Why didn't I tell her the truth? I asked myself.
I buried my face into my hands and took my phone. I knew this wasn't wise but I needed to do something.
"Rachel."She answered.
"Hey, it's Harry." I said and sighed. "Are you in London?"
"Yeah, why?" Rachel sounded curious.
"I just thought that would you like to hang out?"
She laughed quietly. "I thought you were serious when you said that it was mistake that never would happen again."
I sighed. "I thought so too."
"Okay, I'll be there soon. See you, lover." Rachel said and finished the call.
Lover. I sighed. This was the last time, the last mistake. I stood up when I heard a knock and went to open the door. Rachel stood there. Her blonde hair was on ponytail and her red lips were curved into a smile. She came in. She has mini skirt and tank top. She looked around and then turned face to face with me.
"You have a beautiful home, Harry." Rachel murmured and stepped closer.
She bit her lip as her hand trailed all over my body. She looked at me with her chocolate brown eyes seductively. "I knew you couldn't forget that night."
"This is the last time." I whispered and took her hand in mine.
Rachel laughed and followed me. I took her purposely to one of our guest rooms. She pulled me to the bed and started to kiss my neck. Then I started to think about Alice and pulled Rachel away.
She looked annoyed and stood up in front of me. "You enjoyed last time, remember?"
"Shut up and go away. I'm at home now, it's different." I murmured and started to stand up but she came into my lap and pulled my lips into hers.
"I'm not kidding, Rachel! Go away!" I said when she pulled away a while.
"You can't turn back now, Harry. I know you can't, I can see it in your eyes." Rachel murmured seductively.
"Rach, c'm..." She stopped my sentence by kissing me and I automatically kissed back.
Now I knew it too, I couldn't turn back now...

~Later that night~

I woke up and remembered what happened. I looked next to me and saw Rachel. I jumped to sit and she woke up to that. I looked shocked and wore my jeans back and t-shirt that I had when I came home. Rachel started to wear her clothes too and smiled all the time.
"I knew you would like that... again." Rachel whispered to my ear.
"Oh no, oh no, now go away! That wasn't supposed to happen, go back there where you came and never come back." I said in panic and ran downstairs.
"Admit it, you called me because you liked that, right?" Rachel asked as she followed me.
"No!" I yelled.
Rachel looked at me in disbelief and went to the door. "Okay, I leave. Call me anytime you need something."
"Believe me, that won't happen. Good bye!" I said and she closed the door behind her.
I sat on the couch. Damn, I screwed up. This time I really screwed up. I sighed and put my hand in back of my head.
"I can't believe I did that!" I whispered and tears streamed down my face again.
I took my phone and called Niall.
"Harry, is everything okay?" I heard his Irish accent.
"I screwed up!" I replied and took a deep breath.
"What do you mean?" Niall sounded curious.
"I cheated on Alice... again." I told him because no one of guys didn't know anything about what really happened on tour.
"What? Are you serious?" Niall said quietly. "You're joking, right?"
"Niall, I'm not joking! I cheated on her first time on the tour and second time at home. She believed those magazines and left. I called that girl and she came over and... well... you know." I almost started to cry again.
"You have to tell her the truth, Harry..." Niall said and sighed.
"I don't want to lose her..."
"It doesn't depend about you, Harry. It's her decision. But you have to be honest with her." Niall said quietly. "You want me to come over?"
"No need, I want to be alone." I said and finished the call.
I need to do something. I walked to the kitchen, took a bread knife and walked to the bathroom. I filled the sink with a water and looked myself in the mirror. I saw the cheater.
"I'm sorry..." I said as I placed the knife to my wrist.