She's Not Afraid

I watched from my window, as the first snowflakes of November fell, lightly fluttering to the floor. I needed to get my mind of whats about to happen today. The day I've been dreading for weeks, I am going to be "Louis's new girlfriend" which may be another thing in my life that will be almost as crazy as it sounds.

I mean I don't think I could bare, going up to harry and apologizing for not replying to his texts, but then hook up with his best friend Louis. I just can't. Maybe I wont pull through with this. But I needed to remind myself to do this for me, not for anyone else.

Claire has been avoiding me, though we may life in the same house, she still finds a way not to talk to me. A part of me screams to go talk to her make friends with her she must be lonely. But another part whispers, its for the best, you cant let her get involved you need to leave her in the dark.

I pushed my hair back with one hand, laying my head gently back on the mattress I need to get this day over with.

I poured myself a cup of coffee, sitting up on the kitchen counter, wrapped up tightly in blankets, it was freezing in the house. Claire entered the kitchen her smile fell as she saw me, she groaned pulling open the fridge, taking out an container of boiled eggs, She pushed through my presence as she poured herself some coffee.

"Not going to school today again " Claire asked in a snappy tone, I couldn't blame her I Haven't really been going to school lately, dealing with everyday life you know.

Not having a straight answer for her, I shook my head, gripping the mug tighter in my hands.

"I hate to be the one to tell you this, but if you don't start going back to school soon,-" She slammed the cup down, her eyes darting away from mine.

"God damn it, Charlotte, its your senior year, your suppose to be graduating this year to go to college or do whatever the hell you want." Claire walked angrily out the kitchen.

I felt kinda bad, I should be a better person, I want to be a better person, but where do you start? I hopped off from the counter, dragging my footsteps to my bedroom. I looked at my watch, 8:45, I better start getting ready.

I decided I was going to be dressing fancy today, I chose about the only nice outfit in my closet, that wasn't to revealing. I admired my reflection in the mirror, I felt confident about what i was wearing, which may I have been a first.



I slipped on my coat, leaving a note for Claire when she comes home, telling her id be home late tonight.

**Skipping car ride**
I arrived at the high class building, the area was very secluded, it was surrounded by pines and 6 glass pane windows with white trim lined up the very tall building . I parked my car beside the yellow curb where a sign said 'Park here and wait for a escort'. Then rested my hands on the steering wheel. Taking deep breathes, I closed my eyes.

I need to do this, I repeated to myself. With each breathe I took I pretended I was breathing out the fear with in me. Suddenly someone tapped on my window, I looked up to see a man with a tuxedo and a name tag that read Dan stand before me.

"Ill park your car for you" He held out his hand, as I handed him the keys.

As I entered the building, I noticed Liam sitting in the lobby waiting room, his eyes glued to the screen of his mac laptop, I did a small waving gesture, when he looked up, his lips curved into a smile as he headed towards my direction.

"Its nice to see you Charlotte-" He pulled me into a small embrace, his strong arms wrapped around my curvy figure, his body was warm and comforting. I really needed that hug.

" I am glad you came, though I have no idea what this meeting is about, management refused to tell us" He chuckled. I laughed nervously. He showed the way to the elevator, leading me in first.

"You know harry really missed you, he's been trying to contact you a lot." Liam's expression serious, his brown eyes stared into mine, It felt like he had laid hundreds hot coals on my body, the burning sensation shot through me, sweat trickled down my forehead, I swallowed back my guilt.

"Umm yea, sorry about that." I scratched my head, the elevator continued to go up, Silence broke between us.

Finally the elevator halted to a stop, Perfect timing, it was right before Liam opened his mouth to say something. He disappeared into a hallway when the door.

I had to admit it was pretty damn cool being in One direction's studio,It was enormous the walls covered in platinum and gold records. It was on the top floor looking down to the evergreen forest below.Though the huge room with many doors and hallways it was empty. Everyone was gone. I wandered around, calling out 'Hello'. I heard a beautiful slow melody from a room down the hallway, liam had gone down.

I pressed my ear against the door, I was a little curious.

"Written in these walls are the stories that I can't explain, I leave my heart open, but it stays right here empty for days."

" She told me in the morning she don't feel the same about us in her bones, seems to me when I die these words will be written on my stone...

"I'll be gone, gone tonight. The ground beneath my feet is open wide, the way that I've been holding on too tight with nothing in between".

"The story of my life, I take her home, I drive all night to keep her warm, and time is frozen." A beautiful voice harmonized.

"The story of my life, I give her hope, I spend her love until shes broke inside. The story of my life"

Then I realized that voice I just heard was Harry. A fluttery butterfly feeling formed in my stomach. Shaky fingers brushed the loose hair from my face. The music began to slow as Harry's voice sang.

