Sad, Beautiful, Tragic |h.s|
Chapter 2
(A/N) Read the Author's note @ the end of the chapter. I really need to clear some confusions.
Also listen to If You Ever Come Back, by The Script, while reading this pretty please?
Now they say I'm wasting my time
'Cause you're never comin home
But they used to say the world was flat but how wrong was that now.
~If You Ever Come Back, The Script
Harry/ Louis/ Zayn/ Harry
Harry groans as the bright sun rays hit his face. His hand drops with a thump on the empty side of the bed, his eyes flutter open, as he looks around the room thinking Lexi would be standing above him, staring at her with that amused expression.
Three months had passed but it still felt like being hit by a ton of bricks every day when he didn’t find his so-called Angel by his side in the morning. He winces at the sudden pain in his head. Last night’s hangover.
His bedroom door opens with a click. Harry turns away from the door, as usual not in a mood to face Eleanor or any of his mates.
“Harry.”
Harry doesn’t respond.
“Please Haz, just try to forget about it,” Harry’s fists clench at his sides. As a cold glare is fixed upon the boy who is standing at the door.
“It’s been three months, mate. Media and fans are starting to think that we are falling apart.”
“We are, though. Aren’t we?” Harry smirks, enjoying the way Liam’s nose flares in anger. Liam’s brown eyes blaze in outrage. While Harry provokes him with the amused smirk on his face, which keeps on growing.
Liam turns around his footsteps stomping across the hardwood floor. As Harry lays back with a satisfied sigh. His lips are shaped in an evil grin, until his gaze falls on the frame that rests by his bedside. He grabs it by the vintage silver frame, and looks at the way her eyes are a beautiful blue-gray shade, shining with pure innocence and truth, and no matter how many times he tells himself that’s not the emotion in her eyes. His heart believes that those gray eyes, with flecks of gold, are shining with nothing other than true love.
He raises his hand to smash the picture against the wall, but his hand stops abruptly, and he gently drops the frame on the cushioned bed. He runs a hand through his hair, inwardly yelling at himself for still loving her more, than his life.
Louis who was silently watching this act, by the door, paces towards Harry’s bed and sits by his side.
“Haz,” he croaks. Harry closes his eyes for a moment before meeting Louis’s blue ones.
“Yeah?” he asks, he couldn’t give Louis the cold treatment he had been giving the other lads. His swollen eyes, and ruffled hair, proved that Louis hadn’t been doing any better than Harry himself.
“I’m sorry,” he whispers playing with his fingers on his lap.
Harry’s head snaps up, “What?!” he asks bewildered.
“I...Lexi, it’s my fault. All this time I thought you would be the one to break her heart,” Louis laughs humorlessly, “I never could’ve imagined it would be the other way around. Like father, like daughter, though. Right?” Louis speaks hoarsely. Harry stares at him shocked, he had never known Louis to hate somebody, now listening to those bitter words for his own sister told him how much Lexi’s leaving had affected Louis. “I truly can’t believe she is my sister,” Louis adds truthfully while his heart hurts at the thought of it.
“Lou. You’re trying to make me feel better,” it was meant to be question but it came out a fact. Harry laughed sadly at his best mate. “No matter how much you blame her, man. No matter how much I blame her. I can’t stop loving her, no matter how hard I try.” He says patting Louis’s back. “And I know you can’t either. It’s just a facade we are both keeping, pretending to hate her while we both will still readily lay our lives for her. Maybe one day we will...hate her, even though that just seems too unreal, but then maybe one day she’ll come back too.” Harry stares out the window, “right now we’re pretending we hate her more than anyone, but if she comes we’ll be the first ones to embrace her.” Harry shakes his head sadly.
Louis stares at Harry in shock, he had never imagined anyone could love someone so much. “You really loved her, didn’t you?” Louis asks
“Love. Love her. And did you doubt such a simple fact?” Harry asks a sad smile on his lips.
Louis swallows, opening his mouth to provide some kind of comfort. But Zayn steps into the room, with a grim expression.
“I’ve had enough shit from both of you. None of us can get over it, okay? I’m not saying it’s ever going to go away. We’ll never stop missing her. Even though she is the reason for all of this. But we can at least try to move past it. Let me remind you we are in a band called One Direction. We are best mates, and we had a life before Alexis came in the picture.” Zayn said stiffly.
Harry stares shockingly at Zayn, he never talked much. “Now get up we have rehearsals today!” Harry and Louis nod. Harry like a scolded-kid walks into his bathroom. While Louis walks out of Harry’s room, to his own.
