“Hey Ads, what’s up?” Grace sauntered into my room and plopped herself down on my bed next to me.

“Not much,” I sighed.

She paused a minute and began pulling at a loose thread on my duvet before I slapped her hand away so she wouldn’t tear it off. “Sorry.” She apologized and pulled her hand away. “Okay, would you be mad if I went to hang out with Niall for a little? He called to see if I wanted to go to his house. . .” She asked like I was her mother and she needed my permission.

They’ve been texting and calling each other nonstop this entire weekend, but since we have been spending all of our time together since the party, she hasn’t had the chance to see him since Friday.

“I just feel bad that I came all the way here to see you, so if you would rather hang out I’ll stay.” She offered sweetly. I was a little disappointed that she’d be gone all day, but mostly because then I would have to force myself to deal with my life.

I haven’t spoken to Harry since Friday night, and it’s now Sunday. This has been the longest I have gone without contacting him since I met him, and I feel terrible. I know it’s not fair to either of us, but I’ve been trying to wrap my head around it all and spending time with Grace helped me get my mind off of it for awhile.

“No, it’s okay. I’m sure you’re sick of me and besides, we still have another week to hang out.” I smiled to reassure her.

“Are you sure?” She asked even though I could see that she was elated behind her eyes.

“Yeah,” I nodded.

“He’s perfect Addie.” Grace sighed and fell back against the bed so we were laying beside each other. “God, how did you get stuck with all the good guys over here? I have yet to meet a guy in Wisconsin remotely close to Niall.” She swooned.

“So you really like him?” I asked, even though I already knew the answer. I’ve never seen Grace like this, so happy and in smiley. Sure, she’s had boyfriends and hooked up with a handful of guys, but I knew she had never actually had a real connection with any of them. I was glad that she was experiencing the wonderful feeling of having someone you really admire, just like I have felt since I have been with Harry.

She nodded eagerly and began to describe everything she likes about him. It was sweet really. I wish she could stay longer or even move here so she wouldn’t have to deal with the heart break when she had to leave. Maybe that’ll give her an excuse to visit more often or maybe even look at universities here.

“He’s just such a gentleman. I mean yeah, he’s hot as hell-and don’t get me started on that Irish accent-but he’s actually good guy. I think he likes me too.” She fawned over my friend. I was glad they hit it off for two reasons: Grace deserved a sweet, caring guy like Niall, and Niall deserved someone too. I was always shocked at how he was the only one in Harry’s group of friends that was single, but I’m glad he finally found my cousin so maybe the guys will stop harassing him about being single. They really were two peas in a pod; it was fate I suppose.

“Im really happy for you Grace.” I tried to smile, but this whole conversation really made me feel glum. I hate that I’ve been shutting Harry out, but I still don’t know what to do or say to him. He’s texted me and called me too many times to count, but I can’t even force myself to look at them. He at least deserves an explanation for my behavior.

“You really need to talk to him.” Grace said, seeming to have read my thoughts. She always knew what I was thinking. “I know you’re overwhelmed, but like you told me: he changed, Addie, for you. Whatever he did, he’s not that guy anymore. And frankly, I’m sick of hearing your damn cellphone ring every ten seconds. He loves you Ads, and he’s super hot so you should give him a chance.” She smiled and pulled me into a hug.

I hadn’t told her what Harry had done, because that’s not my story to share, however, I gave her the vague details about what had happened at the party on Friday. She has been a great help at distracting me, but I know she wants Harry and I to fix this just as much as I do. She’s right though. He’s changed, I just can’t seem to wrap my head around that.

“I know. . .” I agreed with a sigh. “Well, have fun with Niall. Be safe though.” I winked as she stood up from my bed, adjusting her shirt.

“Always,” She winked back. “What are you gonna do today?”

“Probably finish my homework. . . I think I’m going to call Harry later.” I decide at that moment.

“Good plan,” She smiled. “You two be safe as well.” She winked and turned to leave the room. Oh, if only she knew, but there was no way I was going to tell her, or anyone for that matter, about my little pregnancy scare.

I had gone to the doctor yesterday to get on birth control finally, and thankfully my dad believed my story when I told him I just need it for my terrible menstrual cramps. He was far to naive to believe his little girl actually might be sexually active, and for that, I was glad. Now if my mother was still here, she would have my head on a platter.

I also asked my doctor about missing my period, and was relieved to hear that it’s common for girls my age. He said I was probably just stressed or something like that; I tuned him out after he said I shouldn’t be worried.

Once my cousin left, I contemplated if I was really going to call Harry. I knew I should, but it was a matter of when and where. Honestly, I’m nervous that he’ll be angry with me for the way I’ve ignored him, but I deserve it. No, I need to call him. It’s not right to shut him out. Grace is right, he wouldn’t have done that to Izzy or Max if he knew me because he is a totally different guy than he was three years ago. I love him, and I can’t let him go for a mistake he made years before we even knew each other existed.

I attempted to gather my thoughts and prepare what I would say to him, but I finally decided it would be more genuine if I just said what came to mind at the time. . . Or because I had no idea what I should say.

With a lot of convincing, I finally grabbed my phone from my side table and dialed the familiar number. I was shaking from the nerves, and I couldn’t wait until this finally blew over and we could go back to the way it was a month ago when everything was perfect.

