Christina and the Boys
Feelings
"Yes?" I asked, my voice was groggy and rough from crying and sleeping.
"Where are you? You turned off your tracker!" Tatiana practically screamed through the phone.
"I know I turned it off, I didn't want Harry to find me. I don't want anyone to come see me right now, I need to be alone and work things out on my own," I said, rubbing my eyes because tears started to fall again.
"Will you tell me where you are?" Tatiana asked. She could hear my tears coming through the phone.
"I am safe, don't worry. If you really want to come see me, you better swear that you won't bring anyone!" I said.
"Alright, spill, I need to tell you something. And Harry wants to talk to you," she said.
"I don't want to talk to him," I said after I gave her the adress.
"Too bad," a smooth-voice said. I knew it was Harry. I stayed silent and waited for him to go on, "You there?" he asked after my silence.
"Yeah, I'm here. I've been here, Harry, but you obviously weren't here for me!" I said, letting my emotions run through.
"I swear, this is a big misunderstanding!" Harry pleaded into the phone.
"Keep your story straight Styles, because those pictures looke real to me. They aren't fake, are they? I didn't think so. I don't want to hear how you felt alone when I was out with the girls, it wasn't that long Harry, maybe a few hours. Don't say it was me who did it, because I sure as hell wasn't bad in bed. Don't say that I hurt you first, because I haven't done anything to you. And you better say that it is your fault, because it damn well is. I am breaking Harry, fucking breaking over you. A rich superstar who can't even love his girlfriend," I finished. I hung up the phone after that. I didn't want to hear his lame excuses, or about how hard it is to love two people.
He can love her, because I am done loving him.
**HARRY'S POV**
It hurt knowing I was the reason she left, but it hurt even worse knowing that she didn't want to talk to me. As she said those words through the phone, I couldn't help but reflect how she felt. I knew that I loved her, but she didn't. She didn't know I loved her, and whether that was because she tried to hide herself behind the iron curtain or because I hadn't told her enough, I feared I would never know. She had walked out on me, on us, all because of what Taylor had given her.
That told me enough about what she thought. She thought I didn't love her, and as I analyzed her behaviour, it made perfect and painful sense. I hadn't tried hard enough for her heart, and now she was gone.
She hung up the phone on me, and Tatiana grabbed her phone and headed to the car. I followed and she stopped me.
"Where do you think you're going?" she asked me in that sassy way that meant she knew where I was trying to go but wasn't going to let me.
"With you, to go see Christina," I said. I didn't mask my resentment for her not letting me just step in the car.
"Nice try, loverboy, but she said specifically no visitors. Especially you," and with that Tatiana hopped in her car, leaving me to stare after her like some lost child.
**CHRISTINA'S POV**
I felt bad hanging up on him, but I was quickly distracted by the unmistakeable knock of Tatiana. I peeked out the peephole to find her standing alone. I opened the door and she walked in silently.
"Alright, Christina, we need to talk," she said seriously and pulled out a bar of chocolate.
"I don't want Harry's sob-story," said, taking a square of the chocolate and popping it in my mouth.
"It's not a sob story, now will you listen to me?" she said, taking a square of another chocolate bar. I nodded because I was chewing and she went on, "Ok, so I know you've been hurt. More than you deserve, but Harry is breaking over at the flat. He can't bear to be away from you, it's written all over his face. And those pictures, they are pictures from when Harry hadn't even met you. He cut off contact with Taylor after she faked being pregnant with his baby. She is jealous of you, and she wants you to react like this. Please come back, for me if nobody else. All the other boys are breaking too, and they are all blaming themselves for something completely out of their control. Liam is going crazy, he and Harry cry all the time. Niall doesn't eat, Louis doesn't tell jokes. El never smiles, Perrie never sings, and Dani never dances. Nobody does anything. It has been a week already," she finished.
"I've been gone a week?" I asked, surprised.
