
This is Me
Chapter Two
I parked the car under the thick canopy of leaves. I looked at the dashboard and felt, well... nothing. I felt numb. I couldn't cry, laugh, smile, frown, I was just indifferent. I climbed out of the car and opened the trunk, searching my suitcase for the pill bottles.
"Thank lord for the many different medications that be combined into an extremely lethal dose." I took all fifteen bottles into my hands and closed the trunk, getting back in the car. It's so much warmer in the car. Not that it would mater for much longer.
"And thank Baby Jesus Christ for the brains to memorize those combinations." I sorted out the right mixture.
"Also, I'd like to dedicate this magic trick to my parents. Mom, dad, I'm sorry I was never good enough." I knocked back three pills at a time, till all the bottles were empty.
"Oh yeah, mom, thanks for paying for those pills." I laughed bitterly, my limbs feeling like lead.I climbed back out of the car, trudging to the edge of the cliff like outcropping. The white waves crashed against the rock, mist spraying up and hitting me. The cold wind and water began to feel like knives cutting into me.
As my body began to shut down, I stepped closer to the edge. No one's coming to stop me. My heart beat spaced out, stopping and starting erratically My body stopped responding, and as a last effort, I pushed myself over the edge. Water, wind, air. My thoughts were scattered as I fell head first into the icy doom. My eyes closed, and I quit fighting the darkness that was creeping into my veins. I felt one thing now, Death.
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