Heidi POV

When I had finally calmed down from my mental breakdown around 20 minutes later, Harry let go of me and wiped away at the remaining tears. He cupped my face between both of his large hands.

“Are you ok now?” he asks in concern. I merely nod my head not trusting my voice or him for that matter.

He slowly reaches his head over and kisses the top of my head before letting me go and standing up. Usually, I would have reacted to his kiss but I was weak and tired and just needed my bed. I’ll deal with my confusing feelings tomorrow.

He walked over and unclasped both Christa and Jamie before I could protest. Not that I would anyway. My anger and bitterness towards them has calmed. I don’t know if it’s because of the satisfaction of hurting them or because I’m tired. Urgh doesn’t matter!

The both rub at their sore wrists before staggering up off of the floor. I can imagine what pain they are feeling right now….I mean…they inflicted it upon me in high school.

They both snap their gazes to me but do nothing more than stare at me with blank faces. I guess they’re still in shock about finding out my identity. Christa hobbles off upstairs and probably into her room with Jamie hot on her heels.

So it’s just Harry and I…alone…once again.

He sighs before turning to me with the same blank face. WTF?! This is the same guy that hugged and kissed me a few minutes ago? Ouch my head hurts!

“You need a ride home?” he asks blandly. I sigh but nod my head. I was in no mood for walking back even though it was like a 5 minute walk.

He nudges his head to the side signalling me to follow before walking out of the front door. I need to ask him about his mood swings tomorrow!

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Trust is a difficult thing, whether it’s finding the right people to trust or trusting the right people will do the wrong thing. But trusting your heart is the riskiest thing of all. In the end, the only person we can truly trust is ourselves.

I huff as I swing my heavy legs over the edge of my bed. I need to talk to Harry. I need answers. Why was he one minute being so nice to me yesterday and the next he was completely emotionless?

I shuffle over to my bathroom and almost have a heart attack when I see the girl staring back at me in the mirror. As soon as Harry had dropped me off home last night, I was too tired to do anything so I just went to sleep as I was. So you can imagine what I look like right now.

My hair was frizzy and knotty and had greasy streaks through them which was probably blood. My makeup had smudged all over my face so I had a lovely trail of black mascara and eyeliner running down my cheeks. My lips were dry and cracked and to be quite frank, lifeless. Both of my hands were smeared in blood and my clothes were dirty and torn. Basically I resemble a zombie.

I shut my eyes for a moment before reaching over to my side and turning on the shower. I strip down and step in. I need a quick shower if I’m going to talk to Harry. A stream of blood swirls around my feet and into the plughole. Wow. Did I seriously cause that much damage?

I quickly wash my hair and body before stepping out and getting dressed. I really could not be bothered to get properly dressed up.

However, just as I was about to leave, there was a knock on my door. Frowning, I walk downstairs and open it.

And there he is. The man I was just going to visit!

“We need to talk.” He says simply shrugging his shoulders. My frown deepens but I step aside and let him in.

“Harry, about yesterd-“

“Yeah what happened?” He cuts me off. Seriously? He’s so impatient. I was just going to explain! But I suck it all up and take a deep breath before explaining again.

“I don’t know to be honest with you. Something inside of me snapped I guess.” I say looking down at my feet.

“Did it have anything to do with your revenge?” he asks slowly. I shut my eyes. Do I tell him everything? I mean he knows my secret now so why not?

“Yeah…I guess it did.” I say quietly. I see him through my eyelashes, shove a hand through his hair. He’s acting really paranoid and I have no idea why. Is he mad because I didn’t tell him who I really was? Or is it something else?

Of course he’s mad! He’s always mad.

“Please. Tell me what you’re thinking.” I plead with him. I need to know his feelings. It’s killing me not knowing how he’s taking all of this. He looks into my eyes with some unknown emotion.

“You lied. To all of us. I tried. So hard to get the truth from you. But you kept on lying.” He shakes his head.

“But for some reason, I…. can’t hate you for it.” He says frustrated. I would usually smile at this but then I remember something.

“You…heartless bastard.” I whisper. He gives me a weird look causing my anger to rise.

“You….killed Amanda’s parents. You abused her in unimaginable ways yet you have the balls to say all of this to me! After everything back in high school to now, you are nothing but a monster!” I rant at him bitterly.

His anger matched mine and he came closer to me so he towered over me.

“Excuse me?! But your little friend Amanda also helped me to find out who you really are! And don’t bring all of that crap from high school back again! It was 2 years ago for fuck sake!” he replies back just as bitterly.

“And I had help killing her parents. Yes I was a drug dealer…but so were everyone else in the gang. I may have killed them but it wasn’t my idea!” He adds in angrily.

