Where it all started...
Did this just happen?
*JAYS POV*
Today is the day.
I got home from school only to find my dad not home and my mom drunk.
"Get your ass to your rooooooom noww" She slurred out.
"What the fuck mom your drunk everyday why the fuck are you doing this! Why do you treat me like crap when all ive done is be nice to you and care for you when you need it!!" I started to cry "Have you ever thought maybe one day your precious little daughter might not be here anymore?!"
She just stood there with a blank face. "what the fuck! What is thay suppose to mean?"
Is she this stupid? I pulled my sleeves up and showed her.
"Have you thought that you have hurt your daughter? YOU AND DAD MADE ME DUCKING DO THIS !!!! AND YOU CAN NEVER TAKE THAT BACK! IM DONE WITH YOU GUYS!! GOODBYE!!!"
i ran to my room and got the rope ive had ready for months.
I took my letter out. I placed it on my bed.
That letter really is only meant for Carmen. She was my true sister.
I know this is going to hurt her. But i cant do this anymore.
I wrote the letter letting her know that i will always lover her ..she was my best friend..my sister..my life.
I know people will say im selfish.
Good thing Carmen was my only friend. It was our last year in highschool.
Its September 10th 2013
Im going to die today.
i shedded the last few tears
I tied the rope to my hook in my closet. I put a chair so i can get up there.
My last words were whispers... "I love you Carmen ..Goodbye world"
I got up and put the rope around my neck.
Tipped the chair over.
Im gone...
*CARMENS POV*
My dad just got through beating me again.
He beat me because i was 5 minutes late home !
Just 5 minutes and i get fucking beat? What the fuck !!
At least he lets me go to Jays house with no hesitation.
Im crying right now and shes the only one who can cheer me up.
"D-D-Dad Ima go to Jays..bye"
"Be home bye 9 or else ill beat you again ...ah you know what i will just beat you !" He smirked and laughed evil-like.
i ran out crying.
i knocked on Jays door but no one answered.
Thats weird. I tried opening the door and guess what..it was open
I walked in to see Jays mom passed out on the floor.
She drinks a lot so it was normal to see this stuff
i tiptoed to Jays room.
i opened the door to see the unbelieveable.
She hung herself.
"JAYY!!!" I screamed and ran tl her.
she had no pulse. Her face was purple already.
i heard steps running up to her room.
It must be her dad.
"What is go-" he was cut off when he saw Jay
i was crying on the floor now. And i mean the tears didnt stop.
"Did you f-find her like this?" He managed to speak
"Yes!!! I jjjjjust got here like 2 minutes ago ! jeff why did she have to do this why couldnt sje say bye first!! Whyy!!" She was my sister my best friend. I stayed here because of her. She was the only person keeping me in this hell. I cared about her too much. I miss her already. I miss her laugh. Her advice. Her hugs
An ambulance came and took her within the next 10 minutes
i sat there in her room crying for and hour before i noticed a not on the bed.
It must be from jay.
i started reading it...
"Dear Carmen...only Carmen! Your my Dimples!! my everything!! I love you okay! No matter what i will always be here for you even though im not going to be here physically. If your reading this that means i have already done the unbelievable. Im really sorry Dimples. I know you will miss me but please dont forget about me please? I did this because i cant deal with knowing my dad isnt home all the time because hes with that blonde bitcj. And i cant deal with my mom always being drunk and me being her little servant! I always remember when i walked in to the house to find dad fucking with that blonde bitch..i almost puked. Then to know he was cheating on mom.wow. I just hate my life. Im sorry Dimples i love you its been a good 7 years being your sister . I love you so much. Dont forget me. Dont blame yourself for this. I still remember the day we met. You sat next to me in lunch because i was alone and you were the new kid. Sonce that moment we were inseperable. Well Dimples its my time to go. Goodbye Forever. We will soon be together. I will watch over you and protect you. Dont get rid of our necklaces think of it as a necklace that protects you okay? Love you
bye xx Jay"
Of course i was going to keep my necklace. I was crying more now.
She was my everything.
i cant help to think that what if i was here sooner? She would have not done this ! She would have had another day to live. I would have seen her one last time!
But no she was gone now.
i still couldnt process it.
i just stayed crying in her room for the rest of the day.
its night time now.
her mom came in
"Its time for you to go home ! We dont need you here. And by the way the Funeral is going to be tomarrow!"
"You dont even care your own daughter is dead!!" I ran out not caring what she thought of me!
when i got home my dad was ready to beat me because i was past my cerfew
"You ready to get beat?" His deep voice always scared me
"No dad! I just came from finding out my best friend in the whole world killed herself!!"
"Wooow that girl is such an attention seeker!!" I yelled at him.
"FUCK YOU DAD FUCK THIS FUCK MY LIFE IM OUT OF HERE I HATE YOU !!!! THE ONLY REASON I FUCKING STAYED HERE WAS BECAUSE OF JAY BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT HER TO DO WHAT SHE JUST DID BUT SHE DID!!! NOW ITS TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE!!!"
"What the fuck are you talking about?!?!?!"
"Dad dont follow me. Dont even call me. Im moving."
I ran to my room
i had my bag packed since the day i thought of leaving.
i grabbed and ran downstairs.
"Bye." I waved and walked off.
i was going to London.
that was my dream place and i had enough money.
