What You Call Love
C7
Christina didn't let me see what she was getting me. She just asked for my size in clothes and shoes then told me to wait at the food court until she came back.
My eyes scan the happy family that was walking passed me.
The mom was pushing the little wagon with the baby in it laughing and throwing up his hands, while the father? Well the father was holding a little girl about 4 or 5 years old passed out with her arms around his neck and head leaning on his shoulder.
They looked like all the pieces to a puzzle. Once, it was all together the puzzle was beautiful and complete. Now, that's what I call a family.
My foot taps the marble floor as I wait for Christina to return she's been in and out of stores for about 3 freaking hours! My head turns to my pocketbook since my ears automatically heard my phone ringing.
Hopefully it's Christina, I've been waiting for any sign when she was finishes shopping.
Christina: hey tay:) what kind of lingerie do u like? 3 or 2 piece? (;
Me: I don't like or want any of them!! Okay!?
Christina: 3 piece it is. U seem like that type of girl (;
What has this girl gotten me into?
I start to huff while rubbing my fingers through my hair about to pull it out like a spoiled rich little girl who couldn't get the doll they wanted for Christmas.
Not because she was getting me lingerie but because she's probably not even close to being down and my butt is getting so numb since I've been sitting in this uncomfortable, hard, wood chair for the longest.
I began to calm down when I scroll through my camera roll as I see a picture that I took with Ema a couple weeks ago.
I was poking my lips out at her and she was staring at me like I had three heads. Then I saw another one where she was smiling at me ear to ear. I swear Ema has the most gorgeous smile I had ever seen. It's basically mine and Harry's combined.
These things like pictures and videos are the only things I have of Ema anymore and a mother shouldn't have to say that about their own child.
My heart was filled with love and joy before Ema left or if I should say, before harry took her away from me.
I forced the tears not to escape my eyes in defeat. My mind just couldn't get off when I was forced to part from my little bundle of joy.
-flashback
My hand weakly grabs the door handle and pulls it open. My body was so weak from all the crying I had just been doing. My mouth forces a smile when I see Ema laying in that bed with her beautiful wide smile. "Hi mama." She waves her hand at me. I walk to the side of the bed where I was across from harry, trying my best not to jump over this bed and pull his fucking hair out his head. "Hey Ema. How's mamas angel doing?" I stroke her hair was the brown curls hit the white pillow her head was laying on. "Better." I could feel Harry's eyes biting into my skin and it was driving me insane but I wasn't going to act up in front of Ema. I watched as she moved her hand up to my and took hold of it pressing my hand to the side of her face. My heart melted over and over again in just a couple of seconds. My free hands search behind me for the chair. I sit down not moving my hand from hers and laying my chin onto her bed. I've been avoiding bringing up the situation because it hurt my heart with sadness and guilt imaging my little sweetheart in that type of position I put her in. "Ema........" My eyes lock onto her beautiful eyes just like her fathers. "Yes mama?" My mind is telling me to say it but my mouth is not letting it come out. Probably because my body knows I'm going to break hearing the answer that Ema responds with. "Why didn't you tell me about the way Rashon was touching you?" I watch as her eyes widen in fright of his name. I glance over at harry who had his head down shaking it side to side wiping his face fill from the tears. "Give us a minute harry." I literally don't know how I said that because after he too me what he was doing Atleast 20 minutes ago I would have thought that if I even spoke a word to him...... Well, let's just say if this was a television shows they'll have to beep out every. Single. Word. Harry nodded his head up and down and excused himself from the room. My attention moves back to Ema who's eyes were now looking directly at me. "Why didn't you tell me Ema, I could have helped you." I pleaded not even tempting to stop the tears which were now running down my cheeks. "Cause......" Emas attention moves away from me and up to the ceiling. "Because what Ema." I say very impatiently. "I don't want to lose you mama." I was shocked by her answer. What did she means? "What do you mean you didn't want to lose me Ema?" I wipe my tears away and stand up. "Rashon said if I tell he'll make you leave me. I don't want that." That son of a bitch. Tears started to roll down her cheeks. I quickly wiped them away and hugged her small body tightly as I could with her laying on the bed . "Ema. Mamas not going anywhere no time soon okay. I will always be here and will never leave you." I plead trying my best to let her know that she's safe with me. "Pomise?" She held her small pinky out waiting for mine to connect with hers.
