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Louis POV-

I storm into Harry and I's house.
I see him sitting on the couch next to Rose.
"Hey Lou. What's wrong?" He asks.
I tear slowly falls down my cheek.
"I fucked things up." i say plainly.
"What are you talking about man?" he asks walking towards me.
"She's in love with someone else." i say without any expression what so ever.
Those words keep replaying in my head.. 'she's in love with someone else...'
Tears start to fall faster.
I start sobbing until i finally break.
I fall to the ground the tears keep coming, and coming.
I sob loudly.
This can;t be happening.
"This is just a bad dream. I'm gonna wake up a-and i'm gonna be holding her in my arms again! P-ple-" i'm cut off from rose getting up and hugging me.
I start sobbing louder.
Finally i'm done. I slowly walk away from them both.
they where still both in complete shock.
Pain.
That's all i feel right now.
Nothing can help me right now...only her.
I'm not even me anymore.
I'm not Louis Tomlinson.
I walk into my room and sit on my bed.
I look up towards my bathroom.
I slowly walk in.
I look at myself in the mirror.
My cheeks where red and the rest of my face was pale.
I open my cupboard and look at the pills.
Maybe i should just end this...end everything.
Dying sounds really peaceful right now..
I grab the pills and pour some into my hand.
I sigh.
I go to put them in my mouth when i hear Harry knocking on my door.
"Louis? Are you in there lad? do you wanna talk about it? What happened?"
My head was pounding..my words wouldn't stop repeating.
I can't do this.
Suddenly i hear Harry open the door. I look up quickly.
"Louis...Why?"
The tears where still streaming down my cheeks i throw the pills down on the ground and yell
"I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE! ALL I WANT TO DO IS SLEEP AND SLEEP AND NEVER EVER WAKE UP! WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE?!...WHY?!...why..why" I fall onto my knees as the tears keep going.
Why...

Notes

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