I begin to push him away but there's no use; he's far too strong.

"Harry, stop." I say when his lips move to my neck.

"No." He barks. "Why would you do that in front of me?" He says before biting hard on my neck, hard enough to leave a reminder of it tomorrow.

"Do what, Harry?" I ask and try to move away, but again, it's a lost cause.

"You were all over Max. Do you like him?" He looks at me, his dark eyes burn into mine.

"Stop!" I yell as he continues his relentless biting and sucking on my neck.

"Do you? Is he better than me?" He says through gritted teeth.

For the first time since the day he came onto me in my bedroom, I am scared of him. The way the color has drained from his now-black eyes and the tone in his voice. I pray to god that Max comes back soon.

"Does he touch you like I do?" He smirks and rubs his hand down my stomach. "Has he touched you?" He asks.

"No! Now get off of me, please Harry." I beg.

"Well you know I kiss better than him." He winks and harshly connects his lips to mine.

"Harry, you're scaring me." I admit, and he steps back.

"What?" He asks.

"Why are you doing this?" I whisper.

"Because you won't listen to me! You won't let me explain!" He yells.

I would like to think it's the alcohol making him this angry, otherwise I would think he was crazy.

"Harry I don't want to listen to you because you don't deserve my time! You humiliated me, you used me, and now you're practically raping me!" I gather the strength to raise my voice, trying to get my point across.

"I didn't use you..." He says quietly.

"Sure." I laugh and sit back down on the bed.

"Really... I wouldn't do that, well not to you at least." He says and sits beside me.

"You're drunk Harry." I tell him.

"Yeah, a little." He smiles.

"I'll listen to you when you're not. Good night Harry." I tell him.

I figure it's the only way to get him to let me leave. I have no intention of giving him any more of my time, but it works for now.

"Okay." He breathes. "Addie, I'm sorry." He says and tries to kiss me, but I stand up before he has the chance.


I leave the room and go find Max talking to Alicia.

"Are you okay?" Alicia asks me frantically.

"Yeah?" I answer confused.

"You were alone with Harry! What happened?" She asks.

"He tried to apologize, but he was drunk so I just left." Oh, and he kissed me and left this love bite on my neck but I'm covering it with my hair...

"Good." Max says.

"You guys, I think I'm going to go home. I think I drank too much, and I'm exhausted." I laugh.

"I'll walk you, night Alicia."

"Bye guys." She waves.

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"Thanks for walking me home, Max." I tell him as we stop on my doorstep.

"Sure." He smiles before leaning in and kissing me.

"What was that for?" I smile.

"We were interrupted before, so I never got the chance to." He smiles back.

"Good night, Addie." He says.

"Good night, Max." I smile and go inside.


I'm glad my parents are sleeping when I get inside, because I'm a little tipsy from the alcohol I had consumed.

I don't know if I'm happy about Max and I's kiss, but I keep trying to convince myself that I did. I wish that I had never let myself fall this deep with Harry, and that Max and I could try things out. Unlike Harry, Max is actually nice to me and cares about me. He is much better for me, but Harry makes me feel so much more than Max.

How did I go from having no guys want me, to two guys? And two attractive ones at that? They are complete opposites, but I can't seem to decide which one I want.

I decide to forget about my problems and just call it a night. I'm extremely exhausted, and I can't wait to get some sleep. Before I go to bed though, I force myself to shower to remove the scent of that party from me.

Just when I get dressed into my leggings and old t shirt, I'm startled by my phone ringing. It's two in the morning, who the hell is calling me!

"Hello?" I answer without looking to see who it is.

"Addie, I'm not drunk anymore, let me in."

It's Harry.

"No, it's late!" I snap.

"Please." I can picture him pouting his lip and it does crazy things to me.

"Fine." I give in and go downstairs.

Just like I had thought, Harry is standing at my front door waiting for me.

"Make it fast." I tell him and he looks relieved that I'm actually giving him a chance.

"Addie, I'm really sorry. I hate myself for what I did, that's not who I am."

I can't help but laugh. Yes, this is who he is, and it's how he'll always be. He's a jerk, and he will never change.

"Okay, it's not who I want to be. I want to be someone you like, someone you aren't afraid of, someone who doesn't embarrass or make fun of you. I know I did what I did for all the wrong reasons, but you have to believe me that I really regret it."