“Addie?” Harry answered at the first ring. It was like he was shocked that I was the one calling him.

“Hi.”

“I’m so sorry, please Addie I can’t take this anymore. Please talk to me.” He pleaded and my heart clenched. He sounded so upset and I hated that I caused his pain. I knew every time I ignored his calls that I was acting childish, but I simply couldn’t talk to him just yet.

“Harry-“ I began before he cut me off.

“Addie, I will do whatever it takes just please don’t break up with me. I’m so sorry, baby. . .” His breath hitches and I hear him sniffle before a sob escapes his mouth. Oh my God.

“Harry I-“ I start again but he doesn’t let me speak. If I hadn’t been so ignorant to him all weekend, I would’ve gotten angry, but I knew I needed to grow up and let him have a chance to speak.

“I’ll never forgive myself for what I did, I-I was so stupid, you know I would never do it again,”

“Harry!” I stopped him. I can’t take this anymore. “I’m gonna come over, okay? I want to see you.” I decided. He quickly agreed and hung up. I know it’s going to be difficult to finally see him, but I can’t stand hearing him miserable like this when I can’t do anything about it. I need to talk to him without interruptions.

I take a second after he hangs up to compose myself. Once I calm down, I change out of my pajamas into some yogas and one of Grace’s sweatshirt. I guess I should just go seeing as he’s expecting me. I’m delaying this, but to be honest I don’t even know why. I just hate it when we fight. I know every couple in the world has arguments and it’s inevitable in any relationship to have disagreements, but I absolutely hate fighting. I just get that feeling where Harry where finally realize I’m not what he wants or something stupid like that. Gosh damn I could use some therapy.

I finally force myself to walk over to Harry’s house next door. He is waiting at the door and opens it even before I get the chance to knock. I instantly notice his red, puffy, bloodshot eyes and his attire. There’s no way he’s showered since I’ve seen him, and I think he might even be wearing the same thing that he was at Liam’s a couple of days ago.


“Hi.” I offered a weak, knowing smile and folded my arms across my chest. It was a chilly November morning and I should’ve worn a jacket.

“Hi.” He said without any emotion. He just stood there and stared at me. I felt exposed as his eyes burned into mine, but I couldn’t look away. I felt guilty for being the cause of his pain, and like I needed to keep looking at him even though it hurt me. It was my way of punishing myself for what I did.

“I’m sorry,” we both said at the same time. It was painfully awkward, but I needed to man up and end this unnecessary distance between us.

“Harry, please stop apologizing, I’m the one who was stupid. I should’ve never shut you out like that and I’m truly sorry for putting you through hell. I just needed time to think and I was selfish about needing space.” I began but stopped when I saw his expression shift.

“Are you going to break up with me?” He whispered and ran his hand through his unruly, unwashed hair.

I didn’t understand why he would come to that conclusion, but then again, I could. “Harry, of course not. Just please let me explain-“

“I don’t care, you don’t have to apologize. I deserve a lot worse but I’m not letting you go again.” He rushed out before grabbing my hand that had been resting on my hip and pulling me inside. “I love you so much, Addie I can’t even begin to tell you how scared I was when you wouldn’t talk to me. I thought I fucked everything up again and I couldn’t handle it.” He admitted.

“I love you too,” I whispered astounded that he didn’t hate me for ignoring him. All I knew at that moment was that I loved him, and I was so sick of thinking too much about anything and everything in my life. I overwhelmed myself and I was just causing something out of nothing.

“And I am so sorry for what I did. If you want, I’ll talk to Max and apologize and maybe I could get Izzy’s number to tell her I’m sorry too. I’ll do whatever it takes, Addie just please don’t leave me.” He begged.

“Harry, I think it’s a good idea for you to talk to Max and Izzy, but I don’t want you to apologize any more, at least to me. I can’t be mad at you for what you did. We didn’t know each other and it was a long time ago. It took me a couple days to realize it, but I don’t care about it anymore.”

“Really?” He asked with his eyebrows bunched together in confusion. I could see the glimmer of hope in his eyes though, and I knew I had told him exactly what he wanted to hear.

“Yes. I want to move past all of this once and for all. And I also want to have sex with you because it’s been awhile and I miss you.” I bravely tell him. His eyes go wide and I can tell that was the last thing he expected me to say. What can I say? My boyfriend is Harry Styles, of course I’m gonna want to have sex with him.

“I think that was the sexiest thing you’ve ever said to me.” He whispered, still astonished at my admission. “But before we do anything, I need to tell you that I promise I am not the guy I was before I met you. I never wanted to hurt you, and I will continue to try my best not to. I love you, and I can’t promise that I won’t piss you off, but I’ll try to keep you as happy as I can because you deserve it.” He took a deep breath after his mini speech.

I felt tears of happiness stinging in my eyes and all I could do to react was leap towards him and plant my lips against his. “I love you, Harry.”

“I love you, Adelaide. Now let me make love to you.” He said in his beautiful thick voice before lifting me up and carrying me towards the stairs.

Notes

Hope you all had a good weekend! Please comment and rate!

Also, I'm estimating on this story ending at chapter 55 :( I'm not sure about a sequel because, in my opinion, most sequels end up making the story drag out and they get boring. . . I just don't want to make a shitty story haha

However, I am working on a new fanfic (eeeeek!) and I think you guys will like it :) I'll probably post it once I finish this one.