"Promise."
-end of flashback
well, that last part was a fat ass lie.
I was going to get that little girl back on way or another.
I quickly stuff my phone back into my bag when I see Christina walking toward me struggling with her hands full of
shopping bags from all these expensive looking stores.
"Are all these bags full of things for me?" My lips part in
shock from all these bags she was carrying.
"Yuppy. Except for something's. I have to also treat myself sometimes you know." She holds out her right arm for me too take all the bags she was holding.
"These clothes better be in my liking Christina. I'm not playing." We walk to the exit of the mall when she pulls her Car keys out and chuckle to herself.
"To give you a heads up." She opens the trunk to the car and drops all the bags in.
"There to my liking." This bitch?
"No no no Christina." I twirl around in this little slutty red
dress Christina bought me today from the mall.
"what's wrong with it babe?" Christina say stuffing her mouth with popcorn watching me argue about the clothes she bought me like this was a movie.
"You can see my freaking ass when I bend down Christina! I'm totally not wearing this." I try slipping my arm out of the arm loop when she immediately stops me.
"Your 19."
"So?"
"So.... Live. Ema's not there and your carefree just for the moment until you get Ema back. So live! You've just turned legal last year! Last freaking year! So, live! Wear booty shorts, wear tops that plump up your boobs wear thongs! You have the rest of your life to wear grandma panties and clogs!"
She did have a point.
"for your information I don't wear grandma panties. I wear comfortable non brand panties that make my butt feel good and look good thank you very much."
I pull the dress off and throw it into the bed opening the bag to try on something else now.
"You literally just missed the whole main idea of what I just said." She throws a piece of popcorn at me but I didn't care. I was more focused on this piece of lace, thingy I was holding up in the air.
I look at Christina wide eyed as she smirked as eats some popcorn. "You like?"
"I thought I said no lingerie Christina!" I yell annoyed.
"Who knows Taylor, it may just come in handy one day. And it's very comfortable."
"How would you know?" I smirked to myself.
"I wore this same exact lingerie when I was modeling for a photo shoot if you really wanna know."
My eyes scan the happy family that was walking passed me.
The mom was pushing the little wagon with the baby in it laughing and throwing up his hands, while the father? Well the father was holding a little girl about 4 or 5 years old passed out with her arms around his neck and head leaning on his shoulder.
They looked like all the pieces to a puzzle. Once, it was all together the puzzle was beautiful and complete. Now, that's what I call a family.
My foot taps the marble floor as I wait for Christina to return she's been in and out of stores for about 3 freaking hours! My head turns to my pocketbook since my ears automatically heard my phone ringing.
Hopefully it's Christina, I've been waiting for any sign when she was finishes shopping.
Christina: hey tay:) what kind of lingerie do u like? 3 or 2 piece? (;
Me: I don't like or want any of them!! Okay!?
Christina: 3 piece it is. U seem like that type of girl (;
What has this girl gotten me into?
I start to huff while rubbing my fingers through my hair about to pull it out like a spoiled rich little girl who couldn't get the doll they wanted for Christmas.
Not because she was getting me lingerie but because she's probably not even close to being down and my butt is getting so numb since I've been sitting in this uncomfortable, hard, wood chair for the longest.
I began to calm down when I scroll through my camera roll as I see a picture that I took with Ema a couple weeks ago.
I was poking my lips out at her and she was staring at me like I had three heads. Then I saw another one where she was smiling at me ear to ear. I swear Ema has the most gorgeous smile I had ever seen. It's basically mine and Harry's combined.
These things like pictures and videos are the only things I have of Ema anymore and a mother shouldn't have to say that about their own child.
My heart was filled with love and joy before Ema left or if I should say, before harry took her away from me.
I forced the tears not to escape my eyes in defeat. My mind just couldn't get off when I was forced to part from my little bundle of joy.