Zayn sighs and goes to the living-room, flinging himself on the couch. With his head in his hands, he takes calming breaths. Perrie walks behind him rubbing soothing circles on his back. Zayn smiles lightly. No matter what Lexi did, he was happy that she said that Zayn and Perrie should carry on with their wedding. And despite everything he was selfishly happy for that.
Harry
Harry pulls a sheet of paper out of the stack that sat on the table. After debating on whether he should do this or not, he walks into the living room where the rest of the band was seated. They all got up silently, as Harry walks into the room, ready to leave for the studio.
“No,” Harry speaks up, “I...umm have something to show you,” he says.
The four heads snap in his direction, as he bites on his lip . Three months since he hadn’t talked to any of them directly.
“uh--I,” he hands the sheets of paper to Liam.
After skimming through the sheets, Liam stares at Harry in awe. Louis, Zayn and Niall shuffle closer trying to catch a glimpse of what was on there.
In Harry’s scrawny cursive. A few lines were scribbled with lots of scratches and doodling. Louis catches one of the lines on the paper, his breathing hitches as his eyes travel to see Harry’s face.
She told me in the morning she don’t feel the same about us in the bones, it seems to me that when I die these worlds will be written on my stone.
“Haz--” Louis starts.
“Don’t!” Harry speaks up, “it’s just an opinion. Say yes or no. Not how sorry you are. I’ve heard enough of that,” he snapped.
“It’s...amazing, Harry,” Niall says.
“Thanks,” Harry replies coolly before walking out the door.
The other lads sigh, then without saying another word follow him.
After hours of practice and recording the lads return to their flats. Harry as usual doesn't say a word and silently goes back to his room he lays back on his bed, and closes his eyes happy for the day to be over.
Like every other night. He reaches for the folded note in his jacket
Harry,
I love you. I love you so much that it hurts. And I hope you understand that I'm doing this for you for us. As painful as it may be, sometimes you are meant to fall in love with someone but not meant to be with them. And unfortunately so, that is our story. This was the final chapter of our story and I wouldn't want to change anything that happened between us, because to me it was worth it. Every second I spend with you, everything we did. Most of all loving you. And I know I’ll never stop. This is the hardest thing I’ve done in my life. Please don’t try to find me, because if you do I’ll come back, and I can’t do that. I’ll never be able to forgive myself.
Like every other girl, I won’t tell you to find another girl who will love you more than me, because Haz, I love you more than anybody has loved another person. But I hope you find someone, who won’t hurt you as much as I did. Don’t hate me please, I can’t bear the thought of that, it’s worse than dying. You are the best boyfriend, the best best friend, the best thing that has ever happened to me, and will ever happen. And hopefully I’m worth something to you too. Because you are everything to me.
Tell Perrie and Zayn I’m sorry for ditching their wedding on the last day, but promise me that you’ll take care that they go ahead with the wedding, because I know how much they love each other. I can’t imagine how disappointed Louis would be in me, tell him I love him, a lot. He is the best brother anyone could ask for. I know Eleanor will take of him, but look over them for me, okay? Niall, Dani and Liam. Tell everybody I’m sorry. You are the only family I’ve known and thank you so much for everything. And I can’t describe how sorry I am for doing this.
Baby, no matter what just don’t forget about me. Don’t forget about us. That’s the worst thing that can happen. You still are my missing puzzle piece the one person that fits perfectly with me. And baby, I’m forever yours. But I don’t think I have any right to call you mine anymore.
And you know how bad I am with words. No words can describe the remorse I feel at this moment. I’m sorry.
Love,
Your Angel
P.S. I love you, forever and always.
Harry’s tears stain the paper, he hastily shoves it in his back pocket. He closes his eyes, her beautiful face opens up in his thoughts.
“How can I ever hate you? How will I ever forget about you? How will I move on? How can I even take a breath without the thought of you? How Angel, how? Just tell me how this won’t hurt. Come back baby, I won’t get through another day, otherwise. I need you.” Harry chokes on his tears. “Come back baby,” he whispers to the fading image of his girl.
Also listen to If You Ever Come Back, by The Script, while reading this pretty please?
Now they say I'm wasting my time
'Cause you're never comin home
But they used to say the world was flat but how wrong was that now.
~If You Ever Come Back, The Script
Harry/ Louis/ Zayn/ Harry
Harry groans as the bright sun rays hit his face. His hand drops with a thump on the empty side of the bed, his eyes flutter open, as he looks around the room thinking Lexi would be standing above him, staring at her with that amused expression.
Three months had passed but it still felt like being hit by a ton of bricks every day when he didn’t find his so-called Angel by his side in the morning. He winces at the sudden pain in his head. Last night’s hangover.
