Madelyn's POV






I bent down to reach under the cabinet in the kitchen.

"Do you want de-caf or regular, Lou?" I yelled so he could hear me in the other room.

"Actually," He said, walking into the kitchen.

I stood up and walked towards him. "Actually?" I asked, gesturing him to go on talking.

He seemed a bit nervous but then gently grabbed my arm. I flinched at his touch as his fingers laid down on my scratches.

He grabbed the tip of my sleeve and started lifting it up.

"Louis." I whispered, scared. I put my hand on his to make him stop.

"I've already seen them, Maddie." He said and looked down at my arm, continuing to lift up the sleeve.

"Then why do you want to see them again?" I asked, pulling my arm away. I pulled my sleeve down and I felt the tears welling up in my eyes.

He was never supposed to see them. Fuck.

"Because... I want to make sure you're okay." He said laying a hand on my shoulder.

The tears began to fall as I started smiling.

Louis seemed very confused as he sighed. "Madelyn, please don't cry." He pulled me in for a hug and I hugged back.

"You're the first person that's ever said that to me." I could hear my voice crack mid sentence and hugged him tighter.

I felt Louis smile into my hair before his smile fell. He let go and stepped back a little, grabbing my sleeve.

"May I?" He asked, gesturing to my arm.

I looked around, hesitating, but then slowly nodded. He then rolled up my sleeve and stared at my scratches.

"Maddie." He said, soft and low.

"I didn't realize earlier and I'm so sorry." He said, brushing his fingers against all my scars.

"It's fine. It's not your fault." I said, watching as his examined all the marks on my skin.

Actually it IS partly his fault for leaving me alone and going on x factor and then contacting me 3 and a half years later, but you get the jist.

"But, Lou." I said, getting his attention.

"They're just- I haven't- It's-" I was trying to figure out how to say it.

"I've been so happy with you, I haven't- I guess- I just got distracted. I got distracted by trying to start a life with you and all the happiness got in the way. And I just love you so much, I guess... I guess I kinda forgot.. And uh..." I paused, gesturing to my cuts. "Those are just healing. They're not new. They're just... They're from a month ago. I haven't- uh." I got nervous and started concentrating on my feet instead of trying to talk.

He looked up and smiled at me. I tried to smile a little back at him.

"Madelyn Benward." He announced.

I looked at him, letting him know he has my full attention.

"Promise me something." He said, pulling down my sleeve and taking my hand instead.

"Promise me that you will never ever, ever harm yourself or put yourself in pain in any way ever again."

I nodded.

"As long as you live?"

I nodded again.

"Pinky promise?" He asked holding out his pinkie.

I giggled and intertwined our pinkies.

"I pinky promise, I, Madelyn Benward, will never ever put myself in any harm ever again as long as I'm breathing."

He smiled. "I love you, Maddie."

"I love you too, Boo bear." I said, leaning forward, and gave him a little kiss on the lips.

"I love you more." He said.

"No I love you more." I fought back.

"No, I love you more."

"Noooo, I love you more!"

"No I love you more!"

"No I love you more!"

"No, I love you more!"

"No, I love you less!"

"No, I love you mo- Hey!" He said.

I laughed but was interrupted as his lips pressed against mine.

I kissed back and he grabbed me by the waist, pulling me closer. After a while we parted.

"Take it back." He demanded with a smirk.

"Fine." I said, trying not to laugh. "I love you more." I mumbled as I grabbed both of his hands and started swinging them back and forth.

He smiled and I smiled back, trying to contain my happiness.

Notes

Sorry guys....

It's been forever I know but school and stuffs and other things.

My power went out last night because of the snow storm. Everything is covered in snow, and btw, it's still snowing.









Do you see how sexy this human being is?? It's unbelievable just how fucking sexy he is.