- Two weeks later -

His thrusts became sloppy as he groaned loudly into my neck.

“Mia I’m going to…“ Liam didn’t continue to speak as he shuddered when his orgasm was reached and he released into the condom. I could feel the warmth inside me causing for me to also reach my high.

He pulled out of me and sighed deeply. Liam kisses my forehead surprisingly before getting off of me and the bed. He picks up his clothes and walks out of my room without another word. I get up when he’s gone and go take a shower in my bathroom.

The past two weeks have been hard but it’s also been better I suppose.

Liam decided it was best to stop being mad at Harry and invited him over last Tuesday so they could both apologize and so Liam could explain why he was so upset. I was worried he would tell Harry the truth to why he doesn’t want to share me. Though Liam never told me what he actually said to Harry, only saying he told Harry that it would be too weird to see both his best friends date. I felt like Liam wasn’t telling me everything he told Harry but I let it slide. When it was my turn to talk to Harry, it was awkward when were left alone to discuss everything.

So to sum it up, I told Harry I truly only wanted to be friends with him. It made me hate myself when he looked a bit down at my response. I quickly told him I did care about him but my heart was already falling for someone else. I thought he would have gotten mad but instead, his eyes widened and then he grinned like a fool. He immediately knew who I was talking about and I was scared about this, he actually knew I was talking about Liam. He didn’t ask me if it was Liam and just let it go- hopefully for good.

I asked him if he would be OK and if we could remain friends, of course, being the polite and nice person he is, he agreed and we hugged it out. He promised to only be my friend and that he would never want to drive Liam and me apart.

After that, Liam had joined us and the two began to discuss about Xavier. I guess they hadn’t thought about what they were going to do. Xavier knows what Harry looks like so there was no doubt that he would look for Harry and I. He also knows Liam’s name and I don’t know what he will do to get me back. Why can’t he just leave me alone? Was I really worth the time he spent in trying to look for me? Why was I needed so badly in Xavier’s monstrous life?

Liam and Harry both agreed to call their bodyguards and told them about the situation we were in. Harry was going to have someone follow him when he was out in public just in case he ever bumped into Xavier and Liam would have someone always watching the house down the block and we also have someone follow us both when we go out. I haven’t been out of the house though. Liam is still worried for my safety even if we have someone to protect us.

Everything seemed to be back to normal… Until this week.

Liam has also been distracted by something all week and I don’t know what’s going through his head.

Every day he seems to want to explore more than we usually did when he wants to have sex. At first though I loved it because it was exciting and thrilling to me and but it frightened me that he can be rough when he is a loving and sweet guy.

This past Monday, we were simply just watching a movie when he suddenly wanted to do something fun as he told me when he felt me under my clothes and told me to do the same to him causing us in the end to just go at it. Tuesday, he went out with Louis and Zayn and was gone all day. That evening he decided start sending me dirty text messages asking me if I had missed him and pretty much demanded that I take my clothes off and touch myself to pretend it was him touching me and in the end we were sexting each other while he was at a football game and I feel asleep hot and bothered. On Wednesday, we had shower sex for the first time, it was mind blowing really. On Thursday he snuck into my room at almost past midnight and seduced me when I was sleeping, I wasn’t scared because I knew it was him- I already know how he touches and kisses my body. On Friday, he wanted to have sex in the pool- which we did and I felt embarrassed but didn’t refuse his needs.

I don’t know what has caused Liam to be so daring and adventurous to explore new sexual things with me but I knew something was wrong. I want Liam to talk to me, to tell me what’s wrong but when I ask him he just tells me to drop it.

What’s also been upsetting me is that the moment we are done having sex, his mind seems to be somewhere else as he always just gets up and leaves. I don’t receive cuddles or kisses from him anymore and it hurts so much inside. The feeling of being used for only one thing is starting to attack my mind and heart

We do have our laughs, smiles, and moments but it sometimes feels like he’s forcing his smile at times.

My theory for the reason why he is acting the way he is, is because of Sophia. He still has not confronted me about that night. Is he planning on never telling me about this?

Yesterday (Saturday) for the first time all week, he didn’t want to have sex. I was relieved to be honest, I’ve been sore for a while and I think it’s time I need a day of resting.

