You can't always fix the broken
Is written on the wall - written with blood
I slowly open the door and head inside. There are papers,books and everything else in a total disaster.I walk further into the kitchen and I see bloodtrops on the floor and on the sink.
'Hello?' I whisper,hoping that noone is going to answer or kill me
I tiptoe to the bathroom and whoever was in here had obviously fun in making our house a mess.
The curtains are on the floor and water is running out of the bath.The whole floor is wet.
As I look into the bathtub I see clothes in there.They are bloodstained and as I look more intensely I notice that they are male clothes
Shock and fear take advantage of me and I start crying but then remember that it couldn't be Niall's clothes because he's out of the city what means he's out of danger.
I want to call the police and tell them that there were thiefs in our house,but for I don't know why I just can't.This is too much and I have that feeling that it is just the beginning.
It's all starting anew.My nightmares are starting again I can feel this.
I go to our bedroom and it seems as if it's the only room that isn't like a catastrophe.
I don't know actually.
I wasn't in the living room yet.So I go in there hoping that it is nothing to serious.
But what I see is nothing I ever imagined to see in my whole life
I stand there totally dumbstruck not knowing what to say,what to feel and what to do.
But then as I think about it all emotions come up.And I start screaming
'Not all again!' I yell at myself.
'Not again!' I scream,punching my fist against the wall.
Blood is covered everywhere on the floor and when I reach the livingroom I can't believe my eyes
You can't always fix the broken
Is written on the wall - written with blood
And exactly under the message is nothing else but Austin's head.
Austin,the one who tried to rape me.The one who responsible for Noemie's death
Who's responsible for my dad's death.Who wanted to make my life a living hell.
But then again he was the first person I thought I would love.
He was the one who took my virginity.If I wanted to accept it or not he was a part in my life once and I can't believe that he's dead.His head shown in my living room ,letting it look like a trophy under the scariest message I've ever received from a person that wants my death.
I sit down on the floor,picking out my cellphone and looking at it as I let the tears flow freely.
I just cry,because of the fact that I obviously don't deserve a happy ending.
I don't deserve to be near someone I love because they'll be hurt
The last time I was near someone,my mum died,Noemie my bestfriend died,my dad died,Sandra's got kidnapped and Niall had to suffer so much.
The most tearing up thing about Noemie's death is the fact that I could've prevented it.
I should've.She needed me but I wasn't there for her.She told me what happened and I didn't want to believe her.
Flashback
The music is blasting,everyone is dancing or having sex.I'm dancing with some stranger,some boy I know from school and he thinks I'm drunk.I am to be honest but I am not totally wasted.
I haven't seen neither Noemie nor Austin the whole night.I don't want to see Austin he cheated on me again with some bimbo and now it's time for revenge.As I think about it,I start grinding against the boy and I feel his erection as he pushes himself against my back.
I go wild man,grinding against the boy as if there's no way out.
Then they're starting playing Rude boy by Rihanna and I move my hips up and down,giving him a lap dance.
As the song ends I see Noemie sitting on a chair alone,her make up ruined and her lipstick smeared and I fight myself to her
'Hey what happened?' I ask her as I order a two tequilas for myself
'Jordan something happened' She says and I nod my head ,telling her to continue
'I got r-r-raped' She says and I look at her as if it was nothing special.
Of course it was,but the tequila makes me to feel no sympathy for anyone.
'Who?'
'Who what? ' She asks
'Who raped you?' I slur,the drinks shooting in my head
'Austin' She says and looks down
'Austin doesn't rape.' I say,clearly disinterested because it's not the first time someone said this
'He fucks and then leaves,but don't worry Noemie I can forgive you' I assure her and hug her
Flashback ends
The next day I heard what happened.I heard that he really raped her and several other girls and I heard that my bestfriend next to Sandra committed suicide.I should've known better. Why was I so stupid?Why was I so heartless.I will never forgive myself for what happened.I can't.
You know what the last thing she said to me was?
She said I love you
To me,the worst friend ever.
My decision is final.I do this for their best and I hope that they can forgive me one day
I quickly call the police and tell them what happened,pack my bags and leave the house,the city,the country.
The only thing left from me for Niall is a letter,telling him that I'll never stop loving him
'Hello?' I whisper,hoping that noone is going to answer or kill me
I tiptoe to the bathroom and whoever was in here had obviously fun in making our house a mess.
