
Baby Styles <3
Here Goes Nothing.
Wow, I hate myself right about now. I cannot believe I gave him my number! We finish our drinks and go back to my house. Dani and I sit down on the couch, Aubree on my lap playing with my beanie. "So, what are you going to do?" Dani asks, facing me on the couch. "I don't know. What do you think I should do?" I say, messing with Aubree's curls. "What I think?" she says, i nod. "Well, I think you should tell him why you left. Just leave the Aubree part out. If you want too, but he needs to know he has a daughter." she says. "I know, but honestly, I don't want her in the spotlight. You know how horrible it'll be for him? The tabloids would destroy his career. I can see it now, 'Harry Styles Left His Daughter For Fame!' " I say, setting Aubree in her bouncy seat. "But, that isn't true, you left him." she says, when I sit back down. "I know, but they don't know that. I can't let that happen to him." I say. "Yeah, but he needs answers, Ari." she says, "from what Niall told me, he was devastated when you left." she says. I know what I should do, for Harry, but that isn't what I want. I don't want his career ruined because he has Aubree. I know, if I told him, he'd drop his career and take care of her, and even me. But what if I don't want that? I don't know how much Harry's changed, from the tabloids he's turned into a pretty wild kid, which I do not want around my daughter. I had that enough when I was younger with my mother. I mean, I loved Harry. I left him because I loved him so much and knew a kid would ruin his career as it just started. This was his dream, to become a singer, and I thought he deserved that. I know, Aubree deserves a daddy in her life, but I can play both parts, I have for the past fifteen months. I press my palms into my eyes to keep from crying. I feel Dani's arms wrap around me. "I know this is hard, but just talk to him. See how he is, if he's partying and such, then don't even think twice about it. But if not, maybe he's willing to take care of Aubree. It may not even cost his career. Call him, right now. Ask him to go to the park or something with you and I will watch Aubree. You two need to talk." she says, I only nod. I know this is what needs to be done. I pull out my phone and call the number he texted me from. "Hello?" a guy with a Irish accent says. "Is Harry there?" I ask, curiously. "Is this Ariana? The Ariana?" he says. "Uh. Yeah.. " I say. "No way. Cool!" he says, then there is awkward silence. "Is he there?" I say after about a minute. "Oh yeah, hang on" he says and I hear muffled words. "Hello?" Harry says. "Hey, I was wondering if you'd meet me at the park, I think we need to talk." I say, nervously. "Yeah, for sure. Can we maybe meet somewhere more private? Like my flat?" he says. "Uh, sure. Just us two though right?" I say. "Yeah, the guys were just leaving." he says, loudly, probably to tell the guys to leave. I grin. "okay. text me the directions." I say. "Alright, see ya soon." he says and hangs up. I look over and see Daniella smiling at her phone, "You really like this Niall guy, don't you?" I say, she nods. "He's amazing, Ari. He makes me smile, through texting. He says the sweetest things. I think he may be the one." she says, with a dreamy look in her eyes. "Woah. Slow down, horn dog. You just meant." I say, putting my sandals on after he texted me directions. "Ugh. I know." she says, "Have fun!" she says with a wink. I roll my eyes and kiss Aubree's head, "Mommy will be back. I love you, babydoll." I say and she smiles at me, "Luw yew" she says and I walk out and get into my car. I pull up outside Harry's flat fifteen minutes later. "Here goes nothing." I say to myself stepping out of my car.
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1/21/15