Am i good enough? (MA 18+)

Fucking Mark what is he doing here?

I quickly turned around facing Eleanor and Danielle so he doesn't see me.

"Do you want to leave?" she felt that i was uncomfortable

"He will see us. Stay 5 minutes and we will sneak out." i suggested and they nodded

Did i want to leave ?

Do i want him to see me and talk to me?

Just as i was about to drink my coffee Mark and his friends Dale and Zak (its zen) walked over to the table just next to us which means there was not way Mark wasn't gonna see me.

i tried to itch my forehead or like put my hair over my face. He was sitting exactly in front of me but on the table next to us.

"Yeah the party is gonna be wicked." Dale i think his name is said to Mark

Eleanor and Danielle were watching me very careful.The boys were laughing about some thing and Mark laughed and threw his head back which he got a perfect view me.I wish the tables were a bit far away.

"Alex?" Fuck i cussed under my breath
I looked up to see one of the most beautiful blue eyes. It remind me of how madly i fell in love with them. All the memories came flooding back. For a second i thought i was gonna faint and collapse on the ground But i steady myself by taking a hold of the chair.

"Alex Are you okay ?" Mark asked.

'I am....fine....thanks." Even though he wasn't the most amazing human being i was blinded when it came to 'other things he did' i suddenly remember the constant times he would cheat on me. I pretended i never knew but that was because when it was only me and him it was sort of magical.

Once i recollected my self i felt confidence enough to have a civil conversation without fainting from sudden flashbacks.Then i fake smiled one of those smiles that show i wasn't hurt by him at all.

"Hey i am Naill." Oh so it is Naill not Dale.

"Zayn." the other one just causally butted in. He was gorgeous almost like a bad prince but a very hot one.

i looked over my shoulder to see Danielle and Eleanor with shocked expressions. WOW.

"So Alex, Hows life been, did you take the academics scholarship? I know how bad you wanted it. You look great, i haven't seen you in like a year." Mark look right into my eyes.
It was so difficult to keep myself together an not jump in his arms and tell him how much i missed him and that i still might love him he just need to prove himself but instead i blurted out
"Yeah life has been good i applied for the scholarship i am hoping to get it."
"Sounds amazing, we should go out sometime catch up you know?" Um i dont know how i feel about that.
"Yeah of course,that would be great." I didn't realize what i was trying to prove.Maybe being friends with him would hurt less than him staying away from me forever.

Danielle was kind enough to offer me a stay at her house along with El. I decided against it but they were too persausive.

Notes

Did you like it i will post 1-2 chappters tomorrow !!! ENJOY