Kristy P.o.v

i layed in my room all night crying reading some messages on my phone from my nephew he was depressed i knew he was i should of stopped it i should never let my parents send me out here!!

the last conversation i read made me cry the most but at the same time send chills up my spine

text messages

Felipe: hey kris..?

Kristy: sup filly

Felipe: i love you aunty
Kristy: i love you too nephew whats wrong??
Felipe: nothing i just wanted to let you know i love you and thank you for always being there for me and remember no matter how far we are from each other im always going to be there for you no matter what happens in life im here for you
Kristy: ill be there for you too nephew no matter what
Felipe: thank you for everything
Kristy : no problem family first member that when can you visit

he never text back i thought he was busy with work and it slipped his mind
i finally cried myself asleep the blood dried from the cuts on my wrist i woke up to a cloudy day it was raining i knew it was going to rain cause i believe when some one passes away and it rains its their tears falling from heavin.

i laid in my bed all day i didn't go too school at all i just didn't have the energy..

i finally got up while angel was at school i went to the liquor store i got me 3 bottles of vodka and went home i began to drink every memory of my nephew that came up i took a shot for 2 weeks i didn't go to school Angelina tried to stop my drinking but she gave up she knew i wont stop i was depressed and she knew when i get depressed its a deep depression i know shes worried about me but the lost of my nephew broke me down i couldn't help it but think about if i was there none of it would happened he wouldn't have done what he did he wouldn't have bought that gun nothing i could of saved him but when he needed me the most i wasn't there the liquor takes the pain away i drank some more as i thought about it all..

Niall POV
i haven't seen kristy since the first day she started i wonder where she been at??
i decided to ask her cousin angel she was hanging out with perrie when i found her.

Niall : angel where your cousin been at? here eyes got a sad look in them i could of sworn she whispered under her breath i lost her..

Angel: shes at home her nephew passed away three weeks ago shes taking it pretty dam hard though she don't come out her room she sleeps all day

Niall: can i go see her maby she just needs a friend whos not family you know too talk too

Angels Pov

niall asking about kristy ripped my heart out because she isn't who i use to know these past 3 weeks she seems to get worse she doesn't smile she doesn't even laugh any more shes always mad she hasn't been sober since the day she found out about felipe i understand she had some problems prior to that but she doesn't need to be depressed i quietly whispered that i lost her not physically but mentally i guess when he asked if he could see her i froze maby he could get through to her since i cant but kristy isn't very nice to guys since she kind of scared of them but we could try
Angel: yeah you could try if she comes out of her room but im warning you she isn't the same since you first met her even though you just met her a day i just want you to know that when you see her its not the real her ok..

Niall : okay? he said with a confused look on his face ill meet you after school at your locker then

i just nodded and me and perrie walked off.


Niall POV
angels words rang through my head what did she mean its not the real her? i don't know what she was talking about the final bell rang i ran to angels locker she was waiting for me we left the school i don't know why i just wanted see kristy like something was drawing me to her i only met her once but i was worried about her. we pulled up to there house it was nice once we got in angel yelled for her but she didn't answer angel said she was upstairs her room was to the left

i walked up stairs the door it was shut i heard crying i knocked on the door i didn't expect her to open the door but i heard things falling over and then it opened her beautiful eyes were glossy she looked at me i could tell she was drinking i could smell the liquor

Kristy: niall?
Niall: umm hey kris i just wanted to see how you were holding up angel told me about your nephew im very sorry for your loss.

Kristy eyes began to water she tried to hold the tears in i could tell
Kristy: do you wanna come in? she said im surprise she wasn't slurring her words i went into the room i saw about 20 empty liquor bottles.

we sat her bed for a moment in silence i could tell she was hurting i looked at her while she kept her head down

Kristy : niall why do you care if im doing ok you just met me
Niall: because im your friend that's why
Kristy : have you ever felt alone in life?
i was shocked by her question i felt the pain and loneliness in her voice before i could answer she went on have you ever felt like no one in your life understood what you feel like how you could be surrounded by so many but still feel so alone in your life no matter how hard you cover it up your hurting?
i could tell she was spilling out her feelings to me it must be the liquor
i took a deep breath kristy life isn't easy i could tell you know that but you got to remember that even though bad things happen theres always going to be good things in life it may not seem like it now but there is going to be better days.

there was a awkward silence she began to speak again this time she wasn't fighting back the tears

i could of stopped it niall if i was their i could of stopped him all i had to do was be there for my nephew but i wasn't she was crying her eyes out i didn't know what to do i took her in my arms tightly and held her close i didn't know what to tell her except that it was not her fault her tears were wetting my tshirt before i knew it she had cried her self asleep i notice when i laid her down the cuts on her arms they were new cause of the dry blood i tried to put her down on the bed but when i was about to take her arms from around my neck they gripped tighter i laid down with her holding onto me on my side she looked like a angel sleeping beautiful and innocent i didn't like her feeling her or alone in this world

next morning

Kristys pov
i woke up to some one breathing on my neck it sent chills down my spine i jumped up and look to my side and saw niall next to me i must of fell asleep i was embarrassed because i realize i confessed my feelings about the world to this guy i didn't even know and now im waking up to him in my bed! with his arms around me i tried to get up but his arms tighten up around me normally my anxiety would build up but for some reason it wasn't i wasn't scared of niall i looked at him and he was adorable when he was sleeping he looked a baby it was cute but i just don't know how im going to look him in the face after everything told him last night he probably thinks i should be in the mental hospital because of my depression... i felt movement next to me good morning a raspy voice said from the other side of me..

i jumped a little not facing him good morning i mumbled

kristy can i ask you something he asked ...


what is niall going to ask??