Liam’s POV

I stepped inside Danielle’s flat and she gave me a sweet smile. I felt the familiar bubbly feeling in my stomach- I always did every time she smiled so beautifully.

“Why do we sit down?” She suggests. I nod and follow her to the couch in the same room and sit beside her.

“Liam, I know we’ve been talking all week… And honestly, I’ve missed talking to you. I thought I would be fine with not talking to you but I’m not.”

“I missed you a lot Dani, I really did,” I tell her also.

She smiles sadly and pulls me into a hug.

It was strange. This hug was affectionate but not as in a love sort of way, more of a friendly one.

I hugged her tighter and wished that we could stay like this.

Why had things changed between us? Why weren’t we strong enough to work things out?

Why did I lose someone I care about?

But then I remembered something.

She was the one who broke up with me. She didn’t feel the spark anymore. She gave up on us.

At first I thought maybe it was for the best but somehow the aching feeling grew each day that I knew Danielle wasn’t mine anymore, the girl who I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with.

I wanted to believe that she wanted to also just focus on her career but then I think maybe there might have been someone else in her life.

“What went wrong Dani?” I whisper to her. She held me tightly as I let my chin rest on her shoulder. I heard her sniffle and breathe in slowly.

“We aren’t right for each other Liam,” she told me sadly. I closed my eyes tightly and tried to not disagree.

“But I love you,” I whisper and I can feel her body shake lightly. I knew she was crying.

“I love you too… It’s just that I’m not in love with you anymore Liam.” She finally said the words I never wanted to hear in my life.

She had fallen out of love with me.

I wanted to ask how it even happened but I knew it’s something you can’t really understand even if it were explained.

“I care so much for you Liam,” she continues. “I realize that even if we can’t be together, I still want you in my life. You have made a huge impact in my life and I don’t think I can truly ever thank you for everything you’ve done for me. I thought all boys were the same, that they hurt girls and leave them. In the end I was the one who hurt you, I broke your heart and I’m so, so, sorry for that. I know I’ve caused you so much pain, I know you haven’t been the same. Please don’t change Liam. Please be the person I met, be the person who everyone adores and loves. You make so many people happy and it would hurt not only them but me if you weren’t the person who they fell in love with.”

Her words broke me. And so I broke down crying onto her shoulder. She rubbed my back and let me cry. I haven’t cried in a while and felt good to let it out.

After crying for a good ten minutes, I calmed down and let her sooth me with kind words, I never felt so much better.

“I’m sorry if you ever felt that I neglected our relationship,” my voice comes out shaky.

“No, I never felt that way. I know that you hardly have free time when you were on tour and when you did, I knew you needed rest. I know that you called and texted me whenever you could. I admit that I didn’t ever imagine that my boyfriend was going to be a part of the biggest boy band in the world but I knew things would change somehow, I knew what was coming Liam. I knew there would be hate, I knew there would be times when I would wish you could be with me, I knew Liam.”

“I’m still sorry that fans made you feel like you weren’t good enough for me. You are beautiful and wonderful,” I tell her truthfully.

She chuckles softly. “Thank you Liam.”

We finally pull apart and I can see her eyes are red and I’m sure mine are like the same.

She really is a special girl.

“I want to be your friend Liam,” she tells me slowly and softly.

She wants to be my friend.

Even though my heart didn’t want to let her go, my head told me it was time that I did.

It’s time to move on.

And it seems to help more now because we talked about what was hurting the most for me.

“For a while, I thought not having you as my girlfriend was going to kill me. Except now I think it was never that. I think the thought of not having you in my life is what killed me. That caused me to lose myself. I never had someone almost kick me out of their life before. It hurt, it really did. I don’t think it was ever really about you not loving me back but it was about not wanting me in your life. You’ve giving me so many memories, so many that I will never forget. I want to make more memories with this friendship that we want together now. I want to be your friend as well,” I say with a small smile.

Tears form in her eyes as she nods in response.

I actually felt pretty good now. I felt almost like I could smile for real and not fake it.

“I hope you find a girl someday that will make you happy, someone who will be there for you and make you smile every day,” Danielle says as she takes a hold of my hand and gives it a soft squeeze for support.

