She's Not Afraid

“What are you thinking about?” I snap out of my daze, hearing Louis's voice ringing in my ear. I shake my head at myself, forming a light smile to assure him I’m fine.

There are so many questions roaming my mind, but due to my fear of asking; I keep quiet. I want to know more about Harry and the guys, I want to dive into their personal backgrounds and grasp a hold of their memories. But don't want to seem like a creep, I know that I've been them for over a month now and still can only remember there names.

"How about some music?-" Harry suggests from the passenger seat. Everyone cheers even me. I don't really care what song, I just wanna get my mind of things for awhile. "-Niall you choose" He complies and puts in a CD that reads 'Midnight Memories'.

We go through a number of tracks on shuffle that I enjoyed very much, the guys all sang along, jumping around the car being silly as always. I laughed the entire time.

We pull over at a gas station halfway through, Zayn, Louis and Liam leave to get some lunch. While Harry, Niall, and I wait. Suddenly a song that comes on I that I know, I am so glad that I can finally try to sing along. "Wait I think I know this song!" I say all cheery.

*AN :You should listen to Happily during this part.*


'You don't understand, you don't understand..' Harry's voice harmonizes it sounds amazing. I sing along with the music as the boys stay awkwardly quiet.

'What you do to me when you hold his hand. We were meant to be but a twist of fate, made it so you had to walk away.'

"Cause were on fire, we are on fire now." Niall's voice sounds angelic.

'Yea, were on fire, we are on fire, were on fire now.'

The beat increases as the course begins 'I don't care what people say when were together, You know I wanna be the one to hold you in your sleep.'

'I just wanted to be you and I forever, I know you wanna leave, so cmon baby be with me so Happily...'

But then suddenly my heart stops when I realize harry left the car, storming off. Could this be the song harry was singing on the night I heard him alone in the RV?


"What happened?" I ask Niall worried, "Its nothing really, just that Harry had wrote this song for you, it probably just is too much for him you know?" He replies with a frown.

God what have I done. I am a terrible person. I should have known the lyrics were unlike any other and I was just singing the song that he wrote for me like it was a joke.


"I feel like such an Idiot, should I go after him?" I ask niall,
What am I supposed to feel, right now? How am I supposed to react? My lips part and close every second, its like I wanted to respond but there weren't words to define my expression. Nothing, I don’t even have the ability to focus my mind on what I've heard.


"Yea, yea go ahead." he forces a smirk to reassure me. I nod and swing open the door, following behind him. My footprints crunch beneath the snow, as I catch up to harry. I take a deep breathe preparing what i'm about to say. Harry stops abruptly and turns around, "Can you just go?"

I cross my arms "No." He shakes his head, his eyes are wild, looking anywhere but at me, I can tell he is furious and any second is going to lose his cool. "Damn it Char!, do you not get it?" He paces for a moment "of course you don't, because you are so oblivious to anyone else's feelings."


"That's no true." I say quietly, staring down at the ground. I nibble at my bottom lip, unable to say anymore. "Then what is?, Because I don't even know with you charlotte!"


I look up at him our eyes meet, he runs his fingers through his messy curls, "I'm sorry okay, i'm sorry I cant make up my mind, i'm that I keep playing with your feelings, Bu-" I inhale "but you have to understand I cant chose without hurting someone In the process"


"So I guess that's me huh?" Harry says sarcastically, lightly chuckling."I cant keep playing games with you, I'm done Charlotte."


Suddenly another presence joins us, its Louis. He peers behind the corner, and sees us. Harry huffs, glancing at me before storming off once again. I sigh and walk towards Louis, wrapping my arms around him.


"Everything alright?, it seemed pretty tense." He says, rubbing my hair softly. I pull away nodding, forcing a smile which seems impossible at the time but I manage, I hope its believable enough.


Louis grins, lacing my fingers with his. As we walk back to the car, I cant help but feel bad for lying to him, really bad actually, but not as bad as I felt when i saw how hurt harry just was. Did he really mean it? Was he really done with me?

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