His bedroom door opens with a click. Harry turns away from the door, as usual not in a mood to face Eleanor or any of his mates.
“Harry.”
Harry doesn’t respond.
“Please Haz, just try to forget about it,” Harry’s fists clench at his sides. As a cold glare is fixed upon the boy who is standing at the door.
“It’s been three months, mate. Media and fans are starting to think that we are falling apart.”
“We are, though. Aren’t we?” Harry smirks, enjoying the way Liam’s nose flares in anger. Liam’s brown eyes blaze in outrage. While Harry provokes him with the amused smirk on his face, which keeps on growing.
Liam turns around his footsteps stomping across the hardwood floor. As Harry lays back with a satisfied sigh. His lips are shaped in an evil grin, until his gaze falls on the frame that rests by his bedside. He grabs it by the vintage silver frame, and looks at the way her eyes are a beautiful blue-gray shade, shining with pure innocence and truth, and no matter how many times he tells himself that’s not the emotion in her eyes. His heart believes that those gray eyes, with flecks of gold, are shining with nothing other than true love.
He raises his hand to smash the picture against the wall, but his hand stops abruptly, and he gently drops the frame on the cushioned bed. He runs a hand through his hair, inwardly yelling at himself for still loving her more, than his life.
Louis who was silently watching this act, by the door, paces towards Harry’s bed and sits by his side.
“Haz,” he croaks. Harry closes his eyes for a moment before meeting Louis’s blue ones.
“Yeah?” he asks, he couldn’t give Louis the cold treatment he had been giving the other lads. His swollen eyes, and ruffled hair, proved that Louis hadn’t been doing any better than Harry himself.
“I’m sorry,” he whispers playing with his fingers on his lap.
Harry’s head snaps up, “What?!” he asks bewildered.
“I...Lexi, it’s my fault. All this time I thought you would be the one to break her heart,” Louis laughs humorlessly, “I never could’ve imagined it would be the other way around. Like father, like daughter, though. Right?” Louis speaks hoarsely. Harry stares at him shocked, he had never known Louis to hate somebody, now listening to those bitter words for his own sister told him how much Lexi’s leaving had affected Louis. “I truly can’t believe she is my sister,” Louis adds truthfully while his heart hurts at the thought of it.
“Lou. You’re trying to make me feel better,” it was meant to be question but it came out a fact. Harry laughed sadly at his best mate. “No matter how much you blame her, man. No matter how much I blame her. I can’t stop loving her, no matter how hard I try.” He says patting Louis’s back. “And I know you can’t either. It’s just a facade we are both keeping, pretending to hate her while we both will still readily lay our lives for her. Maybe one day we will...hate her, even though that just seems too unreal, but then maybe one day she’ll come back too.” Harry stares out the window, “right now we’re pretending we hate her more than anyone, but if she comes we’ll be the first ones to embrace her.” Harry shakes his head sadly.
Louis stares at Harry in shock, he had never imagined anyone could love someone so much. “You really loved her, didn’t you?” Louis asks
“Love. Love her. And did you doubt such a simple fact?” Harry asks a sad smile on his lips.
Louis swallows, opening his mouth to provide some kind of comfort. But Zayn steps into the room, with a grim expression.
“I’ve had enough shit from both of you. None of us can get over it, okay? I’m not saying it’s ever going to go away. We’ll never stop missing her. Even though she is the reason for all of this. But we can at least try to move past it. Let me remind you we are in a band called One Direction. We are best mates, and we had a life before Alexis came in the picture.” Zayn said stiffly.
Harry stares shockingly at Zayn, he never talked much. “Now get up we have rehearsals today!” Harry and Louis nod. Harry like a scolded-kid walks into his bathroom. While Louis walks out of Harry’s room, to his own.
Zayn sighs and goes to the living-room, flinging himself on the couch. With his head in his hands, he takes calming breaths. Perrie walks behind him rubbing soothing circles on his back. Zayn smiles lightly. No matter what Lexi did, he was happy that she said that Zayn and Perrie should carry on with their wedding. And despite everything he was selfishly happy for that.
Harry
Harry pulls a sheet of paper out of the stack that sat on the table. After debating on whether he should do this or not, he walks into the living room where the rest of the band was seated. They all got up silently, as Harry walks into the room, ready to leave for the studio.
“No,” Harry speaks up, “I...umm have something to show you,” he says.
The four heads snap in his direction, as he bites on his lip . Three months since he hadn’t talked to any of them directly.
“uh--I,” he hands the sheets of paper to Liam.
After skimming through the sheets, Liam stares at Harry in awe. Louis, Zayn and Niall shuffle closer trying to catch a glimpse of what was on there.