"Yes, you didn't know?" she said, surprised just like I was.
"It felt like one long, slow, day," I muttered.
"Oh, baby, it really hurt didn't it?" Tatiana asked, suddenly realizing how much pain I have been in.
"Yeah, it hurt, really bad. I couldn't breathe, and I suppose I was a zombie. I don't really remember much," I said, shrugging.
"You've showered, because you aren't smelly," she said smiling. Suddenly hunger pains hit me. I groaned out, clutching my stomach.
"Have you not eaten?" Tatiana said, suddenly worried.
"Apparently not, that chocolate must have gotten it started," I said, clutching at my stomach and gasping in pain. Apparently, I didn't eat, and I was paying for it now.
"Come on, get dressed, we're going to go eat," Tatiana said, grabbing my untouched bags.
I pulled on lime green tight jeans and a black and hot-pink tee that said "You Can Break My Heart, But I Put The Pieces Together. I. Am. Strong". the shirt fit my mood. And Tatiana thought so too, because she said something along the lines of it suits me at the moment.
We pulled into a parking lot of a little Italian place, and I was so hungry I thought I was going to die. I bolted into the place, and they filled our order almost instantly. Seeing who I was was probably why, but at the moment I didn't care. I ate like a madman, and didn't stop until I felt sick.
"You really were hungry, weren't you?" Tatiana asked as she payed the bill.
"I didn't realize it until you gave me that chocolate, and then it hurt like hell," I said, sipping the bubble tea she bought me.
I took a deep breath as we pulled into the driveway of Harry's place. Tatiana shot me a worried look, like she couldn't tell whether or not I could do this. I smiled and stepped out of the car.
Each step I took was like my death sentence, I regretted everything I'd said to him to the deepest pit of me, and I was petrified that he wouldn't forgive me. I was petrified, but I pressed on. I could do this, I was strong. My shirt said everything about me, I was strong. I could do this, and I fully intended on doing this and succeeding. I walked in, and Perrie just about tackled me.
"Where were you?!?!?! I missed you so goddamn much!!!!" she screamed. Dani and El rubbed their eyes, as if they couldn't believe who it was. Then it was squealing and jumping and hugging and crying, I didn't realize how much I'd missed all these girls. The boys came in a few seconds later, Liam burst into tears. I hugged him, he was such a puppy. Louis started laughing and dancing.
Niall shoved a cake in my face, saying that I looked like I hadn't eaten in a week. I shamefully admitted that it was true, and he shoved three more cakes in my face. Harry stood in the corner, looking ashamed and scared to talk to me. I walked up to him.
"Hey baby," I said, determined to apologize, "I am so so so sorry for what I said. I shouldn't have, and before I start making excuses, I would love to ask for you to take me back, please?" I asked.
"Who said I ever let you go?" Harry said romantically and leaned in for a kiss, "Babe, you taste like chocolate and spaghetti," he chuckled.
"I hadn't eaten the entire time I was gone, so Tatiana found it imperitive to feed me," I blew it off, "I'll go brush my teeth," I said, and started to pull away.
"How about I brush them for you?" Harry said, shoving his tongue in my mouth.
"Not yet babe, I still hurt inside a little, ya'know?" I asked, but pecked him lightly on the mouth to show that I still love him.
"I totally understand, but know that I will be here for you. Forever and always," Harry smiled and we all settled in for a long day of talks and singings. We couldn't help but to fall in love with eachother all over again.
I was in love with all of them, and Harry was mine, forever and always. As long as we both live, at least, until the summer ends. I refused to think about that, and focused only on my family. Anne was ecstatic that I was back, because she was fretting over my safety. Robin was very happy I was back too, because even though he and Anne weren't married yet, he still considered me a daughter.
I fell asleep on Harry's lap, complete and absolute bliss. Tatiana was playing with my hair, Niall was cooking, Zayn and Perrie were singing, Dani and Liam were dancing. Anne and Robin were together watching a movie, and I felt like I was in my family.
