It's weird sometimes...
Having the boys look at you all the time, girls throw dirty ones..

It's not fun being in the office, because..

'My Dress is too short!' or the familiar, 'Button up your shirt!'


Being a teacher.. A HIGHSCHOOL teacher. For students about to graduate... I get accused of being a slut too much. Which is why I can't be with Niall.. Or Liam..

Liam Liam Liam...
Niall Niall Niall...

Didn't you like that kiss DORTHY?!
My inner-self screamed.

I grabbed a fistfull of my hair, "NONONO!!"

But you did... Didn't you want him to bend you over your desk, and smack you with the ruler?
My inner-self teased.

"NONONO" I squirmed a bit, sitting on the edge of my bed.

It was mindless day-dreaming, and just thinking, but it's not funny anymore.

Don't you looovee him?!
My inner-self mocked.

"I..Can't..." I whispered, letting go of my hair.

It gets hard sometimes. They don't even know my name, and they're thinking about me coming on to them. Who knew 17 year old students could be so.. GOD FUCKING PASSIVE.

I'm not a MILF, SLUT, BITCH...Well maybe sometimes I'm a bitch, but I've NEVER done anything with a student. I'm not like that.. I can't be like that... I need to show the world who I am, I'm not... I can't.. I'm His Teacher.

JESUS DORTHY FIND SOMEONE YOUR AGE!!

I sat there disgusted at myself. Why would I even be considering this?

Oh, I don't know, because he makes you feel so passive, and you WANT him. Dorthy, the world doesn't care about you, they care about what you can give, when you're taken, the world will know you're not a slut.. They'll know you have the one person who you have sex with. Them and them only. And you can be passive all you want... They don't have to know..
My inner-self persuaded..

They Don't Have To Know....

"TAKEN BY A 17 YEAR OLD BOY?!" I mentally checked myself.

Dorthy you want him, and all of his glory, you don't have to come off as a slut. Harmless flirting. Baby-Steps...
My inner-self was basically annoyed.

"HE IS A BABY!" I whined.

But you're the one whining over him. Think about it, pretty soon, he's get you crawling, and begging, and-

"Stop Stop Stop.." I told myself curtly.

Fine.. You'll have to do this.. On your own... Baby-Steps, Mays..
My inner-self shut up.

I was truly alone. I've never felt so fucking ridiculous in my life. I feel so.. Perturbed..
I've felt passive before, maybe even a little submissive, but those stories are to be told, Half-Pass-Never. I grunted getting up off the bed, feeling my legs wobble as I tried to take steps across the room.

I got into the bathroom, and turned on the tap, splashing the hot water on my face, and feeling a slight buzz after the sting.
I'll have to tell Niall how I feel.. And Liam, I don't know about him yet. He's a nice kid, but he doesn't make me feel the same way Niall does..

It's weird sometimes...

Notes

WOAHA.
LATE NIGHT CHAPTERS BECAUSE I'VE HAD A FEW THINGS SWIMMING IN MY MIND.
MY FIRST DORTHY POV WOW.

AND SHE'S TALKING TO HERSELF WOW.
GR8 1ST IMPRESSION TO YOUR READERS AND FANS DORTHY!

WHAT DO YOU THINK SHE'LL TELL NIALL? WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO LOUIS? OR HARRY? OR LIAM? OR..
HOW WILL MY SCIENCE TEACHER LIKE MY PROJECT?!
SO MANY QUESTIONS!!
WHICH WILL BE ANSWERED 2MORROW!!
GUDNIGHT!