In Harry’s scrawny cursive. A few lines were scribbled with lots of scratches and doodling. Louis catches one of the lines on the paper, his breathing hitches as his eyes travel to see Harry’s face.
She told me in the morning she don’t feel the same about us in the bones, it seems to me that when I die these worlds will be written on my stone.
“Haz--” Louis starts.
“Don’t!” Harry speaks up, “it’s just an opinion. Say yes or no. Not how sorry you are. I’ve heard enough of that,” he snapped.
“It’s...amazing, Harry,” Niall says.
“Thanks,” Harry replies coolly before walking out the door.
The other lads sigh, then without saying another word follow him.
After hours of practice and recording the lads return to their flats. Harry as usual doesn't say a word and silently goes back to his room he lays back on his bed, and closes his eyes happy for the day to be over.
Like every other night. He reaches for the folded note in his jacket
Harry,
I love you. I love you so much that it hurts. And I hope you understand that I'm doing this for you for us. As painful as it may be, sometimes you are meant to fall in love with someone but not meant to be with them. And unfortunately so, that is our story. This was the final chapter of our story and I wouldn't want to change anything that happened between us, because to me it was worth it. Every second I spend with you, everything we did. Most of all loving you. And I know I’ll never stop. This is the hardest thing I’ve done in my life. Please don’t try to find me, because if you do I’ll come back, and I can’t do that. I’ll never be able to forgive myself.
Like every other girl, I won’t tell you to find another girl who will love you more than me, because Haz, I love you more than anybody has loved another person. But I hope you find someone, who won’t hurt you as much as I did. Don’t hate me please, I can’t bear the thought of that, it’s worse than dying. You are the best boyfriend, the best best friend, the best thing that has ever happened to me, and will ever happen. And hopefully I’m worth something to you too. Because you are everything to me.
Tell Perrie and Zayn I’m sorry for ditching their wedding on the last day, but promise me that you’ll take care that they go ahead with the wedding, because I know how much they love each other. I can’t imagine how disappointed Louis would be in me, tell him I love him, a lot. He is the best brother anyone could ask for. I know Eleanor will take of him, but look over them for me, okay? Niall, Dani and Liam. Tell everybody I’m sorry. You are the only family I’ve known and thank you so much for everything. And I can’t describe how sorry I am for doing this.
Baby, no matter what just don’t forget about me. Don’t forget about us. That’s the worst thing that can happen. You still are my missing puzzle piece the one person that fits perfectly with me. And baby, I’m forever yours. But I don’t think I have any right to call you mine anymore.
And you know how bad I am with words. No words can describe the remorse I feel at this moment. I’m sorry.
Love,
Your Angel
P.S. I love you, forever and always.
Harry’s tears stain the paper, he hastily shoves it in his back pocket. He closes his eyes, her beautiful face opens up in his thoughts.
“How can I ever hate you? How will I ever forget about you? How will I move on? How can I even take a breath without the thought of you? How Angel, how? Just tell me how this won’t hurt. Come back baby, I won’t get through another day, otherwise. I need you.” Harry chokes on his tears. “Come back baby,” he whispers to the fading image of his girl.
Notes
Hiya lovelies sorry for not updating for so long. Like a really, really long time. Thank u for being patient. School has just been very busy, and I had really aimed for a perfect 4.0 GPA for this quarter and I only got a 3.83 which makes me really sad. So I'm s'posed to study real hard this quarter so I can average my final grade. But that is definitely none of your concern. So lets get to the point
I read a few comments (I mean I read all of them) but I figured that there are some confusions. So I'm gonna clear them.
1. Harry does not remember what happened in the alleyway. He doesn't even remember that Scott was in the picture, because he had a short term memory loss. The memories may or may not come back. So he has no idea why Lexi left.
2. Taylor knows that Alessia is Lexi, 'cause remember the end of the prologue she tells Taylor to call her Alessia Cowell . But she is not telling Harry or Louis about Lexi because Lexi promised Taylor that she would tell the boys themselves, even though she had her fingers crossed (Also Prologue).
I guess that's it, but leave any questions you have in the comments. Also, how many of you thought the letter was emotional?! :'( And how many of you think Harry is being a dick? Or do you prefer the dark and gloomy Harry better?
Comment, Vote and Subscribe, and stay beautiful!! Luv y'all--xxx
Hey love! I absolutely LOVE this story. First and sequel included! I've read this whole story in one day and now there is no update! I would love if you would add a chapter because this is amazing! Please, please continue! If people are telling you this story sucks, DON'T LISTEN! You have tons of fans who want to know what comes next. I understand if school is also a part of this, I've got school too. I'm willing to wait for this amazing story!!
11/19/20