Am i good enough? (MA 18+)

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I woke up to the sound of nurses shuffling sheets and beeping sound of the radiators. I was still holding harry's hand against my chest , i looked up seeing he was on his phone. I quickly let go of his hand making him look up at me.
"Morning," he smiled
"Good morning" i gave him a weak smile.Last night was incredibly embarrassing. He has heard my screams and i had to sleep with his hand in my hand. It is weird being around him from now on i mean he basically witnessed my darkest secret.
"Ah good morning" The doctor walked in.
"Morning" i smiled.
"You are good to go home love, just don't pressure your self to much you seem to have a very weak mind" was that sort of an insult? Thanks doc.Note the sarcasm.
"Anyway take care Alex also tell your mum i said Hi" he nodded his head.
When the doctor left. I looked to where harry was , getting that werid feeling in my stomach again.
"So you Ready to leave. We can get breakfast if you want?" Harry suggested.
"Yeah okay i just need to use the restroom."
I entered the hospital rest rooms that smelt like detol hand wash i hated and loved that smell. I know i am a weird person. Made my way to the mirror and i looked absolutely horrible.Yeah insecurities kicked in. Hate the way i have dark circles around my eyes and plump lips. God harry must've been disgusted to see me.
I washed my hands and avoided to look at my reflection it sort of made me miserable like i hated being able to know every flaw in my body and face. Harry was patiently waiting for me out side and i had to control my self from staring at him because he looked so beautiful. The way his eyes had such a uniqe colour to everyone else i've seen was indescribable. I couldn't help but glance at his lips , suddenly sweet feeling washed over me and the memories of last night came flooding back. He kissed me of guard and i don't know if i liked it or felt intimidated by it. Either way i couldn't decide. Maybe i did like it i am just stubborn to admit it.
"So where do you wanna eat ?" Harry asked once we got into his car.
"You can just drop me home and i will probably get something later" Pft as if i was gonna eat breakfast. It is the only meal that can make you fat. I am lying i just don't feel like eating.
"Are you sure you look pale and you haven't ate anything since like yesterday" Fuck. I look pale shit i look really bad. Why is he concerned?
"huh no i am fine just drop me home"He furrowed his eyebrows like he did last night and his lips pressed in to a line. Mood swings much.
I directed harry to mine and the girls house. He parked the car in the drive way but he couldn't go in because another car was parked in front. An unfamiliar car very unfamiliar.
"that's my mates car" harry spoke. Wtf?
"Do You mind if i check?"
"no of course not" i told harry.
I grabbed my car and made sure not to slam the car door because i always do that. Walking up to the front door knocking slowly. I was greeted by a Very happy Danielle.
"Alex!" she hugged me. "Are you okay? how did you get hit? i was so worried about you. Did you get any stitches? Eleanor told my i wanted to come visit you but i didn't know which hospital and i feel so bad that i didn't call and i felt like you hated me gosh i am so sorry-"
" whoa calm down, I am fine harry helped me with everything" Danielle's eyes trailed behind me to to find a very confused harry.
"Hi" he waved at Danielle.
The Tension was broken by Eleanor and Louis. Oh LLouis i forgot about him. Louis and Eleanor were laughing but as soon as Louis eyes meet Harry's eyes his smile faded away. Louis had a blank expression and Harry had a stern look on his face.
"Louis" Harry still not changing his expression.
"Sup harry" Louis just casually spoke to harry.
Wow. I didn't know they were friends. It was more confusing when they were acting like this.
"Louis do you mind if i talk to you" Harry broke the silence.

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