Forbidden
Chapter 13
Veronica's POV
'I've made up my mind, meet me at the beach in 30?, Ronnie x' I got my self dressed and ready to go break the news http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=99837024.
'Sure thing :) x'
I breathed out a nervous sigh before heading off to the beach.
I arrived and he was already waiting for me by the pier, and I suddenly began to feel way more nervous than I've been before.
'Hey Niall' he spun round when he heard me and he looked just as nervous as I felt.
'Hey Ronnie' Oh god he's looking cute, this is going to be harder than I originally planned.
'So I uh, I decided on an answer to your question' he just hummed
'look Niall I'm sorry but I can't' I managed to choke out and sadness filled his eyes
'what, w-why ?' He asked
'I just can't'
'but why, you must have a reason right?' he was definitely upsetright now, but then again so was I.
'I have so much happening right now, and I can't risk getting hurt, not again Niall'
'But I already promised you that I wouldn't hurt you again, not if I can help it' he mumbled
'I know but I can't risk that, not with everything else that's happening right now'
'Like what Ron, because I don't see what's stopping you other than your ability to admit the fact you're scared to fall for me' he near shouted
'I.... No it's not that Niall, I'm just not ready for this for us yet, I feel like I barely know you and then there's my brother who's slowly going off the rails and I'm just...' I couldn't finish that sentence before I broke down in tears, the worst part was he just pulled me into his arms. I didn't think I could feel any worse until he did that, I've never felt more confused in all my life. I wanted this so badly but he was right I was scared, I can't risk getting hurt again it was bad enough the first time.
'Niall I'm sorry but I just can't' I spluttered out through my tears, which seemed to be falling harder than before.
'I know, just shhh for now, It's not important baby' I don't know how long I stood there with him just holding me, but somehow I sensed I needed to pull away.
'I should get home' I mumbled
'let me walk you?' I just nodded at his offer, I didn't have the energy to speak, we walked to back to my road in complete silence, and it was making me feel uncomfortable.
Nialls POV
The walk back to Ronnie's was so quiet, and I hated it but I didn't know what else to say, I was hurt that she'd said no yet I understood, But I wasn't going to give up on her that easily.
'Well this is me' she mumbled softly, I didn't speak I just stood there staring into her deep brown eyes. My eyes skimmed down to her lips and I had to fight the urge to kiss her and never stop.
'Look I should go' she spoke dragging me from my thoughts, I leant forward and kissed her on the forehead
'Bye Ron' I said, it was barely a whisper, she gave me a sad smile before turning to head to walk to her house.
I dragged myself home and stumbled into bed, thoughts of Ronnie came into my head, the way she laughs, the way she always smells like vanilla. She's beautiful, and I'm not going to give up on us just yet.
'I've made up my mind, meet me at the beach in 30?, Ronnie x' I got my self dressed and ready to go break the news http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=99837024.
'Sure thing :) x'
I breathed out a nervous sigh before heading off to the beach.
I arrived and he was already waiting for me by the pier, and I suddenly began to feel way more nervous than I've been before.
'Hey Niall' he spun round when he heard me and he looked just as nervous as I felt.
'Hey Ronnie' Oh god he's looking cute, this is going to be harder than I originally planned.
'So I uh, I decided on an answer to your question' he just hummed
'look Niall I'm sorry but I can't' I managed to choke out and sadness filled his eyes
'what, w-why ?' He asked
'I just can't'
'but why, you must have a reason right?' he was definitely upsetright now, but then again so was I.
'I have so much happening right now, and I can't risk getting hurt, not again Niall'
'But I already promised you that I wouldn't hurt you again, not if I can help it' he mumbled
'I know but I can't risk that, not with everything else that's happening right now'
'Like what Ron, because I don't see what's stopping you other than your ability to admit the fact you're scared to fall for me' he near shouted
'I.... No it's not that Niall, I'm just not ready for this for us yet, I feel like I barely know you and then there's my brother who's slowly going off the rails and I'm just...' I couldn't finish that sentence before I broke down in tears, the worst part was he just pulled me into his arms. I didn't think I could feel any worse until he did that, I've never felt more confused in all my life. I wanted this so badly but he was right I was scared, I can't risk getting hurt again it was bad enough the first time.
'Niall I'm sorry but I just can't' I spluttered out through my tears, which seemed to be falling harder than before.
'I know, just shhh for now, It's not important baby' I don't know how long I stood there with him just holding me, but somehow I sensed I needed to pull away.
'I should get home' I mumbled
'let me walk you?' I just nodded at his offer, I didn't have the energy to speak, we walked to back to my road in complete silence, and it was making me feel uncomfortable.
Nialls POV
The walk back to Ronnie's was so quiet, and I hated it but I didn't know what else to say, I was hurt that she'd said no yet I understood, But I wasn't going to give up on her that easily.
'Well this is me' she mumbled softly, I didn't speak I just stood there staring into her deep brown eyes. My eyes skimmed down to her lips and I had to fight the urge to kiss her and never stop.
'Look I should go' she spoke dragging me from my thoughts, I leant forward and kissed her on the forehead
'Bye Ron' I said, it was barely a whisper, she gave me a sad smile before turning to head to walk to her house.
I dragged myself home and stumbled into bed, thoughts of Ronnie came into my head, the way she laughs, the way she always smells like vanilla. She's beautiful, and I'm not going to give up on us just yet.
The media never focuses on the other boys, just Harry, the other boys must hate not getting all the same attention
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