“I’M NOT STUPID HARRY! I KNOW YOU PROBABLY BLACKMAILED HER INTO DOING THAT! SHE’S TOO KIND HEARTED TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT! AND HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT! THE WHOLE REASON I CAME BACK HERE IS BECAUSE OF WHAT HAPPENED IN HIGH SCHOOL 2 YEARS AGO!” I scream at him.

We stood glaring at each other, him towering over my small frame causing him to look down on me. My hands instinctively balled up into fists by my sides.

How do I still have feelings for this….monster?

“You know what? Fuck you. I’m out of here!” I break the tension. I can’t deal with him right now. I snap out of his intense gaze and stomp over to my front door.

“Why can’t you just admit you like me?!” He yells from behind me. My eyes widen as the words leave his mouth. I slowly turn on my heel to face him. Did he seriously just ask that?

“Excuse me? Like you? You’re joking right?” I lie to him. I can’t tell him that I like him. It would ruin everything.

“Stop lying.” He says with a hint of anger as he steps forward towards me.

“I’m not fucking lying!” I say through gritted teeth. He smirks at me before getting even closer to me so our bodies are inches apart.

“Oh but you are. I can tell when you’re lying Heidi. Your brow creases right here when you do.” He says grazing his thumb over the side of my forehead. His breath fans on my face as he talks.

I nervously swallow to remove the dryness in my throat.

Ok Styles. 2 can play that game.

“Then why don’t you admit you like me then?” I ask in the same tone.

“Because I don’t.” he says huskily. His eyes travel over my lips before meeting my gaze. I lean in closer so our lips were inches apart.

“Liar.” I whispered. And before I knew it, he crashed his lips onto mine. Yep. We’re both fucked up. A minute ago we were ready to rip each other’s heads off and now look at us.

We’re fools. Fools in love.

He cups my face gently while deepening the kiss and I wrap my arms around his neck.

I slowly break away from the kiss and open my eyes to meet his. I finally muster up the courage to tell him. Who knows? Maybe I can use this against him somehow later on? But right now I just need to let my feelings out because this boy is driving me crazy.

“I like you Harry and I’m not going to deny it anymore.” I finally admit. I did it everyone. I finally said it! He looks lost for a moment as he stares into my eyes. His hands still cup my cheeks as he looks at me.

“Good. Because I like you too.” He finally breaks the silence. For the first time, I actually believe him. He likes me! I break out into a huge grin and he returns it.

“Awe. It’s so beautiful. I’m crying.” I hear a sarcastic voice from the doorway. Both Harry’s and my gazes snap to the owner of the voice.

Louis?

Harry tenses up in front of me and his hands ball up against my cheeks. What happened between these 2?

“What the fuck do you want Louis?!” Harry seethes. Geez. Am I missing something?

“Now now Haz. Your anger hasn’t helped much in the past has it?” he says calmly flicking his gaze over to me. What? Does Louis know something?

Harry lets go of me and turns his full attention to Louis. Louis smirks but raises his hands in the air in a mock surrender.

“Relax Haz! I just want to talk to Heidi here.” He says looking at me. Wait…How does he know about me? My curiosity rises as I encourage him to go on.

“No.” Harry says through gritted teeth, stepping in front of me. Daffuq?

“What’s wrong? It’s not like I’m going to kill her.” Louis jokes and chuckles slightly. Harry tenses up even more in front of me.

“You certainly didn’t have a problem killing Amanda.” Harry spat at him. I choke.

Louis killed…..Amanda?!

That means…..he’s the one who left the note….

“You wrote that note?” I ask quietly. Louis smirks at Harry knowing full well that got my attention.

“Yes I did.” He says simply. This means….he was protecting my identity….but why?

“You knew about me this entire time.” I say stepping aside from Harry so I could see him better.

“Heidi. Don’t. You can’t trust him!” Harry hisses at me. I look at him.

“You knew this entire time he killed Amanda yet you didn’t tell me so don’t you go telling me who to trust!” I snap at him before turning my attention to Louis. He doesn’t say anything after that knowing full well that I was right.

I knew I couldn’t trust Louis but he was protecting me for some reason and I need to know why.

“Yes I’ve known about you for a while now.” He says. I can see Harry quietly fuming beside me but he says nothing.
“How?” I ask confused and shocked. Is he some sort of stalker?

He turns his gaze to Harry before turning to me.

“Do you really know what happened to your parents Heidi?” Louis asks lowly.

Notes

So a lot of you guys have been asking for double updates....and i'm sorry but I can't....<3

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So Harry and Heidi finally admitted they like each other!

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