The curtains are on the floor and water is running out of the bath.The whole floor is wet.
As I look into the bathtub I see clothes in there.They are bloodstained and as I look more intensely I notice that they are male clothes
Shock and fear take advantage of me and I start crying but then remember that it couldn't be Niall's clothes because he's out of the city what means he's out of danger.
I want to call the police and tell them that there were thiefs in our house,but for I don't know why I just can't.This is too much and I have that feeling that it is just the beginning.
It's all starting anew.My nightmares are starting again I can feel this.
I go to our bedroom and it seems as if it's the only room that isn't like a catastrophe.
I don't know actually.
I wasn't in the living room yet.So I go in there hoping that it is nothing to serious.
But what I see is nothing I ever imagined to see in my whole life
I stand there totally dumbstruck not knowing what to say,what to feel and what to do.
But then as I think about it all emotions come up.And I start screaming
'Not all again!' I yell at myself.
'Not again!' I scream,punching my fist against the wall.
Blood is covered everywhere on the floor and when I reach the livingroom I can't believe my eyes
You can't always fix the broken
Is written on the wall - written with blood
And exactly under the message is nothing else but Austin's head.
Austin,the one who tried to rape me.The one who responsible for Noemie's death
Who's responsible for my dad's death.Who wanted to make my life a living hell.
But then again he was the first person I thought I would love.
He was the one who took my virginity.If I wanted to accept it or not he was a part in my life once and I can't believe that he's dead.His head shown in my living room ,letting it look like a trophy under the scariest message I've ever received from a person that wants my death.
I sit down on the floor,picking out my cellphone and looking at it as I let the tears flow freely.
I just cry,because of the fact that I obviously don't deserve a happy ending.
I don't deserve to be near someone I love because they'll be hurt
The last time I was near someone,my mum died,Noemie my bestfriend died,my dad died,Sandra's got kidnapped and Niall had to suffer so much.
The most tearing up thing about Noemie's death is the fact that I could've prevented it.
I should've.She needed me but I wasn't there for her.She told me what happened and I didn't want to believe her.
Flashback
The music is blasting,everyone is dancing or having sex.I'm dancing with some stranger,some boy I know from school and he thinks I'm drunk.I am to be honest but I am not totally wasted.
I haven't seen neither Noemie nor Austin the whole night.I don't want to see Austin he cheated on me again with some bimbo and now it's time for revenge.As I think about it,I start grinding against the boy and I feel his erection as he pushes himself against my back.
I go wild man,grinding against the boy as if there's no way out.
Then they're starting playing Rude boy by Rihanna and I move my hips up and down,giving him a lap dance.
As the song ends I see Noemie sitting on a chair alone,her make up ruined and her lipstick smeared and I fight myself to her
'Hey what happened?' I ask her as I order a two tequilas for myself
'Jordan something happened' She says and I nod my head ,telling her to continue
'I got r-r-raped' She says and I look at her as if it was nothing special.
Of course it was,but the tequila makes me to feel no sympathy for anyone.
'Who?'
'Who what? ' She asks
'Who raped you?' I slur,the drinks shooting in my head
'Austin' She says and looks down
'Austin doesn't rape.' I say,clearly disinterested because it's not the first time someone said this
'He fucks and then leaves,but don't worry Noemie I can forgive you' I assure her and hug her
Flashback ends
The next day I heard what happened.I heard that he really raped her and several other girls and I heard that my bestfriend next to Sandra committed suicide.I should've known better. Why was I so stupid?Why was I so heartless.I will never forgive myself for what happened.I can't.
You know what the last thing she said to me was?
She said I love you
To me,the worst friend ever.
My decision is final.I do this for their best and I hope that they can forgive me one day
I quickly call the police and tell them what happened,pack my bags and leave the house,the city,the country.
The only thing left from me for Niall is a letter,telling him that I'll never stop loving him
Notes
Hey my cookies,today I updated with a longer chapter.
Hope you like it
Anyways,I tried as hard as possible to bring all the old character as you may have noticed
Kimberly,Austin and Noemie.
I hope you don't mind and don't worry Sam,Harry and Sandra's babysitter will also be mentioned
Somwe question for you guys:
How do you like my story so far and
Should I in one way or another let the fans know what's going on?
Hope for some comments
11/28/13