"Where are you? You turned off your tracker!" Tatiana practically screamed through the phone.
"I know I turned it off, I didn't want Harry to find me. I don't want anyone to come see me right now, I need to be alone and work things out on my own," I said, rubbing my eyes because tears started to fall again.
"Will you tell me where you are?" Tatiana asked. She could hear my tears coming through the phone.
"I am safe, don't worry. If you really want to come see me, you better swear that you won't bring anyone!" I said.
"Alright, spill, I need to tell you something. And Harry wants to talk to you," she said.
"I don't want to talk to him," I said after I gave her the adress.
"Too bad," a smooth-voice said. I knew it was Harry. I stayed silent and waited for him to go on, "You there?" he asked after my silence.
"Yeah, I'm here. I've been here, Harry, but you obviously weren't here for me!" I said, letting my emotions run through.
"I swear, this is a big misunderstanding!" Harry pleaded into the phone.
"Keep your story straight Styles, because those pictures looke real to me. They aren't fake, are they? I didn't think so. I don't want to hear how you felt alone when I was out with the girls, it wasn't that long Harry, maybe a few hours. Don't say it was me who did it, because I sure as hell wasn't bad in bed. Don't say that I hurt you first, because I haven't done anything to you. And you better say that it is your fault, because it damn well is. I am breaking Harry, fucking breaking over you. A rich superstar who can't even love his girlfriend," I finished. I hung up the phone after that. I didn't want to hear his lame excuses, or about how hard it is to love two people.
He can love her, because I am done loving him.
**HARRY'S POV**
It hurt knowing I was the reason she left, but it hurt even worse knowing that she didn't want to talk to me. As she said those words through the phone, I couldn't help but reflect how she felt. I knew that I loved her, but she didn't. She didn't know I loved her, and whether that was because she tried to hide herself behind the iron curtain or because I hadn't told her enough, I feared I would never know. She had walked out on me, on us, all because of what Taylor had given her.
That told me enough about what she thought. She thought I didn't love her, and as I analyzed her behaviour, it made perfect and painful sense. I hadn't tried hard enough for her heart, and now she was gone.
She hung up the phone on me, and Tatiana grabbed her phone and headed to the car. I followed and she stopped me.
"Where do you think you're going?" she asked me in that sassy way that meant she knew where I was trying to go but wasn't going to let me.
"With you, to go see Christina," I said. I didn't mask my resentment for her not letting me just step in the car.
"Nice try, loverboy, but she said specifically no visitors. Especially you," and with that Tatiana hopped in her car, leaving me to stare after her like some lost child.
**CHRISTINA'S POV**
I felt bad hanging up on him, but I was quickly distracted by the unmistakeable knock of Tatiana. I peeked out the peephole to find her standing alone. I opened the door and she walked in silently.
"Alright, Christina, we need to talk," she said seriously and pulled out a bar of chocolate.
"I don't want Harry's sob-story," said, taking a square of the chocolate and popping it in my mouth.
"It's not a sob story, now will you listen to me?" she said, taking a square of another chocolate bar. I nodded because I was chewing and she went on, "Ok, so I know you've been hurt. More than you deserve, but Harry is breaking over at the flat. He can't bear to be away from you, it's written all over his face. And those pictures, they are pictures from when Harry hadn't even met you. He cut off contact with Taylor after she faked being pregnant with his baby. She is jealous of you, and she wants you to react like this. Please come back, for me if nobody else. All the other boys are breaking too, and they are all blaming themselves for something completely out of their control. Liam is going crazy, he and Harry cry all the time. Niall doesn't eat, Louis doesn't tell jokes. El never smiles, Perrie never sings, and Dani never dances. Nobody does anything. It has been a week already," she finished.
"I've been gone a week?" I asked, surprised.
"Yes, you didn't know?" she said, surprised just like I was.
"It felt like one long, slow, day," I muttered.