Liam was on his phone for most of the day and then went out to meet up with some friends I didn’t know about at the night. He says they were going to go have dinner and then go bowling.

I’ve been quite emotional the past few days. My feelings for Liam have been getting stronger and it hurts more every day when he seems to push me away. I cry almost every night wishing my feelings for Liam will go away but they seem to stay.

I’m starting to realize that if I don’t push Liam into telling me what’s really wrong then I can’t help him. This will be a complete waste if I end up losing myself and Liam continues to be lost. He needs to get better- I promised I would help him.

Today is Sunday, and I thought I was going to give in and not have sex with Liam so I could talk about what’s going through his head but I was too weak when he came into my room early this morning shirtless and only in his boxers and almost begged for me to touch him.

Well now it’s time I really put my foot down and talk to him.

After my shower I changed into this..

When I’m done I go look for Liam. My first thought was that he would be in his room.

As I get to Liam’s door, it’s open. My eyes look within his room and I find him sitting on his bed- his eyes on his phone, he’s smiling and typing on it.

I knock on the door frame and watch as he looks up from his phone and looks at me. His smile drops instantly and I feel a knot form in my stomach.

“Hey,” I say.

“Hey,” he responds.

I hesitate a little bit before walking in and sit beside him on the bed.

He looks at me and raises his eyebrow, as if wondering what I wanted.

“Liam…” I begin to say but he speaks out.

“I kinda have to be somewhere in a little while Mia, do you think we can talk later?”

“I really want to speak to you though, it’s important,” I explain and watch as he sighs.

“Can’t it wait until later?”

I begin to feel hurt and frustrated. I swallow hard and stand up. “No. It can’t wait." I begin to explain. "Liam what is going on with you? You have been completely off this entire week. What’s wrong?” My voice comes out strong but then weak.

“Nothing is wrong,” he shrugs.

“Please! Tell me because I don’t think I can stand another day of being pushed away by you!” I nearly shout.

He rolls his eyes at me and stands up. “Look, don’t worry about it. Stop acting so clingy to me.”

Ouch. Clingy?

“Wow, I’m sorry I care about you a lot, I’m sorry that I’m worried,” I shake my head.

“What is there to be worried about?”

“How about the fact that you haven’t been yourself this week!”

“Look, I’m not dealing with this. I have to go,” he says stubbornly. He gets up from the bed and walks out of the room.

If he thinks I’m going to let him go then he is mistaken.

I chase after and stop him before he makes it almost to the stairs.

“No,” I stop him in his tracks and go in front of him. “I’m not letting you go until you tell me why you have been acting so differently.”

“Move Mia,” he glares at me.

“No,” I repeat.

“Mia if you don’t let me go then you will just regret it later,” he says sternly.

“Who are you? Where is the Liam that was fine last week? Where is the Liam that smiled and looked at me like you never wanted me to go? Why do you want to push me away when all I have done is been there for you like you were for me. What are you hiding from me? Please just tell me the truth, that’s all I’m asking for!” I say to him.

He looks disappointed and also mad.

“I am the same Liam!” He argues.

I shake my head and feel my face heating up.

“The real Liam Payne wouldn’t make me feel so, so... unwanted!” I choke. His hard face turns soft.

“If you don’t want my help anymore then fine, I won’t bother.” I move away from him but only to have his hands pull my body closer so that we’re chest to chest. He strokes my back and stares into my eyes.

“If I tell you… Don’t think lowly of me or be mad please.” He almost begs. I’m afraid of what he’s going to tell me but I’m still curious. Is he finally going to tell me about that night with Sophia that he lied to me about even when I knew it happened?

“What is it?” I ask hesitantly.

“Danielle called me last week and we’ve been…talking.” He says so low that I barely heard it.

Danielle… as in Liam’s ex-girlfriend- The one who basically broke him?

“What?” I ask in shock.


Liam’s POV

Her face instantly loses color and I’m afraid of this. What is going through her mind?

“Yeah, she um, she says she m-misses me.” I feel like I’m whispering now. Damn, I feel like I’m about to choke.

“Oh,” she blinks a couple of times and nods slowly. “What did you say to her?”