When she said this, for some reason I immediately thought of Mia.

She has been there for me since we met. She understood the pain I felt. She has always been kind to me- she always has me smiling all the time.

A frown formed on face as I started to regret being a jerk to her this entire week. I was so hung up on thinking Danielle and I were going to get back together and I would let go Mia that I ended up pushing her away. I never wanted her to thinking that I was only using her for her for my own pleasure and I’m sure it looks that way. I care deeply about Mia. I may have not shown it this week but I do. The thought of causing her pain just makes me want to punch myself.

I shouldn’t have lied to her about Sophia and should have told her I had been talking to Danielle.

I still can’t get the image of that hurt expression that was on her face. Sadly, I’ve seen this hurt expression on her face a few times already due to me being a jerk and complete ass.


Mia’s POV

I stepped off the train with my bags in my hands.

As soon as I realized I was really here, it brought back the good and bad memories.

I only left Cambridge because of Xavier.

My heart raced as soon as I thought of him.

I have no one to protect me if he finds out that I’m here. He may still be looking in London but who knows when he’ll come back here to Cambridge, he told me he still lives here. I must be careful though.

I’m here for one reason and one reason only, to see my family.

There’s a chance that they won’t forgive me, there is also a chance they will let me back into their lives.

I call for a cab and they the man takes me to the address that I believe my house is at. I never thought of what would happen if they moved to a different location so I prayed that they were still there.

As the cab driver pulled up to the familiar street that I once remember, he stopped in front of the house that held so many memories. I had the urge to cry but I held it in.

I paid the man then got my bags and got off the cab. My doubt of family moving was gone when I saw the silver minivan that my mother drove before. But I did not see my father’s truck.

I walked up the pathway and stood in front of the door.

This was it. I was finally here. Now it was up to my parents if they wanted to listen to me. I knocked on the door loudly and waited for someone to answer the door.

It felt like ages when it finally opened. I felt like the beating of my heart was about to burst from being excited and scared at the same time.

My mom opened the door and once she saw it was me, her eyes widen and he mouth fell open in shock. It looked like she wanted to say something but she couldn’t.

“Hi mom,” I said carefully. I didn’t even know if my mother wanted me to call her ‘mom’.

“W-what are you doing here?” She whispered in confusing.

“I-I, um, I came here because I wanted to apologize to you and dad. I also really, really have missed you guys so much,” I answer. Her blue eyes seem to be brighter than I remember.

“Oh,” she mumbles and looks down at her feet.

“Is dad here?” I ask trying to look past her.

“No, he’s visiting a friend. He won’t be back until a few more hours.”

“Oh.” I sigh and think about maybe coming back later. “I can come back later?”

“Mia… Are you here because you have nowhere to go or because you truly want to apologize for what you put this family through?” She asks me curiously.

“I’m not staying anywhere right now but that has nothing to do with why I’m here. I’m here because I’ve missed you, dad, and Helen. I-I thought I could be fine with not having you guys in my life but I can’t. I can’t do it. I hate being alone, it hurts too much…“ My voice cracks and tears sting in my eyes. I see tears forming in my mom’s eyes as well.

“Oh baby,” my mom cries and her arms crush me into a hug but I don’t mind. I’ve missed
being hugged by my mother. I drop my bags and hug her tight and we both cry. “We’ve missed you so much.”

“I’m sorry I messed everything up. I promise that I am no longer with that low life creep anymore. He ruined so much for me mom, I’m so sorry I never listened to you and dad.” I go on and cry.

My mom kisses the top of my head and combs her fingers through my hair just like when I was a child. It always calmed me down and made me feel like I wasn’t alone when I cried.

“Your father should hear what you have to say too Mia. You should stay until her comes home so we can all talk together,” my mom tells me.

I pull away so I can look up at her. “I don’t have to stay here mom, I can go to a hotel-“

“No ma’am, you are not going anywhere. If you leave, who knows if you will come back,” she wipes her tears away.

“I don’t want to go anywhere else mom,” I admit.

She smiles sadly and hugs me. “Come inside,” she gestures. She takes one of my bags and I follow her inside.

It smells like vanilla scented candles as soon as I step inside.

Mom puts my bag down and I do the same.