"The Story of my life..."

As I reached for the knob, the door snapped open,and then my eyes met green ones. His curls pushed back against his forehead, he looked tired, his eyes were red with heavy bags underneath them. his soft pink lips were now a pale shade.

Every bone in my body, ached for me to just hold him. To feel his touch. I craved it now, I hadn't realized how much I missed him until now seeing him again. His eyes burned into mine, they were sad and hurt, My eyes darted away from his. Pushing past him. Not saying a single word.


**At the meeting 10:00 am**

I sat down beside Louis as we all gathered around the round table with surprisingly comfy spinney chairs. They all exchanged confused glares at me. They all had no idea what was going on. I don't think I was prepared to what was about to happen next. The manager called attention to everyone's small whispers. He began his speech his voice broad and clear.

"As we all know, Louis and Eleanor have officially broken up. Sales have been low, Fans are devastated, and we needed a solution for the problem"

I swallowed back the lump forming in my throat. I knew what was next, I couldn't bare to see harry's face when the news arrived.

"Now we all know Charlotte here,Charlotte why don't introduce your self."

My head shot up, looking at the boys.

"I am Charlotte page-" The manger gestured his hand to go on."-I umm-" Harry's gaze locked on mine, My breathe hitched in my throat. "I think ima.. go get some fresh air" pushing back my chair.

"Ill go with her" Louis suggested, Following after me.

"You know what I think Ill go too" Said harry.

The three of us walked, towards the front entrance, arriving outside. I noticed a couple benches, along the green grass a bit off the property. I laid down on the bench, staring at the sky as snow softly fell down. Resting my head on my arm.

"Whats the big news, Charlotte?" asked harry. When I decided to stay silent. He asked again in almost a protest.

"Harry could you excuse us, Louis and I need to talk." I said sitting up, standing up walking towards the forest.

"What do you want to talk about?" He asked

"Ehh nothing, didn't feel like trying to explain my reasoning for doing this to harry"

"Doing what?" he asked, He must not know yet..

"For me to know, for you to find out" I smirked.

I grabbed the cigarette from my back pocket, lighting it, puffing the smoke in his face, but he didn't seem to mind. He took the cigarette from my hand and took a long inhale, holding it for a second he exhaled the smoke in circles. Impressive.

"Louis Tomlison smokes!" I fake gasped taking another inhale. He laughed.

"I do more than just smoke baby." Then his lips desperately met mine. Then all a sudden, I realized It felt kind nice to get my mind off the world for a minute.

The cigarette slipped through my fingertips. As I looped my arms around his neck, kissing him deeper. Louis pressed me up against the tree, hop he mumbled against my lips. As I did he grabbed my ass tighter, when we pulled away, our heavy breathing mixed.

"Your some kind of secret bad boy huh?" I asked, still straddling my legs around his hips.

"Mhmm" His face dipped into my neck, tilting my head to the side. Lightly he kissed on the sensitive skin, as his tongue traced my sweet spot, as I softly moaned, He began to suck hard which was defiantly going to leave a mark.

"Your mine now." He whispered into my ear quietly. Damn who knew secret bad boys could be so attractive and seductive.

He set me down on my feet. As we headed back to the meeting room, I silently heard him mutter,I like you.

"Lets continue shall we." The manger proceeded on his little speech he had written down on index cards.

"Now where did we leave off." he scanned through the cards, Louis and I stared at each other. I turned from his look smirking, biting my lip a bit.

"So as I was saying, We all have met Charlotte, Right? Now we needed a new partner for Louis.-" Here it comes I thought.

"- so who wouldn't be a perfect fit besides Charlotte, Now I have already met with her and she has signed a contract and has made a deal to be Louis official new girlfriend, now its their choice to keep their love fake or real, its all up to them what the make out of this contract."

And to add more fuel to the already burning fire, he suggested a party tonight to 'Celebrate' Yay. I thought sarcastically.

Everyone practically gasped, their mouths open, eyes wide, all staring at Louis and I, and we were looking at each other like two love struck Idiots.

Maybe just maybe, I felt that something was happening between us. But somehow I couldn't contain these thoughts that my mind which was feeling a certain way, but it wasn't a feeling I was hoping for. Regret.

These thoughts in my mind weren't what everyone was probably thinking or expecting them to be. Then I had stopped thinking just for a moment, as my gaze met Harry's, tears streamed his cheeks, He was hurt, now I felt horrible how could I be so selfish?

I hated to feel this way about someone else when I am suppose to be falling for Louis but Believe me when I say, I like Louis I really do. But why am I so Torn about Harry then?

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