“I told her I missed her too,” I admit and she looks away from my eyes. I frown at her reaction; I was hoping she would be happy for me. “We’ve been talking, nothing too serious, just chatting I guess you can say. She asked me if I wanted to go out with her today, that’s where I’m going now…”

She pulls away from me so quickly that I didn’t have time to hold onto her tighter.

“So you were basically going to keep this from me?” Her voice cracks and I’m stunned by her sadness.

“What? No, well, yes but I don’t know where Danielle and I are going with this, I’ve been trying not to think about it a lot but it’s been hard so I’ve been distracting myself-“

“By using me.” She finishes and my heart nearly falls to the bottom of my stomach. “I was starting to feel that way, you know, feeling used, because it’s true. No wonder why you've seemed so distant toward me, you’re trying to push me away because if you get Danielle back, you'll tell me to leave. The less you feel for me, the easier it will be to let me go.”

I have to admit, her assumption was good and she’s only wrong about the first part but the rest is right.

If Danielle and I get back together… I know I have to let Mia go, even though I don’t want to, I’ll need to. But it’s not for sure that Danielle wants to be with me. If Dani wants to remain friends then I guess it wouldn’t be so bad but my heart still wants her.

“Mia, that’s not true,” I try to explain. “Don’t think I’m using you-“

“You’re using me for your own pleasure but what you really want in the end is Danielle, I’m not an idiot Liam.” She crosses her arms.

“You agreed to this Mia, you wanted to be my sex slave!” I finally snap. “You knew that I wasn’t the same for a reason and that was because of Danielle. She might come back into my life! Why aren’t you happy for me?”

“Because you lied to me!” She yells but I feel like there's more to the real reason why she's unhappy. “You also lied to me about Sophia! I know Liam!”

I gasp at her confession. Fuck my life. How does she know about Sophia?

“I was drunk when it happened,” I try to defend myself.

“Yeah, I know, you're very loud in the bedroom, especially when you were drunk,” she mumbles and my eyes widen. This can’t be happening. She couldn’t have heard us. What was she thinking?

That you are stupid and a dick for sleeping with someone else. My conscience says.

“If I would have known this was going to be too much for me then I wouldn’t have agreed to this!” She begins to tear up making me feel bad. “And what's confusing is that you told Sophia you loved her when you still love Danielle and while you're sleeping with me!”

I groan in frustrated and tug at my hair. “I never told Sophia I love her! Sleeping with her was a mistake. I love her as friend but not more than that! How did you know I told her I loved her anyway?” I question.

“I heard you two arguing…” She shrugs.

“Yeah well I don’t love her,” I argue.

My phone rings and I look at it and the name that flashes across the screen says Dani

“Mia, please we can talk about this later OK? I really need to leave now.” I was hoping she would understand but she just shakes her head and goes back down the hall.

I turn around and grab her hand. “I’m sorry, I didn’t want to lie, I didn’t want you to be upset about this. You know I care about you,” I say in a gentle voice, not wanting us to be mad at each other.

She snatches her hand away and turns to look at me.

Her lip trembles and the tears look so close to falling. All I want to do right now is hold her and promise to never lie again and to never mistreat her but something in me doesn’t do it.

“I don’t even know anymore,” she whispers and her eyes look so pale, so lonely, and so sad. Her answer sent a pain feeling through my chest, no, to my heart.

The sound of my phone continues to ring.

“Just go,” she says sadly.

She doesn’t give me another glance as her hand slips out of mine and she disappears to her room.

I snap out of my trance and answer the phone and head downstairs so I can get ready to leave.

Mia and I will be OK- everything will be fine, we can just talk everything over again later.


Mia’s POV

The moment I closed the door to my room, I broke down and slid down the door.

It’s over, I’m done, I can’t do this anymore.

Notes

What did you think about the chapter? I decided to add onto it but still left it hanging...oops!

Can you believe this was chapter 30?! It's been like 4 months since I started this story (I'm a slow updater sorry) and it means so much to me that you guys enjoy reading the story. Some of you asked if there will be a sequel to this story and the answer is NO there will not be one, sorry!

Love you all my beautiful readers, will update soon <3

- Amanda (Flightless_Bird)