Veronicas POV
I left Nialls house shortly after and decided to go for a walk in the park before heading home, it had become a lot colder than it was this morning and I was grateful for my, well actually it was Liams, Jumper. I was grateful the park wasnt busy, it meant I could sit by the duck pond and clear my head in peace.
My head was still spinning from the fact Liam kissed me, I hadn't really had a chance to notice how it felt because I pushed him away, but I wish I had. I mean I don't like him like that but I want to know what I would've done if I wasn't in a relationship. And then there was Niall, there was still so much we didn't know about each other, but every time I saw him I couldn't help but fall for him just that little bit more, He made me laugh, he made me feel happy but yet at the same time he had a habit of hurting me without even realizing, and the harder I fall the harder its going to become for me to recover. I can't believe I played guitar in front of him, I didn't think about that one I just did it, I haven't played since my cousin died last year. I played at his funeral and I just hadn't been able to touch one since but someone in his room with him I didn't feel sad about it, it was almost like I forgot how much pain it causes me to play. As for Michael well, as far as I know he's still doing drugs and I know its because he misses our cousin but I just don't know how to get him to stop, My mum has barely spoken to either of us since she got back and she needed to help Mikey at the very least, but then funnily enough she hadn't even mentioned my dad since she'd been home and he hadn't been in contact either, they were always so close I'd hate it if they weren't anymore. I feel as though my world is falling apart when in fact it's actually coming together and I can't make any sense out of it.
'Woah smithy, why are you crying?' I looked up to see Louis sitting beside me, I'd missed his nickname for me and I instantly began to hate myself for not speaking to him in so long, I really had missed him.
'Hey Lou Lou' I greeted sniffling, I hadn't even realised I was crying
'what's up duck?' he asked
'everything Lou' I mumbled
'Tell uncle Lou all about it' He spoke softly as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders, I began to tell him everything I'd been thinking about just moments ago, and as I reached the end of my explanation I felt a fresh set of tears begin to fall.
'and I take it nobody else knows this right?' Lou asked his voice full of concern
'How can I tell anyone Lou, it involves everyone I care about' I sighed
'good point, so what can I do to cheer you up?' he asked grinning
'I'd kill for a hot chocolate right now' I replied grinning back and he laughed, he knew exactly what I meant by that
'lets go then, my mums missed you, ya know' he said as we walked back to his house
'I've missed her too' I replied
'and what about me, did you miss me ?' he asked grinning
'pft like I'd miss you' I spoke sticking my tongue out at him
'ouch' he said clutching a hand to his chest mocking hurt
'of course I've missed you LouLou' I sang
'I'm glad' he grinned as we walked up his pathway, he unlocked his front door and we stepped inside
'there you are Lou' his Mum shouted walking into the hall
'my goodness Veronica, you look so grown up all of a sudden' she gushed pulling me in for a hug, I loved Lou's mum sometimes more than my own mother
'Johannah it's good to see you again' I mumbled into her chest
'you too dear, c'mon love lets have a nice hot chocolate, you look like you need it' she spoke in a knowing tone, she knew me so well, she could always tell when I was upset and she'd make me one of her infamous hot chocolates and sit there whilst I told her why. I felt at home in Lou's house much like me and Liam we'd been friends since we were young and we'd always hang out together, but after my cousins funeral we drifted quite a bit and spoke much less and I'd missed him and his family.
So after settling down with a drink a some biscuits I once again spoke my troubles and both Lou and his Mum listened only this time I didn't cry quite so much.
'Sweetie I know this last year has been tough on your family, but I know your parents and they will be just fine, they always are and secondly your brother will snap out it, he just needs to know you love him no matter what when he needs it and thirdly a little piece of advice my mother told me when it comes to relationships, whatever will be, will be and you'll figure out what needs to be when the time is right but for now you're young so get out there and enjoy the last of your teenage years because they don't last forever' she spoke as she pulled my in for another hug.
'Thankyou' I mumbled as I stood to leave, It was getting late and I needed to get home
'anytime dear, and please don't be a stranger you're welcome anytime' she smiled at me
'I'll walk you home yeah?' Lou suggested
'cheers Lou'
We walked back to mine making idle conversation and the last year of our lives and we both established by the time we reached my front door that we'd missed spending time together.
'take care of yourself Smithy and stay strong okay things will sort themselves out' He whispered into my ear as he hugged me
'Bye Lou Lou' I called as he left and I headed inside.
'SCOORRREEEE' Michael yelled as he ran down the hallway and jumped at me
'get off Mikey' I laughed
'oh hey Ron' Harry called from the doorway
'Hey Harold, how was your date with Lily this morning?' I asked grinning
'Yeah t'was good' he looked as if he was blushing a little
'are you blushing harold?' I asked poking his cheek
'get lost Ron' he chuckled
'knew it, I'm off to bed, keep the noise down would ya' I cheered from the hall, I climbed into my bed feeling a lot happier than earlier and I was hopeful that maybe just maybe things would be okay.

Notes

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