all down, letting the pills lay on the floor.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
I heard Sean gasp outside, he is the only person I told about my childhood and he must have had a feeling of what I was about to do. "NO EMMA!!! Please don't do this, think of everything you have to live for!" He screamed then rammed his body into the doorway.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"I have him on the phone." Craig yelled but Sean continued to slam is body against the door. "She's trying to overdoes, I can hear the pills!" He yelled as he frantically tried to open the door.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
I took one of the pills and swallowed them, going slowly as I swallowed each pill. I guess my urge to commit suicide never went away, this must be my breaking point.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"Son of a bitch!" Sean screamed from the other side of the door, his voice cracking and I heard his shallow breath. It hurt me to know that this was gonna hurt him but in the end it was for the better.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"Em please listen to me" he cried as more banging went on the door. "Please! You're my best friend, you can't do this." He sobbed.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"Harry's here and I called 911." Craig yelled and the next thing I knew I heard Sean screaming. I've never heard him scream like that, panic wrapped my heart and I took the last pill that was on the floor. My movements becoming more and more groggy.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"Emma please don't do this." Harry cried from outside. "You are the most beautiful girl I have ever meant. I should have told you yesterday but I am crazy about you. You're everything in a person I could possibly want. I should have fucking kissed you because even though I haven't known you long I know that I'm not gonna stop feeling this way. Please don't kill yourself."
Fat, Ugly, Whore
"It's to late." My voice cracked and I heard more pounding at the door, Sean crying hysterically and Harry screaming but it all started to become a blur of noise. I crawled into the shower and laid down in the tub, the scorching hot water hitting my sensitive skin. I let my eyes closed gently feeling myself slowly drift, if this is what dying feels like then it's not so bad.
Fat, Ugly, Whore
The last thing I remember was hearing the door fly across the room, and frantic hands hitting my face trying to wake me up.
But it was to late I thought with one last smile. They were all to late.
10/18/13