-flashback
My hand weakly grabs the door handle and pulls it open. My body was so weak from all the crying I had just been doing. My mouth forces a smile when I see Ema laying in that bed with her beautiful wide smile. "Hi mama." She waves her hand at me. I walk to the side of the bed where I was across from harry, trying my best not to jump over this bed and pull his fucking hair out his head. "Hey Ema. How's mamas angel doing?" I stroke her hair was the brown curls hit the white pillow her head was laying on. "Better." I could feel Harry's eyes biting into my skin and it was driving me insane but I wasn't going to act up in front of Ema. I watched as she moved her hand up to my and took hold of it pressing my hand to the side of her face. My heart melted over and over again in just a couple of seconds. My free hands search behind me for the chair. I sit down not moving my hand from hers and laying my chin onto her bed. I've been avoiding bringing up the situation because it hurt my heart with sadness and guilt imaging my little sweetheart in that type of position I put her in. "Ema........" My eyes lock onto her beautiful eyes just like her fathers. "Yes mama?" My mind is telling me to say it but my mouth is not letting it come out. Probably because my body knows I'm going to break hearing the answer that Ema responds with. "Why didn't you tell me about the way Rashon was touching you?" I watch as her eyes widen in fright of his name. I glance over at harry who had his head down shaking it side to side wiping his face fill from the tears. "Give us a minute harry." I literally don't know how I said that because after he too me what he was doing Atleast 20 minutes ago I would have thought that if I even spoke a word to him...... Well, let's just say if this was a television shows they'll have to beep out every. Single. Word. Harry nodded his head up and down and excused himself from the room. My attention moves back to Ema who's eyes were now looking directly at me. "Why didn't you tell me Ema, I could have helped you." I pleaded not even tempting to stop the tears which were now running down my cheeks. "Cause......" Emas attention moves away from me and up to the ceiling. "Because what Ema." I say very impatiently. "I don't want to lose you mama." I was shocked by her answer. What did she means? "What do you mean you didn't want to lose me Ema?" I wipe my tears away and stand up. "Rashon said if I tell he'll make you leave me. I don't want that." That son of a bitch. Tears started to roll down her cheeks. I quickly wiped them away and hugged her small body tightly as I could with her laying on the bed . "Ema. Mamas not going anywhere no time soon okay. I will always be here and will never leave you." I plead trying my best to let her know that she's safe with me. "Pomise?" She held her small pinky out waiting for mine to connect with hers.
"Promise."
-end of flashback
well, that last part was a fat ass lie.
I was going to get that little girl back on way or another.
I quickly stuff my phone back into my bag when I see Christina walking toward me struggling with her hands full of
shopping bags from all these expensive looking stores.
"Are all these bags full of things for me?" My lips part in
shock from all these bags she was carrying.
"Yuppy. Except for something's. I have to also treat myself sometimes you know." She holds out her right arm for me too take all the bags she was holding.
"These clothes better be in my liking Christina. I'm not playing." We walk to the exit of the mall when she pulls her Car keys out and chuckle to herself.
"To give you a heads up." She opens the trunk to the car and drops all the bags in.
"There to my liking." This bitch?
"No no no Christina." I twirl around in this little slutty red
dress Christina bought me today from the mall.
"what's wrong with it babe?" Christina say stuffing her mouth with popcorn watching me argue about the clothes she bought me like this was a movie.
"You can see my freaking ass when I bend down Christina! I'm totally not wearing this." I try slipping my arm out of the arm loop when she immediately stops me.
"Your 19."
"So?"
"So.... Live. Ema's not there and your carefree just for the moment until you get Ema back. So live! You've just turned legal last year! Last freaking year! So, live! Wear booty shorts, wear tops that plump up your boobs wear thongs! You have the rest of your life to wear grandma panties and clogs!"
She did have a point.
"for your information I don't wear grandma panties. I wear comfortable non brand panties that make my butt feel good and look good thank you very much."
I pull the dress off and throw it into the bed opening the bag to try on something else now.
"You literally just missed the whole main idea of what I just said." She throws a piece of popcorn at me but I didn't care. I was more focused on this piece of lace, thingy I was holding up in the air.
I look at Christina wide eyed as she smirked as eats some popcorn. "You like?"
"I thought I said no lingerie Christina!" I yell annoyed.
"Who knows Taylor, it may just come in handy one day. And it's very comfortable."
"How would you know?" I smirked to myself.
"I wore this same exact lingerie when I was modeling for a photo shoot if you really wanna know."
Notes
Sorry I haven't updated in a few days. The internets not on in my new house and my dad took my phone away-.- so, sorry !Not not much a chapter just leading you to the important chapters If you know what I mean;)
ill be updating again tonight or tomorrow since I own y'all !!
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I can't see any of the house pictures -_- but I really love your story I read the first one all last night!
2/28/16