"Oh, baby, it really hurt didn't it?" Tatiana asked, suddenly realizing how much pain I have been in.
"Yeah, it hurt, really bad. I couldn't breathe, and I suppose I was a zombie. I don't really remember much," I said, shrugging.
"You've showered, because you aren't smelly," she said smiling. Suddenly hunger pains hit me. I groaned out, clutching my stomach.
"Have you not eaten?" Tatiana said, suddenly worried.
"Apparently not, that chocolate must have gotten it started," I said, clutching at my stomach and gasping in pain. Apparently, I didn't eat, and I was paying for it now.
"Come on, get dressed, we're going to go eat," Tatiana said, grabbing my untouched bags.
I pulled on lime green tight jeans and a black and hot-pink tee that said "You Can Break My Heart, But I Put The Pieces Together. I. Am. Strong". the shirt fit my mood. And Tatiana thought so too, because she said something along the lines of it suits me at the moment.
We pulled into a parking lot of a little Italian place, and I was so hungry I thought I was going to die. I bolted into the place, and they filled our order almost instantly. Seeing who I was was probably why, but at the moment I didn't care. I ate like a madman, and didn't stop until I felt sick.
"You really were hungry, weren't you?" Tatiana asked as she payed the bill.
"I didn't realize it until you gave me that chocolate, and then it hurt like hell," I said, sipping the bubble tea she bought me.
I took a deep breath as we pulled into the driveway of Harry's place. Tatiana shot me a worried look, like she couldn't tell whether or not I could do this. I smiled and stepped out of the car.
Each step I took was like my death sentence, I regretted everything I'd said to him to the deepest pit of me, and I was petrified that he wouldn't forgive me. I was petrified, but I pressed on. I could do this, I was strong. My shirt said everything about me, I was strong. I could do this, and I fully intended on doing this and succeeding. I walked in, and Perrie just about tackled me.
"Where were you?!?!?! I missed you so goddamn much!!!!" she screamed. Dani and El rubbed their eyes, as if they couldn't believe who it was. Then it was squealing and jumping and hugging and crying, I didn't realize how much I'd missed all these girls. The boys came in a few seconds later, Liam burst into tears. I hugged him, he was such a puppy. Louis started laughing and dancing.
Niall shoved a cake in my face, saying that I looked like I hadn't eaten in a week. I shamefully admitted that it was true, and he shoved three more cakes in my face. Harry stood in the corner, looking ashamed and scared to talk to me. I walked up to him.
"Hey baby," I said, determined to apologize, "I am so so so sorry for what I said. I shouldn't have, and before I start making excuses, I would love to ask for you to take me back, please?" I asked.
"Who said I ever let you go?" Harry said romantically and leaned in for a kiss, "Babe, you taste like chocolate and spaghetti," he chuckled.
"I hadn't eaten the entire time I was gone, so Tatiana found it imperitive to feed me," I blew it off, "I'll go brush my teeth," I said, and started to pull away.
"How about I brush them for you?" Harry said, shoving his tongue in my mouth.
"Not yet babe, I still hurt inside a little, ya'know?" I asked, but pecked him lightly on the mouth to show that I still love him.
"I totally understand, but know that I will be here for you. Forever and always," Harry smiled and we all settled in for a long day of talks and singings. We couldn't help but to fall in love with eachother all over again.
I was in love with all of them, and Harry was mine, forever and always. As long as we both live, at least, until the summer ends. I refused to think about that, and focused only on my family. Anne was ecstatic that I was back, because she was fretting over my safety. Robin was very happy I was back too, because even though he and Anne weren't married yet, he still considered me a daughter.
I fell asleep on Harry's lap, complete and absolute bliss. Tatiana was playing with my hair, Niall was cooking, Zayn and Perrie were singing, Dani and Liam were dancing. Anne and Robin were together watching a movie, and I felt like I was in my family.
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2/17/13