“Ew look who it is? Hey slut, get your fat ass over here!” The blonde preppy girl yelled from the stairs of the school. Her friends giggling behind her as she stood strong and perfect as usual. No, Carter. Don’t listen to them just keep walking.

“Hey! I am talking to you. Or are you so fat that the fat clogs up your ears?” The blonde girl came storming up towards me.

“Mandy, please just leave me alone.” I hid my head in my jacket afraid as Mandy laughed. I kept walking and she grabbed my shoulders, yanking my bag and trowing me to the ground.

She bent over and whispered into my ear, “Stay down there. Its where you belong, with the rest of the trash like your worthless mother.” She stood up and laughed, “You piece of shit!” Mandy spat in the back of my brunette hair.

I didn’t want to look up. I didn’t want to get up. Mandy was right, I am a fat disappointment. That’s probably why my mum killed herself a year ago leaving me with my alcoholic father. The bell rang for class and I stayed lying on the ground, letting the other people tred on me as I hid my tears from everyone.

Someone tapped me on the shoulder and whipping my tears on my sleeve. I looked up to see a green eyed curly haired boy staring down at me.

“Are you okay?” His strong english accent giving me chills down my back.

“I’m fine,” I continued to wipe my tears and started walking towards my class.

“I’m Harry,” The boy caught up behind me and I turned to see his polite smile.

“Carter,” I showed a insecure smile hoping he wouldn’t realise I was lying.

“So, I’m new and I was wondering if you could help me to my class?” He held out his timetable and I took it, nodding when I saw we had Health straight up together.

I led him down the hallway and into our classroom where the seats were filled up and the teacher had already started the lesson. Walking over to the empty seat at the front, Harry joined me which took me by surprise.

“Alright. Carter and new person we are going to be talking about contraception so I want you to hand out these condoms.”

Harry and I walked up to the front grabbing the box and harving the share to hand out. I could feel him staring at me the whole time, but I kept my head down passing out the rubbers.

“Mr Gold! Please report to the office now. Mr Gold!” The overhead speaker shouted and Sir walked out of the classroom quickly. Harry and I were done handing out the condoms when we went and sat back down at our seats.

“Uhm, Carter. Do you really think you need to learn about contraception? No guy will ever want to have sex with you, because who would want a big fat chick humping them. The only way you will ever have sex is if you pay people and you probably won’t use a condom then.” Mandy shouted from the back and the whole class laughed. Harry turned to face her and she looked straight into his eyes.

“Better be careful seating next to her. She will give you dirty diseases, the dirty little Nazi.” Mandy tried to warn Harry but he turned to face me and kissed me on the cheek.

“Ewwwwwww!” The class cursed.

“She’s beautiful. Words can’t bring her down.” Harry stood. Mandy her mouth wide open unable to speak.

One of the cutest boys I have ever met just stood up for me. Why would he do that? I am what Mandy says. Worthless, fat, ugly, dirty, trash, a waste of time.

The bell went and we walked out of the classroom. Gosh I wish Harry was in this class but he wasn’t, instead I had to face Mandy again. Maybe, just maybe she would leave me alone. Spoke to soon.

Bang! Mandy threw me into wall making me loose all my book in my hands and dropping to my knees and hands.

“Watch out fatty, your blocking the hallway.” One of Mandy’s friends joined in as they kept walking.

These girls just didn’t give up, all they wanted to do was make me miserable. And it worked. Everyday I questioned whether or not coming to school would be worth it. Watching as the whole school laughed at me. Listening to the rude comments they would say about me. Feeling every pain as they pushed me into things. I wonder. I just wonder if they ever they realised I contemplated killing myself every night I went to sleep. Finding a place were I would be at peace, maybe even with my mum.

Just like every morning, I got up.

~ ~ ~ ~

I sat down on the grass out in the sunny garden, nowhere to be seen. Well that was a lie. Harry came walking over to me, sitting down next to me on the bed of flowers.

“So,” He sighed.

“Sooo?” I fiddled with the grass.

“Those girls are bitches, you shouldn’t listen to them.”

“Why? They are right. It doesn’t matter, its going to end soon anyway.” I sighed and looked at his forest green eyes.

Harry and I were interrupted when eggs were being pegged at me. Mandy and a bunch of other kids gathered as they kept throwing, perfect place. No teachers were around to see, not like they cared.

“They smell rotten just like you,” Mandy laughed and walked closer to me pushing me and pushing me until I couldn’t take it.

“When will you leave me alone,” I shouted in her face and she stopped. Mandy walked closer to me, inches away from my face.

“When you die.”

My eyes filled with water as I ran from her. From everyone. If I had to die for the pain to be over, then I shall die. I kept running and running, not bothering to see if I was being followed until I ran into the bathroom locking myself in one of the stores. Pulling a knife I had kept in my bag in case of a emergency. You would have thought I would have used it to protect myself not the deathly opposite.

This was it. All the pain will go away, all the heartache disappears. My hands shaking as I held the knife to my throat ready to cut, tear pouring from my eyes. I slowly breathed in and sliced. They win.

“Carter? Carter! CARTER!” Harrys voice yelling as he entered the bathroom seeing the pool of blood. He entered the stall next to him jumping onto the toilet and haling himself over the wall to get to me. His eyes widening and filling with tears as he pulled out his phone and dialed the ambulance. I was still alive, my shaking enabling me to cut deeply. Harry pulled me from the pool of blood and carried me out of the bathroom where a group of people sat laughing until they saw me. Their faces becoming serious, panicked. My vision becoming blurry as Harry carried me into the ambulance.

“It’s going to be okay,” Harry sat crying while holding my hand. “Everything’s going to be okay.”

We are beautiful
in every single way
words can’t bring us down
so don’t you bring me down
today.

Notes

It's wether or not you want Carter to live, you can choose her destiny. :) I know my grammar is bad but I hope you enjoy this little story, I will be posting a fanfic very soon.