Today is the day.
I got home from school only to find my dad not home and my mom drunk.
"Get your ass to your rooooooom noww" She slurred out.
"What the fuck mom your drunk everyday why the fuck are you doing this! Why do you treat me like crap when all ive done is be nice to you and care for you when you need it!!" I started to cry "Have you ever thought maybe one day your precious little daughter might not be here anymore?!"
She just stood there with a blank face. "what the fuck! What is thay suppose to mean?"
Is she this stupid? I pulled my sleeves up and showed her.
"Have you thought that you have hurt your daughter? YOU AND DAD MADE ME DUCKING DO THIS !!!! AND YOU CAN NEVER TAKE THAT BACK! IM DONE WITH YOU GUYS!! GOODBYE!!!"
i ran to my room and got the rope ive had ready for months.
I took my letter out. I placed it on my bed.
That letter really is only meant for Carmen. She was my true sister.
I know this is going to hurt her. But i cant do this anymore.
I wrote the letter letting her know that i will always lover her ..she was my best friend..my sister..my life.
I know people will say im selfish.
Good thing Carmen was my only friend. It was our last year in highschool.
Its September 10th 2013
Im going to die today.
i shedded the last few tears
I tied the rope to my hook in my closet. I put a chair so i can get up there.
My last words were whispers... "I love you Carmen ..Goodbye world"
I got up and put the rope around my neck.
Tipped the chair over.
Im gone...
*CARMENS POV*
My dad just got through beating me again.
He beat me because i was 5 minutes late home !
Just 5 minutes and i get fucking beat? What the fuck !!
At least he lets me go to Jays house with no hesitation.
Im crying right now and shes the only one who can cheer me up.
"D-D-Dad Ima go to Jays..bye"
"Be home bye 9 or else ill beat you again ...ah you know what i will just beat you !" He smirked and laughed evil-like.
i ran out crying.
i knocked on Jays door but no one answered.
Thats weird. I tried opening the door and guess what..it was open
I walked in to see Jays mom passed out on the floor.
She drinks a lot so it was normal to see this stuff
i tiptoed to Jays room.
i opened the door to see the unbelieveable.
She hung herself.
"JAYY!!!" I screamed and ran tl her.
she had no pulse. Her face was purple already.
i heard steps running up to her room.
It must be her dad.
"What is go-" he was cut off when he saw Jay
i was crying on the floor now. And i mean the tears didnt stop.
"Did you f-find her like this?" He managed to speak
"Yes!!! I jjjjjust got here like 2 minutes ago ! jeff why did she have to do this why couldnt sje say bye first!! Whyy!!" She was my sister my best friend. I stayed here because of her. She was the only person keeping me in this hell. I cared about her too much. I miss her already. I miss her laugh. Her advice. Her hugs
An ambulance came and took her within the next 10 minutes
i sat there in her room crying for and hour before i noticed a not on the bed.
It must be from jay.
i started reading it...
"Dear Carmen...only Carmen! Your my Dimples!! my everything!! I love you okay! No matter what i will always be here for you even though im not going to be here physically. If your reading this that means i have already done the unbelievable. Im really sorry Dimples. I know you will miss me but please dont forget about me please? I did this because i cant deal with knowing my dad isnt home all the time because hes with that blonde bitcj. And i cant deal with my mom always being drunk and me being her little servant! I always remember when i walked in to the house to find dad fucking with that blonde bitch..i almost puked. Then to know he was cheating on mom.wow. I just hate my life. Im sorry Dimples i love you its been a good 7 years being your sister . I love you so much. Dont forget me. Dont blame yourself for this. I still remember the day we met. You sat next to me in lunch because i was alone and you were the new kid. Sonce that moment we were inseperable. Well Dimples its my time to go. Goodbye Forever. We will soon be together. I will watch over you and protect you. Dont get rid of our necklaces think of it as a necklace that protects you okay? Love you
bye xx Jay"
Of course i was going to keep my necklace. I was crying more now.
She was my everything.
i cant help to think that what if i was here sooner? She would have not done this ! She would have had another day to live. I would have seen her one last time!
But no she was gone now.
i still couldnt process it.
i just stayed crying in her room for the rest of the day.
its night time now.
her mom came in
"Its time for you to go home ! We dont need you here. And by the way the Funeral is going to be tomarrow!"
"You dont even care your own daughter is dead!!" I ran out not caring what she thought of me!
when i got home my dad was ready to beat me because i was past my cerfew
"You ready to get beat?" His deep voice always scared me
"No dad! I just came from finding out my best friend in the whole world killed herself!!"
"Wooow that girl is such an attention seeker!!" I yelled at him.
"FUCK YOU DAD FUCK THIS FUCK MY LIFE IM OUT OF HERE I HATE YOU !!!! THE ONLY REASON I FUCKING STAYED HERE WAS BECAUSE OF JAY BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT HER TO DO WHAT SHE JUST DID BUT SHE DID!!! NOW ITS TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE!!!"
"What the fuck are you talking about?!?!?!"
"Dad dont follow me. Dont even call me. Im moving."
I ran to my room
i had my bag packed since the day i thought of leaving.
i grabbed and ran downstairs.
"Bye." I waved and walked off.
i was going to London.
that was my dream place and i had enough money.
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10/17/13