I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded That for me it isn't over."- Adele Someone Like You

Miranda's P.O.V

After I finished walking the Carpet I went to the bathroom because I needed to get my head clear and wrap my head around everything that's happening.

I felt sad, angry, confused but mostly betrayed becuase even after all I told Zayn he did nothing about it instead he decides to bring her here.

What hurts the most is that just last year Zayn and I were here together walking the carpet together posing for pictures together. I remember how he had his hand tightly wrapped around my waist because he said he didn't want any guy looking me up becuase I was his and only his. I also remember that when i won my awards he was their to give me a kiss amd hug me and say ' Good job babe' or a I'm proud of you baby girl'. But now it's diffrent everything is different.

" Miranda" I turn around when I heard my name to see my manager Vanessa coming.

" are you okay sweet heart? "

" Shes here ,Shes fucken here" I muttered angrily

" Who's here" Vanessa questions

" Perrie thats who's here"

" What how is she here her band wasn't invited and they sure weren't nominated"

" Shes here with Zayn"

She doesn't Awser after that she just pulls me in for big hug and them I let some tears fall.

" Hey don't cry okay that stupid rat doesn't deserve you're tears okay what you have to do is show her whos boss show her your better them her which you are ,make youre performance the best one you've performed live yet. You said that All to Well is a song you wrote for Zayn right?"

I nodded becuase yes All to well is about Zayn I wrote it when him and I were having problems and we once had gotten in a bad fight and we broke thing off. But then we talked and worked things out again.

"Okay well then poor you're heart out in this song connect with the lyrics okay you'll do amazing, don't worry about anything else I'll take care of everything else I'll talk to the band and everything you just worry of sounding amazing and doing you're thing with the piano."

"Plus you look Beautiful as always plus girl youre showing skin with that slit in the leg and in the sides. So hey theirs lots of hot guys here to. " she winks

" Gosh are hot guys all you think about" I smile

" No thats half of what I think about the other half is about food" she laughs

" Gosh you're weird"

" But you still love me and come on lets get you cleaned up and fix you're make up, becuase this shows about to start.

As we finally enter the venue all these celebrities where taking their seats and talking to each other.

" Holy shit theirs Bruno Mars, oh my gosh theirs Lady Gaga! "

" are you really fangirling right now? " she chuckles

" hey don't judge me I know you're secretly fangirling to" I pout

" Well babe get ready to fangirl again becuase you're sitting next to Liam fucken Hemsworth you lucky bitch he's sexy as hell. "

" No way!"

" yes way look hes right their" I turn around to see thay yes she wasn't kidding Liam was sitting in the seat next to the one I was gonna sit in I guess.

I swear I almost fainted when thoes beautiful blue eyes looked up at me and when he smiled.

" Hello love" Holy shit is this sexy creature really talking to me?

" Hi I'm such a big fan" I blurt out great just great Miranda you just made you're self look stupid.

"I'm a very big fan of you to" he smiles

After a long conversation between us both and After I had won 2 awards and I was still nominated for 2 more so I had to wait and see of I'd win thoes to.

Vanessa finally came and told me it was time for my performance as we were walking backstage we passed the boys amd then only did I realize they are in front of the stages the performances were gonna happen.

As I walk pass them they all noticed me Well all of them except perrie Dumb girl was doing god knows what on her phone.

** Backstage**

" remember what I said babe okay poor you're heart in the song connect with the lyrics think of the memories all thoes lyrics represent you'll do amazing good luck. "

You can do this Miranda you can do this, as I was trying to calm myself down I hear the voice of the presenter say

' Laidies amd gentlemen please give it up for the beautiful amazing talented Miranda Gomez'

I take a deep breath and I start to play the first courses of the song. And just like vanessa said memories started coming back.

" I walked through the door with you the air was cold but something about it felt like home some how. "

I remeber when we first bought our house together the whole house was blank and cold but we both knew this was home that we were home.

" we're singing In the car getting lost upstate"

Zayn and I always liked going to trips whether they were vacations or camp trips but we would always put music on and sing on the top of out lungs and we'd forget about everything and just enjoy each others company.

" and I know its long gone and that magic's not here no more amd I might be okay but im not fine at all. "

I know that what we once had is gone well at least its gone for him and I'm giving up becuase I know Their's nothing else I can do. The media, the fans think I'm moving on that I'm okay but really I'm not fine at all.

" photo album on the counter you're cheeks were turning red"

the first time Zayn introduced me to his family I remember how they showed me pictures of him when he was little I found it adorable how he blushed when his mum told me the story behind each picture. I smile at the memory

" You tell me about your past thinking you're future was me"

i remember how Zayn and I would stay up late and he'd tell me about his past his childhood memories and always said he wanted to have a future with me. That he saw himself in a big house with lots of children. He always thought I was his future just like I thought he was mine.

" cause their we are again in the middle of the night we dance around the kitchen in the refrigerator light"

I remember late nights when me and Zayn would wake up late because one of us was hungry but insted of making food we found are selfs dancing together with the only source of light was the refrigerator light.

" running scared I was their I remember it All to well"

When Zayn and I first meet I had just gotten out of a bad break up and I was scared to open my heart and fall in love once again.


" Hey You call me up again just to break me like a promise"

Once while Zayn was on tour he called me late at night to confess that he had cheated on me he wanted to let me know before I found out. he had broke the promise to never hurt After months and months of pleading me to take him back after I broke up with him. I finally did

" I'd like to be my old self again but im still trying to find it"

I'm trying to be that same girl I was before the one who had strong walls around her heart so no one could hurt her but I still can't find her.

" it was rare, I was their I remember it All to well"

I remember when we first met ,and when we had our first date, when I met the boys and when I met his family, and he met mine, and when we went to las Bahamas for our first anniversary and when he gave me a promise ring ,and I also remember the very last day we spent together before the acciden it was the very same day I showed him the song I had written for him.


Every single one of those memories I remembered them All To Well but the thing is he doesn't.

Notes

as promised I update may I say I feel proud of myself because first I think I did a good job on this chapter. And because I updated twice in one week:) it would make me very happy if you guys told me what you thought of this chapter. And something else that would make me happy is if you guys

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that awkward moment- when it's quiet in class and you're stomach decides to sound like a dying whale.

Love you guys take care!

Melissa ^*^