"Why did you even do it, Harry? Because if you did it to humiliate me and make me hate you, it worked. I've been trying so hard at this new school, and you just ruined any chance of me not being made fun of." I feel the tears prick in my eyes, but I refuse to let them overcome me. Not in front of him, he doesn't deserve them.


Harry's POV

I see her eyes water and I want nothing more than to hug her. I am such a fuck up for what I did. I hate that I caused this much pain for her.

"I did it because I'm an asshole who only cares about himself. The guys were bugging me about you, and I got angry.." I admit.

*flashback*

"Harry where the hell were you last night?" I hear Louis ask me.

"I had shit to do for the party." I lie to him.

Truth is, I was waiting for Addie to come over... But she never did. I probably scared her away when I asked her to come. I keep telling myself to go slow knowing how temperamental that girl can get, but I just can't.

"Sure." He grins.

"Shut the fuck up, Louis." I snap at him. I don't know what his deal is, but that damn smirk on his face makes me want to punch him.

"Oh come on Haz, I know you and the new girl are getting friendly... Have you made it official yet?" He asks and I feel my blood boil.

"Harry, you and Addie are dating?" Niall asks.

"No! We are not dating." I clarify.

"Wait, your new neighbor?" Zayn questions.

"Yeah, she stayed over at his house the other night." Louis answers Zayn.

"Harry! You never let girls stay over! So you two really are dating?" Liam adds in.

I swear to god there is steam coming from my ears. These guys really know how to push me over the edge.

"No, we just hooked up. And it was a one time thing, so all of you can shut the fuck up."

"Yeah right, I can't see that girl hooking up with you." Louis presses. Oh the fucking nerve of this kid.

"Yeah, that's why I have her bra in my fucking car because she left it at my house." I narrow my eyes at him.

"Bullshit. You have a crush on this girl, you just won't admit it."

"We hooked up! That's fucking all, now would you drop it?"

"Give her the bra back." Louis folds his arms across his chest.

"I will." I shrug.

"No, now." He points over to the table where she, Max and Alicia are sitting.

Shit. Why the hell did I bring up the bra.

"No." I shake my head.

"Then I don't believe you." He smirks.

"Fine!" I throw my hands in my hair.

*end flashback*



"So you're embarrassed of me? I'm just a hook up to you?" She begins to cry.

"No! Well at first, yeah,you were just a hook up,"

"Wow." She shakes her head.

"Listen to me! At first, yes, but after you stayed at my house, I knew you were more than that. You were the first girl that I actually wanted to stay the night." I tell her. It's the truth, I was just to much of a prick to admit it before.

"Why won't you tell your friends?" She challenges.

"Because it's none of their business. If I tell them, they'll just bug me about it, and it's not worth it. They don't need to know. Only you need to know that I actually care about you." I tell her quietly and move closer to her.

"Do you really care about me? Or are you just saying this to get another hand job?" She snaps at me.

"No, I really do, Addie I swear." I promise to her.



Addie's POV

Hearing him say he cares about me makes my insides melt. I don't know of I should believe him or not, but I don't think my mind is giving me much of a choice.

"How do I know you actually mean all of this." I whisper.

"You have to trust me for now, and I'll show you." He says.

"I did trust you.."

"I've changed Adelaide, I'm going to be different... For you." He says.

"I can't do this, all of this back and forth, all of the drama that you come with.."

"But you can't stay away from me.." He whispers, moving towards me.

"I don't want to get hurt." I admit.

"You won't. Please. Give me another chance."

"Please don't make me regret this." I whisper before crashing my lips against his.

I will have another talk with him tomorrow about the conditions of whatever this is. All i know is that I can't resist him, no matter how big of an ass he was to me. He makes me feel so alive, so wanted, that I can't stay away. I have so many feelings for this guy even though I shouldn't. I deserve better, but Harry is who I want. Yes, Max is such a nice guy, but Harry, I don't even know. That's my problem. He makes me feel something I've never felt. Even though he is a jerk, I love the way he can get sweet and gentle with me.


At this moment, I am not thinking of how much I will probably regret this. I just need him, even if it's the last time. If he can show me he has changed, then I am willing to change for him too.

Notes

i hope you enjoy :)

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and if you guys know the song "Hold On, We're Going Home" by Drake, it is perfect for Harry and Addie's relationship! Lol go look at the lyrics :)

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