“Are you hungry? I was just about to start on dinner,” she says.

“Yeah I am bit starving,” I chuckle lightly and she smiles.

“Then it’s a good thing that I’m going to make my famous cornbread and chili.”

“I haven’t had that in forever!”

“Well then-” She gets interrupted by a loud girly voice.

“Mom, have you seen Kevin? I can’t find him anywhere!”

Footsteps emerge from the stairs until they come closer.

I gasp as I see the sight of my sister.

Helen looks at my mom and realizes someone else is here. She looks at me for a second and I become worried that she has forgotten about me, I’m wrong.

“Mia?” Helen asks in shock just like my mother was when she saw me as well. Her face lights up like a Christmas tree and she runs to me like a cheetah. I almost fall to the floor as I catch her in my arms. She sure isn’t the little eight year I once remembered- she’s now the tall and beautiful ten year old girl.

“Helen,” I squeal and hold her tight and spin her around she laughs.

“You’re here! You’re really here sissy! I missed so much! Where did you go Mia?”

“I’m sorry I left you Helen, I’m so sorry that I was mean to you before, I promise, I will never treat you that way again. I love you so much,” I clear my throat that seems to be tighten up.

“I love you too Mia,” she whispers and kisses my cheek.

I hear sniffling and Helen and I look at my mom and see her crying. “My two girls are together once again. This is just too much for me,” she explains. Helen jumps out of my arms and runs to my mom and hugs her.

“Mom, can Mia come see my room?” Helen asks her. My mom nods and Helen smiles. She runs back to me and takes my hand and pulls me toward the stairs. “Mommy and daddy redecorated my room because I’m ten years old now and I’m almost a grownup and I needed a big girls room, not a little girls room,” she tells me and I can’t help but chuckle at her response.

She pulls me to the room that I remember it to hers. Before we can step inside, she tells me to close my eyes. I do as I’m told as I feel her guide me inside to the room. After she counts on three, she tells me to open my eyes.

I still have a smile on my face, but the moment I open my eyes, I immediately frown.
Her room is hot pink, neon green, and lime green. She has a lot of her drawings on the walls but what caught me off guard was the many posters that covered most of her room.
One Direction posters.

And not only that, but she had the life size cutouts of all of the boys by her closet, all of them standing together.

“You like One Direction?” I ask hesitantly but try to remain calm.

“I love them! I dance to their music all the time! My favorite is Harry!” She says excitingly.

“That’s um, that’s cool,” I nod.

“Do you like them? Who’s your favorite?” She points to all the five cutouts.

My eyes land on the young looking boy who stole my heart and who also crushed into tiny pieces. He looks so innocent, so young and so cute.

“I like Liam,” I point to the cardboard Liam. My sister smiles and nods at my choice.

“I knew you were going to say him, sissy,” she giggles. I look at her questionably as she goes on. “You were looking at him the way mommy and daddy look at each other silly!”
I smile sadly and start to feel the aching in my chest.

“Too bad he doesn’t look at me that way,” I mumble but my sister doesn’t seem to hear it.

“What?” She asks.

“Nothing,” I shake my head and give her a weak smile. “How about we go downstairs and help mom with dinner?”

“Good idea! I’ll race ya!” Before I can respond my crazy sister takes off downstairs.
I look around my sister’s room a little longer and whip away the tears that I didn’t know that had fallen.

Even when I’m not thinking about him, I still see his face. I want to forget him, I need to. He doesn’t care about me, he never did.

I suddenly punched the cutout Liam in the face -out of anger and hurt- then silently cried.

Notes

It took 3 tries to finally update this chapter! It kept refreshing my page and I had to put up the chapter all over again until finally I got to submit the chapter! Blah!

Alright so what did you think of the chapter? I personally think this is one of my best chapters but maybe that's just what I think. Can't believe this story will be ending in just a few more chapters! :(

BUT I have published a new story called Keep Holding On its a Niall Horan fan-fiction! :)
So go check that if you want to read it!

I know you guys want me to update everyday on this story but I can't, that's why I always try to make my chapters long for you guys so I hope you understand? Love you all very much, will update when I can <3

- Amanda (Flightless_Bird)